I can always hold you close
Emily let Mia stay over, she knew Mia wasn’t in the right state of mind and that her relationship with her own mother wasn’t the best, so she took care of her, not wanting her to be the party girl she turned into after the divorce. She was crying all the time, at night when Emily was upstairs asleep she would just sob, not even knowing why, but she was expecting and didn’t know it yet, and just got broken up with, how could you blame her. Jen didn’t take that week easy either, after Mia left, she sobbed. Losing her again even over something stupid hurt more than anything, because she loved her. Of course after a couple days they fixed things, they were together, just mad at each other. More hurt than anything. Mia stayed at Emily’s, she didn’t feel safe anywhere else at that moment. But one night Emily caught Mia sobbing on the couch, ‘Mia, are you okay?’ she asked, ‘yeah, I’m fine, just really emotional lately’ she responded, ‘you don’t seem fine’ Emily said, immediately getting on the couch, letting her sob in her arms, ‘let it out, it’s okay, I’m here’ she said reassuring her. ‘are you sure you’re okay?’ Emily asked after she had finally calmed down, ‘I’m sure I’ve just been really emotional lately, I’m just really nauseous and fatigued and I just can’t stop crying’ Mia said, not even sure if she knew what was happening with her. She was 5 weeks pregnant and she didn’t even know it yet. ‘are you sure you’re not pregnant?’ Emily asked, ‘I’m sure’ Mia said starting to question if she was but brushing it off.
She was constantly sick for the rest of that week, she had mild cramps and spotting but brushed it off like everything else. Emily held her hair every time she did get sick and rubbed her back all while telling her it’s okay. Mia looked at herself one day and imagined being a mom with Jen, she looked at her stomach, wondering what could have been wrong with her, she hated her body so much at times, and after what had happened before she was scared she could never be a mom. She could never have something she always dreamed of. She loved the boys and knew they always wanted a sister or brother, she wanted to have a bigger family. Emily became the mom she never had, even though she loved her mom, and was willing to work on the relationship that had been damaged by her father. She wanted to be the best wife she could be, be the best mom she could be. She wanted to fix all the things in her life that went wrong. But where she was in the next week changed her life for the better.