trying to begin again
Jen and Mia had a happy relationship, they were finally able to be with each other again so it meant more to them than they could have ever thought possible. Mia picked up the boys from school like every other day and then as soon as she got home and walked into her and Jen’s room, looked in her closet and imagined how her life could’ve been. She completely broke down there. Jen walking in seeing Mia upset broke her in so many ways. She knew how much Mia wanted to be a mom. How much it hurt her that she couldn’t. Jen came up behind her and kissed her neck sweetly, ‘what’s wrong babe?’ she asked, trying not to act like she didn’t see the tattoo on her back because she wanted to let her explain it on her own without pushing her. ‘I wanna be a mom’ she said, sniffling, as she turned around to look at Jen. ‘do you wanna try again?’ Jen asked, ‘I do, I really do. But I’m scared, what if I can’t conceive again, what if I can’t get pregnant?’ Mia said crying again, looking at Jen with tears in her eyes. ‘you will be able to get pregnant, I don’t doubt that for a minute.’ Jen said, reassuring her, letting her crying in her arms while she held her tightly. ‘I love you’ Mia said, sweetly. Without question Jen kissed her, giving her the reassurance she needed and deserved. After Mia walked out, Jen asked about the tattoo she had on her back of a small lily flower and the name lily mae on it, she told her she got it after she lost the baby which helped her keep that memory close, Jen hugged her without question, they loved each other, endlessly.
A couple days after that day they started talking about wanting to have a baby again, both agreed on wanting to try again, to begin their family again without issue, to start their lives again like it was the beginning. They soon began the same process as last time, hoping for no issues, Mia was inseminated again, not giving up hope that it could work. She couldn’t give up that, or try to let it go. But all she knew in that moment was that she wanted to have the family she always wanted with Jen. For the boys to have a little sister or brother, Mia wanted to be a mom more than anything, but she only wanted it with Jen. Never anyone else.