Life Goes On
Six months later
~
Gabriel was in the apartment alone
and due to extreme boredom had decided to rewatch IT for the hundredth time just because
He was about a good half hour into the movie when Sam came home, "Hey," He greeted and put his bags down, "How was the library?" Gabriel asked as Sam sat down next to him
"Perfect- we had the whole place to ourselves" He grinned, "You can't be an introvert forever Samshine"
But his boyfriend just shrugged "Watch me" He said teasingly "So what are you- oh my god!" His scream shocked Gabriel so much he almost got his popcorn everywhere
When Sam had looked at the TV he didn't expect there to be a dancing clown staring at him, it startled him so he quickly grabbed the blanket and pulled it over himself
Gabriel was beyond confused "..Sam?..are you okay?"
There was a nod from the covers "Yeah...it's just I have this thing..with uh..with clowns"
"..You're scared of clowns?"
"M-More like terrifed" Sam supplied from under the covers, Gabriel turned off the TV and Sam peeked out from the blanket "I'm sorry I know it's lame but they just really creep me out" His face was flushed red, he was more than embarrassed and Gabriel could see that "Hey, it's totally okay" He said "If you don't like clowns then I don't like clowns"
"Really?- you're not gonna make fun of me?"
"I would never Samwich," He kissed Sam on the forehead, "How is he by the way?- Cassie?"
Sam sighed "He's better, kinda hardcore focused on his work though- I think it's because it distracts him" He said "I miss him"
Gabriel nodded, sighing on Sam's shoulder "Yeah me too"
~
Cas entered his dark and empty apartment, throwing down his keys wherever he left his backpack in the living room
He heated up the leftovers in the fridge, just some pizza he'd had the other night and stalked over to the living room, hopping down onto the couch to watch old Law and Order reruns with his pizza and a beer he'd grabbed
After eating he cleaned up and headed up to the bedroom, he pulled off his clothes to jump in the shower, giving a long sigh when the warm water hit his back
Drying off his hair he nakedly walked out of the bathroom, discarding of the towel so that he could find a shirt to wear to bed when he stumbled upon Dean's clothes
He picked up a shirt he saw and breathed it in, it smelt of pie and beer, Cas smiled- it smelt like Dean, he threw the shirt on and found some briefs to go with
Stumbling into his bed, pulling the covers up, he sighed heavily- curling up and closing his eyes he imagined Dean was with him, holding him as he slept and whispering sweet nothings into his ears
He let one single tear roll down his cheeks and folded in on himself more, keeping the sobs at bay as he finally fell asleep
~
Another six months later
Sam groaned flopping down on the couch "Cas, I can't do this!" He turned to his friend with pleading eyes and Cas chuckled "Yes you can"
"No I can't" He huffed, "This is too hard, I've been pre law for a year and I'm already seriously considering giving up and letting Gabriel be my sugar daddy"
"Sam you did not come this far just to quit- what would Dean say?"
Sam shrugged lazily "I don't know something about a pie?" Cas laughed "Probably, but he'd also tell you to finish what you started"
Sam sighed "You're right- I hate it when you're right"
"No you don't"
Sam rolled his eyes "Why didn't Gabriel just take me with him to New York?- I can adapt quickly to cold places!"
"Because it was strictly business, I know you're horny but I haven't had sex in a year, you can wait a week"
Sam put his hands up in surrender "Okay- okay, but don't you miss it?- I mean you're allowed to miss it"
"Sex?"
Sam nodded "Yeah, sex"
"I do own sex toys Sam- and no- it's nowhere near having Dean and I make love- and or fuck" He nodded "I do miss his hands on me though, whether it's cuddling or just.." He sighed
Sam nodded "Yeah I get it" He said sympathetically "Y'know speaking of sex, have you reconsidered it?"
Cas scoffed when he finally got what Sam was saying and waved a dismissive hand "Sam for the last time I've never wanted to get bottom surgery- I don't get why you and Gabe keep wanting me to do this?" He questioned "I told Dean that I didn't want bottom surgery and if he shows up next year and I have a dick?-"
"Do you keep saying no because Dean would be more comfortable if you didn't get it?- or because you really don't want it?"
Cas parted his lips to speak but when he realised he had nothing to say on the matter he shook his head and stood from the couch to get a snack from the kitchen "I don't know Sam- what if I get the surgery and I'm not attractive to him anymore?- what then?"
"Not possible- Dean loves you" Sam cracked a smile as he pushed himself up from the couch to join Cas in making a snack "And you do know he's bisexual right?- Dean really just loves hearts not parts, it's your decision- no matter what Cas"
Cas sighed, reaching for the chips but Sam grabbed them out of his hands, "I'll think about it okay?" He huffed out, though mostly just to get his chips back
Sam gave him the chips "Okay" He sighed "You're my brother Cas, I just worry about you"
Cas paused, frowning as he tilted his head to the left "You consider me your brother?"
Sam scoffed "Yeah of course, I considered it even before you and Dean got engaged- we're family"
"Thank you Sam"
"Don't mention it Cas- seriously the second you and Dean got together I knew it was going to be for forever"
~
Three months later
Gabe set his keys down and made his way to Sam who was laying curled up and asleep on the couch with books and papers layed out on the table in front of him "Hey Sammy?" Gabriel said sofly and Sam groaned, slowly opening his eyes "Gabe?"
"You wanna sleep on something more comfortable and moose sized?- like a bed?" Gabriel proposed and Sam nodded "M'kay" He said and Gabe helped him up to their bedroom
Sam plopped down on the bed, struggling to keep his eyes open as he lifted his arms for Gabe to take his shirt off "You're never up this late Sam, what's wrong?" Gabe asked; Sam had a better sleep schedule than him and was never up past nine thirty unless he had good reason to be
Sam yawned "Studying" He pouted "So much studying" Gabe smiled "Aww, I know studying sucks"
"If I knew law was gonna be this hard- I never would've done it" Sam claimed and Gabe shook his head "That's not true but okay" He chuckled
"Where are you going?" Sam asked when Gabriel was done with his clothes, and putting him to bed- he was making his way to the door after giving him a kiss on the head "I want cuddles"
"I know- I'm just gonna clean up downstairs, I'll be right back"
He hurried to clean Sam's books up making sure they were put together in correct order so that Sam wouldn't be confused
Gabriel really felt for his boyfriend, what Sam was attempting was great at this rate he'd probably be a lawyer at twenty four, but he didn't like what all the late nights and studying was doing to Sam's head
He sighed and made sure everything was cleaned before heading back upstairs to find Sam curled up and on his side of the bed sleeping soundly, it made him smile as he quietly closed he door behind him, changing into more comfortable clothes and joining Sam on the bed
He pulled his boyfriend into his arms and stroked Sam's hair, "Hey Sammy?" He said hoping the boy was at least a little bit awake, Sam hummed in response, forcing open his eyes "Yeah?"
"Can you promise me something?"
Sam nodded, "Promise me you'll take care of yourself, all these lates nights and long hours at school are messing with your head"
"You care about me" Sam whispered, smiling proudly as he blinked up at Gabriel, Gabriel rolled his eyes "Yeah I do and I want to know that you're alright"
"How about we spend allll, of tomorrow together, just us" Sam sighed shifting in Gabriel's arms "I guess I do need a break"
Gabriel smiled kissing his forehead "Deal"
-
Three days later
Gabriel pouted "I'm not allowed to leave- see I'm so short that Sam thinks I'll venture off and he won't be able to find me" Sam chuckled "That's not true, I just want us to do these things together like a normal couple"
Gabriel blushed at that but rolled his eyes to act annoyed "Uh, huh" But Sam saw and smiled at him
Cas nodded "I think Sam is right, it would be nice"
Gabe shook his head, "Tsk, tsk, tsk- you were like a brother to me Castiel" Cas deadpaned "I am your brother"
Gabriel walked off, with the two following behind him "Sorry can't hear you over the sting of betrayal"
Cas sighed and turned to Sam "How do you put up with him?" Sam raised a brow "How did you put up with Dean?" And then Cas got it, "Exactly"
"Oh candy!" Gabriel reached up excitedly but even on his toes he couldn't get it "C'mom- c'mon- c'mom"
Sam sighed and with a short stretch of his arm he had gotten the bag Gabriel wanted and dumped it into the cart
He shrugged "Perks of having a six foot four boyfriend" Gabriel smiled at him "My hero" Sam giggled and kissed Gabe on the forehead, "Love you too"
-
Two weeks and four days later
"Sam?- Sam?" Cas repeated flashing his hands in Sam's face until his friend shook himself out of the trance he was in
"Sorry what we're you saying?"
Cas gestured to the tons of books on the table before them "The test-tomorrow- we're supposed to be studying?"
"Oh, yeah right- sorry"
Cas eyed him "You don't seem right, you're usually more focused" He quirked his brow "What's wrong?- are there problems with Gabriel?"
Sam shook his head fast "No, no Gabe and I are fine..really, fine- I just I went to the hospital this morning before I came over here" He gave a shaky sigh "I messed up"
"Messed up how?"
"I'm pregnant, with Gabriel's kid"
Cas' shoulders hunched "Oh," He said "What are you going to do?"
Sam sighed "I don't know..Cas, I'm so scared- I know college is supposed to be hard and I prepared for that but not for this"
"Well how far along are you?- when was the last time you and Gabriel.."
Sam laughed lightly, "Cas we don't have to talk about that part, Gabe is your brother, we're family- you don't want to hear that"
"Sam I an MD in training, maybe I can help"
Sam sighed "I think that I'm about three weeks, around that time I guess I wasn't doing so good and Gabe roped me into relaxing all day and I guess that included sex without a condom" He scoffed at himself "I wasn't even on the pill" He buried his head in his hands shaking his head "God I am so stupid"
"Sam no you're not, you've been tired I get it" Cas said supportively "Now is not the time for the regret and 'what if's' you need to figure out what you're going to do"
Sam fell back into the pillows "Well I know I'm not telling Gabriel"
"Why not?"
Sam chewed his lip "I just..I don't want him to be mad"
"Sam..I know my brother can be a lot but he is not like that"
"Gabriel doesn't need my problems, okay?- this was my fault"
Cas rolled his eyes "Well he stuck his dick in you- and got you pregnant- so this does not need to be soley on you, you are in a relationship therefore you're problems are his problems" He said firmly "It's not about what he wants it's about what you do"
Sam looked down at his hands "I want an abortion" He said quietly "I don't want a baby- not now at least"
"Then tell Gabriel that"
Sam nodded "I will just..not right now, things are good between us, I want it to stay that way for a little while longer"
"How are you gonna do that?""
Sam shrugged "I won't start showing for a while, I can hide the morning sickness and the cramps"
"But you're going to tell him right?- before you get the abortion?" Cas asked again "Gabriel deserves to know"
"Yes, I will, I promise"
"Good" Cas said "Now are you okay to get back to work or are you gonna throw up on my couch?"
Sam shoved him playfully "Shut up" He gasped lightly and swallowed making Cas eye him warily "Sam?"
"I think I might actually throw up" Sam gaged slightly with a hand over his mouth, "Sam you better be joking!"
Sam broke out in laughs "Sorry I had to" He panted between laughs and Cas glared "Not funny, so not funny"