Three More Months
"Gabriel this isn't healthy" Dean said watching Gabriel pull out another cake from the oven "Baking distracts me" Gabriel said not looking up as he stacked the last cake on top and shed the sides before he started to crumb coating his layered
"Gabriel you have to talk to Sam, he keeps asking if you're okay and I can't tell him the truth"
Gabriel paused for a moment "..I don't know what to say to him.." He said "He's gonna ask me what's wrong and I don't want to lie to him" He sighed "Sam is so caring and involved and I don't want to tell him that I was raped over the phone"
"Okay but just do something, you can't avoid him forever"
"Actually I can-"
"You know what I mean!"
Gabriel chuckled "Fine but if it backfires then I'm blaming you" He kept crumb coating and Dean focused on his homework until he heard almost inaudible sobs "Gabe?"
Dean looked up and saw Gabriel quietly weeping and he stood up immediately to go the counter and embrace Gabriel in a hug letting his friend cry into his shoulder "It's okay, Gabe- it's gonna be okay"
He got Gabriel upstairs and into bed with a slice of his delicious cake, "Not my best work but this is good" Gabriel mumbled around a mouth full "Good?- Gabe this is awesome"
Gabes reply was cut short by his phone ringing, Dean looked at the caller ID "It's Sam isn't it?" Gabriel asked with a sigh and Dean nodded "Want me to turn it off?"
Gabriel took a deep breath, setting the cake aside "No..I'll talk to him" Dean hesitated "You don't have to if you aren't ready"
Gabriel shrugged "It's okay" Dean handed him the phone "I'll wait outside"
Gabriel answered, "Hi"
"Gabe!- finally, what is going on I've been calling for days- are you okay?"
Sam was talking a mile a minute and Gabriel would've laughed if he didn't feel like he wanted to cry "I..had a depressive episode, I didn't want to tell you it was nothing really"
"Are you okay now?"
Gabriel tried to answer but he just started to tear up again "Gabe?"
"No- no I'm not- and I want you to be here to make it better-"
"...I know Gabe- I wish that I was"
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Castle knocked on Sam's door "Sam?- Michael said that you've been in your room all day"
Sam tossed his phone having just gotten off a call with Gabriel "It's Gabe..he's hurting more than he's letting on and he won't talk to me"
Castiel sighed "Gabriel's always been like that, he doesn't know how to let people in, I think he just needs time"
Sam scoffed "Yeah- at least your relationship is holding up"
Cas cleared his throat "Actually..me and Dean are taking a break" Sam turned his head fast "What?- when did that happen?"
Cas picked at his nails "Last week" Sam shifted "And you didn't tell me?- why did it happen?"
"Dean started to miss and ex boyfriend of his and said he wasn't ready to be together if he wasn't over his ex" He sighed "It sucks but I understand, he seemed to really love the guy"
Sam nodded "He did" Cas finally looked at him "You knew him right?- what were they like- be honest"
Sam shrugged "I don't know much but they were kind of inseparable, Leo was the first person Dean dated that I actually liked, they were perfect for each other- so in love, I have no clue what happened but I was too busy being a jerk I didn't see how bad he was hurting"
"But- still being honest here, you were the first person Dean caught feelings for after their break-up, the fact that he said he needed time to think was good- not a lot of people would do that"
Cas smiled shortly "Yeah" He paused "You should call him again Gabriel don't give him the chance to lie just tell him how you've been feeling"
Sam hesitated "Sure but first- I need icecream"
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"How'd it go?" Dean asked coming back into the room, "Same as always-'I want you to be here but you're not here'"
"..Sam think's that I want sex with other people" Gabriel admitted sadly "He's not wrong for thinking it"
"Gabriel he knows you'd never he's just trying to understand"
Gabriel nodded "I know, I bet you miss it though with Cas"
Dean shook his head with a shrug "Me and Cas never had sex"
"What?"
"Yeah we never got that far" Dean said casually, "Then what the hell was all that moaning me and Sam used to hear?"
"Uh making out?..I wasn't ready and Cas didn't want to push so we never did"
"You never told me"
Dean shrugged "Didn't think it mattered" He cleared his throat "Speaking of not telling you things..I signed up for training- I start tomorrow"
Gabriel huffed "Don't remind me- I'm happy for you Dean really but-"
"You're scared too- so are my parents, but they still want me to do it" He sighed "My dad of course is proud and my mom is too but obviously worried"
"Yeah, rightfully so"
"C'mon" Dean said "Where going out" Gabriel groaned "Dean- I can't, I just want to lay in bed"
"What good will that do?- you can't let it take over your life, what he did- I know you can't change in a day but you should at least be trying"
"..Okay fine, where are we going?"
Dean smirked
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"No- Gabe you need more skin!"
Gabriel huffed walking back into the bathroom with more clothes "Dean I'm not trying to get laid"
"No you are trying to show people what they can't have-you're 19, you're young"
Gabriel chuckled "Okay, gimme a minute" He came out of the bathroom in a loose light tie dye tank top and fitted black skinny jeans and the back of his hair was tied up in a man bun the rest hanging free
Dean wolf whistled "That is what I'm talking about!"
Gabriel blushed "Yeah, yeah let's just go"
After Dean got changed they headed downstairs to find Meg and Lisa waiting for them "Wow Gabe you look-"
"Don't start Meg" Gabriel stopped her and she held her hands up defensively "Hey, I appreciate nice things"
"She said standing next to her girlfriend" Lisa joked and Meg kissed her on the cheek "You know I love you babe"
They all headed to a college bar and the first thing Gabe did when he got there was order a drink..and then five more
"So what are the rules of your break with Cas?"
Dean frowned "What rules?" He asked sipping his beer, "You know- like if I dared you to go make out with that girl who's been staring and your ass ever since we got here would you do it?"
Dean flushed, feeling so suddenly put on the spot "I don't want to do that- we're not gonna see other people" Gabriel shrugged "M'kay" He chuckled when his ass started vibrating "Gabe that's your phone"
Gabe stopped laughing "Oh" He muttered pulling it from his pocket "Hey it's Sammy" He looked around "It's loud in here- I'm gonna go outside"
Dean nodded watching Gabriel leave through the back of the bar "Hello Samwise"
"Hey Gabe- are you drunk?"
"Maybe?- Dean dragged me to this- uh..bar" He kept walking to get away from the loud bar behind him and ended up bumping into someone
"Oh- sorry" He apologized immediately looking up "Oh you can run into me anyday" Came a girls voice
Kali
"Gabriel?-"
Gabriel grimaced "God what do you want?" Kali smiled at him, a sweet but deadly smile one Gabriel doesn't miss "You"
"Ugh- yeah no thanks"
Kali rolled her eyes "Oh come on Gabriel..don't be like that- remember how much fun we used to have?"
Gabriel scoffed "Remember how manipulative you are?"
"Oh come on it's not like you haven't been staring at me all night" Her hand trailed down to grope his ass and he flinched jumping away from the touch
Sam heard ruffling and he assumed the worst
"Woah- no- no- no- we are not doing that" He said pushing her hand off of him "I don't know what your aim is- but I have a boyfriend- Kali"
She scoffed "A boyfriend? now I know you're joking, you couldn't be monogamous if you tried" She said "Besides even if you are telling the truth..he doesn't have to know does he?"
Sam's eyes widened and he felt a pang of hurt in his chest, but he didn't hang up
Gabriel nodded "Yeah- yeah- no" He stepped away from her "Even if I wasn't in a serious relationship I still wouldn't go near you with a ten foot pole"
Kali's look darkened "You're not being serious?" Gabriel sighed "16 year old me didn't have standards- but unluckily for you I grew up"
He ignored her jaw drop, "Now if you'll excuse me I have a call to make"
"You're making a mistake" She called after him, "Yeah I'll be the judge of that!"
"Sorry Sammy what we're you saying?"
"You could've gone with her" Sam said
"You heard that?" Gabe said, "..You could've gone with her"
Gabriel shook his head "I didn't want to, it was a no brainer"
"You've really never even thought about it?..being with someone else?" Sam said shyly, Gabriel nodded "Yeah Sam I have"
Sam's heart broke but Gabriel wasn't done "And I realised how miserable I would be, Sam I never even so much as looked at someone because I didn't want anyone else, I am drunk out of my mind right now and still all I want is you"
"Really?"
Gabriel paused "You know what Kali did to me?- she fucked me up so bad I was almost so far gone" He said trying not to gag at the memories "She'd get me drunk or high and then say all the right things to have me wrapped around her finger, I'd sooner die than go back to that"
"I didn't.."
"It's okay Sammy- now I doubt this is the reason you called"
"Right- I just wanted to know..if you needed space"
"What?"
"Cas told me about him and Dean- and if you need space I'll give it to you, just say the word"
"Sam, I know I haven't been telling you things but the last thing I need is space, hearing your voice everyday is the only thing that keeps me going" He smiled "Three more months"
"Three more months"
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