The Beggining of Forgiveness
The training was hard, but good.
He rembers Steve saying that Stark has no idea how to lead, but he did it in a fantastic way.
He grabbed his bag and made it to leave.
“Her Barnes, wait up.”
That made Bucky freeze.
Stark was calling him, waiting for him with his women.
The green one was calm, but the other one was glaring hard.
He slowly made his way to them.
“Yes ?”
“Did you read one of the conditions of your pardon ?”
“Which one ?”
“The one that you need to use BARF ?”
“Yes.”
“Good, let’s get started. I have to teach you how, and this beauties aren’t leaving me alone, not that I complain.”
The way they looked at each other, that was love.
Pure love, they adored and trusted each other.
“Come on man, lets go.” The pale woman said.
He followed them.
“So Barnes, what do I call you ?”
“What ?”
“I am NOT calling you Bucky, I refuse that, do I call you James ? That is your first name right ?”
James....
“That is fine.”
“Good, call me Tony, I don’t like being called Stark, and this two are Harley and Ivy.”
“Hello.”
“Sup.”
Buck....James nodded at them.
“All right, before we begin, something’s need to be clear. First of all, Steve Rogers and his crew are NOT allowed here, under any circumstance.”
“That’s ok.”
“I heard you have been distant ding yourself from them, smart choice. They got in trouble at least 2 times each yesterday.” Ivy said.
“I am calling it now, one of them will go back to prision before the week ends.” Harley said.
“Rogers or Barton. They are constantly trying to brake their orders.” Tony added.
James thinks it will be Barton, the man is a loose cannon, has no control. None of them have.
“Ok James, now. This won’t hurt you fiscally, except from maybe headache, it will cause some emotional pain, as we need to revisit some memories of yours.”
“Why ?”
“So you can forgive yourself.”
They entered the room, and signaled James to sit down.
“How can I forgive myself, if I don’t get the forgiveness of others ?”
“Most of your actions weren’t done by you, Hydra used your body as a puppet. And if it makes you feel better, I forgive you.”
Wait what ?
“You......What ?”
“You never wanted my parents dead, they forced you. Two years of distance does make you think more rational. And Siberia ? That is all on Rogers, if he hadn’t lie for two years, I wouldn’t have acted that way. Just look, two years have passed, and I am cool with you, I still hate Rogers though.”
He pointed at Harley.
“Harls, the beautifull Harls here was manipulated like you, but the asshole used emotional and fisical abuse to make her do his will. She struggled, but she healed. You can do it too.”
Harley sighted.
“At first, I hated the idea of you being here. But, time does make you think, you are not like the rouges. You are more like Scott, or Sharon. Someone that made a mistake and wants redemption, and as for what you did as the Winter Soilder. Saying what Rogers is saying, it wasn’t you, and denying it happened, that doesn’t work. What does work, is knowing that you didn’t mean to do does things, you had no control. Like when a gun kills someone, it was the gun, but the gun didn’t mean it, when Joker made me kill someone, I was the gun, he was the one that shut it. So, you did it, but as the gun, you had no control, you are not the one that shut it, it was Hydra. Take that information, and use it to forgive yourself.”
“Look man, the first person you need to forgive is yourself, Harls had it worst, but we all did mistakes here, and we forgave ourselfs, and allowed us to have a second chance. But, that is a hard progress to do, specially alone.” Ivy said.
“And you don’t have to be alone. Rogers is no help here, the man is delusional and refuses to admit his mistakes, but, there is so many people here James, that will listen. Bruce for example had to self forgive himself for the accidents he had as Hulk. Scott self forgived himself for following Rogers, and after that, it was, not easy, but less harder to get forgiveness, and moving on.”
James thought about their words.
Steve always just said it wasn’t him, like that was everything.
That never helped.
But this words, they helped.
“Listen man, at first, I didn’t want you close to my fiances. But now that I see you are good. You gained 3 friends, and we have decided, to support you.” Ivy said.
Friends, that sounds so good.
“Thank you. Really.”
The 3 nodded.
“So James, ready to begin ?”
Yes, it is time to let go if Hydra, time to figure out who he is in this new world.
“Let’s do it.”
Loki was on his common room reading.
He spent sometime trying to track Thor, but was unable too.
“So, last time I checked you wanted to kill everyone, what are you up to now ?”
Loki looked up, and saw Bruce.
“Hello Bruce.”
He noticed the woman besides him.
“You’re a Valkyrie, I thought you all died.”
“All but me, your sister killed my team, and I was banished by your father.”
Odín, his mistakes were catching up to them.
“Carol and Stephen will go talk to him tomorrow, Stephen fears he doesn’t have much time left.”
“I don’t care.”
“I know you don’t, I didn’t care for my father’s death either.”
Loki looked at Bruce, who sat down at the other side.
“My father killed my mom. Right in front of me. When parents are like this, they don’t deserve the name dad, or mom. From what I am getting, Odin was not good to you ?”
“No, he lied to me for years about what I was, saw me as a monster, and didn’t listen when I tried to talk to him. I was bullied, I was tormented, and he putted a blind eye !”
He was shocked by his own outburst.
Bruce shook his head sadly.
“And your mom, Thor ?”
“The only family I ever had. My mom lied to me too, but she cared for me, everything I knew she taught me. And Thor knew after me of the truth, for him I was always his Asgardian brother, and even if he failed to see it sometimes, he did defend me from bullies.”
“Well, I was thinking we should start over.”
“What ?”
“Vision says that someone controled you in New York, you weren’t yourself. That controled Loki is gone, let us meet the real one.”
A second chance, people willing to listen, that.....never happened to him.
Bruce stretched his hand.
“I am Bruce Banner.”
Loki shook it.
“I am Loki.....Friggason.”
No matter what, Frigga was his mother, he might as well use her name.
“And I am Valkyrie, and for the record, your father is a dick.”
“He is.”
Bruce stood up.
“Come on, there are others here that do want to meet the real you, we are not like Asgard, we value people for who they are.”
Loki slowly got up and followed them.
Maybe.....there was hope for him.