Chapter 3
Lena tries to open her eyes, the sunlight blinding her and even making her head throb worst. It took her a while to fully open her half closed eyes and adjust to her surroundings.
Ow. My head.
She looks around, realizing where she is. Her mind flashes back to last night.
And oh my god! I called Kara!
Lena Panics as she remembers herself drunk dialing Kara, calling her for the first time. She hated herself for doing that because one, pride. Second, it was bot the right time to call Kara. She knows she messed up really bad. Lena had always imagined herself picking up the phone and apologizing to Kara but somehow, she couldn't do it. And third, because Kara said No. She hated herself for calling her best friend, if that's still what they are now, because she remembers. She remembers how Kara said No to her despite being in need. Lena thinks she remembers seeing Kara. But the memory was so hazy. Was that real? Or was it just a dream? She thinks it was. She was drunk and Kara had said No. She said she can't and won't. A sudden rush of disappointment and hurt flow through her veins. She just couldn't believe it. Lena had actually thought that no matter what they go through, Lena and Kara would always be there for each other when it matters the most. Oh well, she decides she couldn't blame Kara. After what Lena said and calling her when she was drunk, Kara had the right to push her away. Kara's words echo in her mind as she remembers that night again.
Do me a favor and get out of my life as well!
Do me a favor and get out of my life as well!
Do me a favor and get out of my life as well!
Do me a favor and get out of my life as well!
She asks herself. Could she really do it? Could she really be okay without Kara? Is she being selfish?
She can't be. She pictures out the typical Sunny, Bubbly and Dorky Kara Danvers in her head and how she turned into the total opposite the moment Lena uttered those words in Kara's apartment. Lena hates herself for that. But Kara is happy now. More than Lena has ever seen her be. She couldn't drag Kara to her drama. Not anymore. But still, it doesn't stop her from wishing Kara is still in her life. And Lena doesn't know if that makes her a bad person.
Wait. How did I get here?
Lena finally realizes she's in her Pajamas. She looks at her phone and sees one missed call and a message from Veronica.
Veronica Sinclair ❤️
I'm sorry. Left some flowers there in the living room this morning. Didn't want to wake you up though. Let's talk later?
She sighs. Lena and Veronica had their first fight a few days ago after 3 and a half months. There was a sense of familiarity in it since they used to always fight for years. But something about it was different too. Maybe it's because Veronica was now the one reaching out and not her? Or... Lena doesn't know. Something is different. But she quite just can't explain it.
She looks around and sees the glass of water and some Advil on the bedside table. She smiles, thinking how much Veronica had changed for the past months just because Veronica got scared thinking she would actually leave her. When Lena got sick before, Veronica wouldn't even have time. She was a busy person after all. But now, the flowers and the Advil, and her changing Lena into her Pajamas, she never would have thought Veronica would be a girlfriend material.
She can't help but think about Kara. Kara who used to do all those things for her...
It's been weeks since Kara saw Lena. Lena might have not probably really remembered that she was the one who took her home. She hasn't called or anything so yeah. Not that Kara wants her to. It's probably best this way.
Seeing Lena that night again had brought up so many memories, unsaid feelings and unhealed wounds for Kara. She may had the courage to leave Lena's loft that night but she had to start from scratch all over again. She went home and cried herself to sleep again. The progress she has made, the progress that her friends worked hard for, was just gone. It was like she had to start from step 1 again
She's angry at herself for feeling hurt. She shouldn't feel that way anymore. It was so hard getting back up but she finally did but now like an addict, she had relapsed and stumbled again. Now, she had to learn how to stand again.
After that night, Lucy Lane started hanging out with Kara more often. Kara told her what happened. so basically, Lucy drops by everyday, bringing Kara some doughnuts, potstickers, or coffee for Kara.
Lucy was like Kara's sober companion. She was like Kara's crutches. Whenever Kara was about to wallow into the deep hole of pain and misery, it's Lucy who pulls Kara out. It's Lucy who teaches Kara how to stand again, how to walk her life again.
Somehow, for the past few weeks, Kara had thought less about Lena when she's with Lucy. Somehow, Kara found herself smiling more often every time she's with her. Somehow, Kara finds herself missing Lucy's presence when she's not around. Maybe it's because Lucy makes Kara feel like herself, The Sunny Kara who always smiles. Maybe it's because Lucy brings out the light in her. Maybe it's because Lucy makes Kara feel special, that at least someone considers her the priority and not just an option. Maybe it's because Lucy seems perfect.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
But whatever the reason is, at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter because one person always lingered her mind no matter what. Lena Luthor
"Oh come on, Luce! I'm really not in the mood to dance!" Kara complains as Lucy drags her to the dance floor.
"It'll be fine, Kar. Look!" Lucy dances really well as she laughs and tickles Kara. "Let looooooosee"
"Fine. Fine! I guess we could have some fun before Winn arrives and throws us rants about Siobhan" Kara holds both of Lucy's hands, swaying it around as they dance to the beat. There was too much laughter in between them.
Kara and Lucy had actually been dancing for awhile and had been really having fun. Most fun Kara probably had in weeks. And once again, she was grateful to Lucy for that.
Kara's laughter slowly fades away when Lucy leans in, putting her arms above Kara's shoulders. Lucy nips Kara's earlobe in disguise.
"Don't look. But Lena up there. 2nd floor."
Lucy then puts her arms around Kara's waist, pulling her closer while Kara puts her arms on top of Lucy's shoulders. They hug each other, knowing A pair of eyes was watching them.
Kara slowly moves her head, looking up at the second floor where the ViP area is, where Lena is.
That's when she senses it. Those green eyes and a heart beat. Lena was leaning over, staring at Kara for who knows how long.
Surprisingly, those green eyes were filled with disappointment and bitterness. Kara wonders why. Lena couldn't be mad at her, could she? Hell, If someone has the right to be mad it would be Kara!
Lena and Kara have been still staring at each other when a figure heads towards her, putting her arms around Lena's waist. The woman moves Lena's hair to her right side as she kisses Lena's neck, Lena tilting her head a little bit for encouragement. It was her. It was Veronica Sinclair kissing Lena while Lena and Kara is still staring at each other.
Kara gulps and unconsciously clenches her fists as she sees Veronica Sinclair. She rolls her eyes and pulls away from Lucy slowly.
"I can't be here! I have to! I mean I have to get out of here, Luce!"