never let me go
After Danielle broke up with Mia, she was heartbroken, laying against her apartment door, sobbing, but her intuition wasn’t telling her to run after Danielle, or try to fix their relationship, it was to be with Jen. Judy left Jen the same night by walking out, because Judy knew that she was in love with Mia still. So walking out was the best for both of them. Even though they were both heartbroken, left crying to gather their own thoughts. Mia’s only thought was to be with Jen that night, so she got her car keys, still crying, and drove to Jen’s. ‘Jen?’ she said yelling with a shaky voice, as soon as Jen walked over to her without question, she hugged her, she knew she was upset. Mia soon began crying, holding Jen as tightly as she could, Jen rubbing her back for comfort. Seeing Mia this vulnerable did something to her she could never explain. When Mia stopped crying for a moment, she had looked into Jen’s eyes, having her wipe away her tears. In that moment, Mia gave in completely, she was vulnerable. She started kissing Jen without hesitation, she missed her lips, her body, everything about her. In a singular second that kiss brought back the memory of when Mia was at her most vulnerable during their relationship, she remembered the time Jen came in the shower with her when she was alone with her thoughts, sad and at her most vulnerable state, they had kissed in the shower before, when they did, it was the most Mia has let her guard down in front of anyone, even being together for 2 years at the time.
Mia leaned into the kiss more, which deepened the feelings she had been holding back, they began making out, which had them pushing one another against the wall, soon Jen took off Mia’s jacket and threw it against the ground, they kissed each other deeply, fighting for dominance, Mia began unzipping the back of Jen’s dress, but she realized that her head wasn’t in the right place, so she put back on her jacket, grabbed her car keys and left, not saying a word.
The only place Mia could think of to go to is Emily’s, by the time everything had happened she was already out of her dress and comfortable, not expecting any guests. Then she heard a knock, not expecting it to be Mia. When Mia came in, she immediately hugged Emily and started sobbing, so Emily had decided to try and take care of her and talk out her feelings, Emily being the person she was asked Mia what was wrong the second she walked in, because she cared about her. They had a long talk, Emily mentioned how she know Jen still cares about her, how she got pregnant at 16 by one of her now ex boyfriends and even her experiences with dating girls, Mia telling her that she was the mother she never had, them even laughing a bit at some points, and much more, they felt the closest they had ever felt, Emily even telling her that she can come over at any time or stay as long as she wants, just her being a great human and mother that Mia never had. But the question still was there, ‘are you still in love with Jen?’ Emily asked, Mia looked down for a minute, looking back up at her after being asked, ‘how could I not be? she’s an amazing woman and an even more amazing mom, I miss her and I miss the boys more than I can even care to explain’ she said softly, starting to cry. She missed how things used to be more than anything. She wanted to have a baby and to start over completely with Jen, she was completely open with Emily. She wanted to have the life she deserved.
Jen called Madison to come over, they had the same talk, which of course Madison was very blunt and straightforward, but she wanted to ask if Jen had still been in love with Mia, ‘are you still in love with Mia?’ she asked, ‘she’s the only person who truly understands me, even though we’re still friends because of the boys I want more than that, I just want her, to be with her, I wake up every day expecting her to be next to me and when she isn’t my whole world just feels like it’s falling apart,’ she said, crying, knowing Mia had been trying to fill the void that Jen wasn’t there, and that she couldn’t wake up to someone she was deeply in love with each other. But being together, they’d have to figure out on their own, maybe even with some help of a few people. They were still in love with each other. Deeply in love with each other. Not having each other in their lives was the hardest things they could ever do. Their love wasn’t easy, but they were soulmates, you can never deny the love they had for each other, even during those 4 years, it was unconditional.