A Realisation
Everyone knew. Maggie knew, she was the first to see it. Winn and James knew. J’onn, without the use of his telepathic powers, knew. Cat Grant knew. Even Alex, who let’s face it, had a tendency to be a little on the oblivious side, knew. Kara though, Kara at this point did not know. Did Lena know? Well yes, but denial is a powerful thing.
It happens one night at the alien bar. The whole group was there, all of the super friends. Kara and Lena were sitting next to each other at the table in their own little world. Something that had been happening more and more in the last month, Kara and Lena in their own little world. They had both felt the shift in the relationship after Kara had come out to Lena about being Supergirl. Any remaining boundaries between the friends were easily knocked down after Kara’s confession and they were closer than ever. Kara for the first time in years found herself talking about Krypton, about Kara Zor-el. In fact she even revealed to Lena something she’s never explicitly told Alex. Krypton didn’t have the same gender norms as earth, it was fluid as was sexual orientation. Kara explains to Lena that pan is probably her closest earth identifier but she prefers no labels. It’s freeing and exciting in a way the Kara does not understand and when Lena pulls her into a bone crushing hug she feels a blush creep up her cheeks, butterflies fluttering in her stomach. ‘I love you Kara Zor-el just the way you are.’ At those words Kara feels more at home then she thinks she ever has and that thought hits her like a freight train. That was a week ago, a very busy hectic week ago in which she had time to neither see nor think about Lena Luthor and what on earth these feelings are. Kara’s plan for the night was avoidance, that plan lasted all of one minute and that’s how she found herself in this little bubble with Lena. When there’s a rare lull in conversation she manages to look away from Lena for a moment and across the table. She sees Alex and Maggie much in the same position as her and Lena. They’re turned towards each other, soft smiles, sparkling eyes and no care for anyone else in the world but each other. It’s likeno one else exists. Her heart starts to race as she only starts to notice now that there are several other conversations happening around them and then when she glances at her watch she swears her heart almost stops. It’s been almost two hours since Lena sat next to her. She hesitantly glances back at Lena and that’s when she knows for sure. A realisation. Kara Danvers Zor-el is in love with Lena Luthor. What in the hell is she supposed to do with that!?
She’s not entirely sure how she gets through the rest of the night after that or for the matter how she ends up standing at Alex and Maggie’s door at 2am but here she is. She has to knock a few times before a hesitant and very sleepy Maggie and Alex answer the door. The sleepiness disappears once they see a distraught and pacing Kara before them. They usher her into the apartment and manage to sit her on the couch, Alex heads to the kitchen to make tea while Maggie sits next Kara. ‘Little Danvers what’s going on?’ She glances up at Maggie and then quickly back to her lap. She’s not sure she can say it out loud. She knows it’ll change everything and is terrified of the possible consequences of that. Maybe if she keeps it to herself things will stay the way they are and that’ll be enough. With that thought she’s getting ready to bolt with some silly excuse but then a hot mug of tea is placed directly into her fidgeting hands and she’s looking directly into her big sisters caring eyes. That’s when she breaks. The dam bursts and it all comes rushing out. Alex and Maggie keep quiet, letting Kara get everything off her chest. Of course none if this is a surprise to them but they both understand how a realisation of this nature can rock the very foundations of one’s life. When Kara finally stops she won’t look up from her lap. Her breathing is quick and shallow, there are tears streaming down her face and she’s shaking. Alex reaches over and takes the mg from Kara’s hands. Maggie kneels in front of Kara and reaches under her chin bringing her head up so she’s looking straight into Maggie’s eyes. ‘Little Danvers, we love you and we are so very proud of you.’ At that Kara throws herself into Maggie and Alex is quick to wrap them both up as tightly as humanly possible. When they pull apart there’s a mischievous grin spreading across Maggie’s face. ‘So now what are we going do about you and Little Luthor?’