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The day started off like any other, Mia and Jen cuddled up in bed together, talking to each other and to the baby, keeping each other tight, while smiling at Mia’s growing belly, which was small, but adorable, she was so happy to start a family with Jen. ‘I wake up every day expecting you next to me, Jen, I can’t live without you, or the boys’ Mia said, during a conversation, she couldn’t imagine her life without them, and having a new baby coming along the way, made her the happiest, she was the happiest she had truly ever been. It was a normal day for them, or so they thought.
Mia had been experiencing really bad cramps that day, but brushed it off as she thought it was apart of the pregnancy, her morning sickness wasn’t even as bad as normal, and she had been spotting, by which she all thought was normal and brushed it off. She had been getting something later that day and was walking in the kitchen, but at one point she had gotten an extremely bad cramp in her stomach, holding her hand on the table, while closing her eyes and groaning in pain and agony, ‘I’m fine’ she said, brushing it off like any other thing, once again thinking this thing in pregnancy was normal. When Jen and Mia had been going to bed, Mia lifted up her shirt for Jen to take a picture of her bump, and then had Jen take a picture of that special moment. But what was scary is how when Mia found out she was pregnant, Jen and Mia’s relationship changed, and shifted in a scary way, but they didn’t know that could be the reason their relationship took the most devastating turn.
Mia woke up that night, in pain with bad cramps, and looked down, noticing she had started her period, immediately woke Jen up, ‘Jen, I’m bleeding’ she said in fear, Jen helped her out of the house, after that they went to the hospital, in that moment was when Mia’s world collapsed, she had a miscarriage, she was sobbing immediately at the loss, Jen hugging her tightly, letting her sob in her arms.
Mia cried the way home, Mia didn’t even looking at Jen but instead looking out the window, almost lifeless. What Jen didn’t know was Mia was about to end their marriage after 9 months, and Mia had lost the baby at 8 weeks, she was heartbroken and just couldn’t do their marriage anymore, even though she loved Jen. She was the most hurt she had ever been. Jen was her person, leaving her and even the thought made her cry harder. She loved her, but it was too much for Mia to handle. She didn’t want to admit it but she could never stop loving Jen, even if she tried.
Mia and Jen walked inside, Mia sobbing, walking into the kitchen, Mia broke, ‘Jen, I-I want a divorce’ she said, crying, having tears run down her face in that moment, ‘I can’t do this anymore, I can’t do us, I still love you, but this is just completely too much for me to handle, I’ll be there for the boys if I need to but I can’t do this anymore’ Mia said, sobbing, without a second thought, Jen hugged her, letting Mia sob in her arms while she was holding back tears, trying to act like the love of her life didn’t just say the most heart wrenching thing in the world, Mia and Jen truly were soulmates, but Mia losing the baby was a lot for the both of them. After sobbing and finally looking up, Mia saw the boys, crying she said, ‘me and your mom are getting a divorce, so I might not be here for a bit, or as often,’ she said, telling Charlie who had just turned 13, and Henry who was 11, that the person who gave them the best mom they could ask for, was leaving and divorcing their mom, but telling them about the miscarriage was too hard for Mia then, she couldn’t even say the word out loud, she was heartbroken, but she knew she had to leave. She hugged the boys tightly, telling Jen that the boys could call her anytime they wanted. Mia grabbed her purse, car keys, and then left, leaving Henry and Charlie hugging their mom, crying. Jen called Mia’s mom immediately, ‘tell Mia she can come home’ she said, still having a teary voice.
Mia got in her car, immediately she began sobbing, hitting the steering wheel, mad at herself, and kept sobbing. She immediately got flashbacks to every moment with Jen, when they got together, everything. Mia had a flashback to when Jen first asked her how far along she was in the pregnancy, ‘6 weeks’ played in her head, she got flashbacks to when she was screaming excitedly with her friends in front of the bridal shop that she was getting married, going dress shopping with her mom and being told ‘you’re getting married’ while trying on dresses, when she told her friends she was expecting, every memory from when she was pregnant to the wedding, to getting married, everything came rushing back in that moment. At that time, Mia’s mom had called, ‘hello?’ Mia said, sounding like she had been crying, ‘Mia, I need you to come home.’ Mia’s mom had said on the phone, Mia couldn’t answer, but instead pulled herself together, and began driving herself to her moms. Her life had just changed beyond belief, Jen and Mia were hurt, and lost, but this was just the beginning.