hey, i love you!
The ginger head’s hand couldn’t stay in just one place, her fingers lightly scratching Jeongyeon’s right leg, gliding it up and down, while leaning on her shoulder. The captain notices Sana’s lack of interest on the game that’s happening, so she nuzzles her hair, inhaling that sweet strawberry scent she loves so much. “Do you wanna get out of here?”
The Japanese cranes her neck to look up at her girl and flashed her a mischievous grin, one that Jeongyeon knows the meaning behind, only, all too well.
“Is this why you invited Dahyun?” Jeongyeon whispers, a little chuckle escaping her lips as she marvels at her girlfriend’s way of getting the dorm empty of its occupants.
Sana's grin only got wider as she stood up and pulled the captain’s hand. “Maybe... maybe not.”
Jeongyeon shook her head, her eyes dancing with amusement. She's insatiable.
"Mo, can you take over?” the vice looked up from her conversation with the pale girl.
“Why, where are you going?” the question didn’t need a verbal answer because when she looked on the Japanese girl beside Jeongyeon, she already knew. Sana was biting her index while grinning, her eyes already told Momo what she and Jeongyeon will be up to.
“Aish, you rabbits.” Momo’s face and voice displayed disgust, making Dahyun and Tzuyu strip their eyes away from the field and on to the couple. “But alright, I'll cover for you.”
The blonde girl was about to stand up as well, thinking that that was their cue to ask her to go back at the dorm, “Nuh-uh.” until the vice-captain held her wrist. “You stay here with me.”
What?
Dahyun’s heart raced for what seemed like the fifth time that day, all thanks to Momo, but she tried to calm the pulse down. This is nothing.
“Alright, I'll see you guys tomorrow.” the couple waved their goodbyes to the team and went on their way.
Meanwhile, Dahyun looked at the hand that’s preventing her from going, and the Japanese immediately released her grip, “Sorry, it’s— you wouldn’t want to go back with them. They're umm...” Momo looked a bit flustered, to which the blonde found cute.
“Unnie, it’s okay. You can just straight up tell me that they’re going to have sex at the dorm.” she smiled brightly; like the thought didn’t bother her, as if it’s the most casual thing to say, and sat back down with her eyes on the field once again.
Momo scoffed at the way Dahyun has worded it out. Obviously, she’s not a kid, Momo. Why would you even try to sugarcoat it? She rolled her eyes and tried to focus on the game. Everybody's doing it, what makes you think she’s different?
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Jeongyeon and Sana weren’t that much of fast walkers but it seems like today, they’re too eager to get to their destination.
Sana struggled to find the right key among the collection to open her door, utterly distracted with Jeongyeon’s trail of kisses on her ear down to the nape of her neck, which sent a welcoming shiver down her spine.
“Jeong...” she breathed, as she fumbled with the lock.
The door opened and Sana wasted no more time. She turned to Jeongyeon and cupped her face with both of her hands, devouring her lips. The taller girl roamed down her hands to the Japanese’ legs, and the latter already knew what her girl intends to do, so she lifts up one leg and Jeongyeon instinctively lifted both to wrap on her waist.
She carried Sana inside and kicked the door close, “Lock it,” the ginger head instructed the captain before capturing the girl’s lips again.
Jeongyeon, who’s been here for at least a hundred times, knew where to step without opening an eye, just kept walking towards the bed.
She allowed an inch of distance between their mouths to utter a reply, “Baby, for the nth time, she’s got a key.” she breathed a chuckle before laying Sana on her soft mattress. “Momo’s got her for at least an hour, don’t worry.”
Jeongyeon stood back up, leaving a heaving Sana sprawled on her own bed to turn on the bedside lamp, to somehow illuminate the face of a goddess that is her girlfriend.
Jeongyeon's eyes softened as Sana gazes back at her, like she was the only thing that matters to her, like she loves her. The thought immediately made her heart do a somersault, it’s there, her heart can feel it. That maybe this is the right time.
Under the dim light, Jeongyeon carefully hovers over the love of her life, she’s looking back at those brown orbs that glisten even under the slightest rays of light.
She was certain that Sana feels the same, she’s convinced that the Japanese is just waiting for her to say it first, out of fear that it will not be reciprocated.
The signs are all there, Jeongyeon was so sure.
The soft gazes, the way she takes care of her, the way Sana just comes at all the times she needs her, it didn’t matter how busy or how far away the girl is, if Jeongyeon needs her, she will come through. No matter the time, no matter the distance, Sana will always be there for Jeongyeon.
The Korean couldn’t help but let out a giggle, which left the red head confused but amused, nevertheless. “What’s so funny, hmm?” her hand found Jeongyeon’s neck, and like clockwork, her thumbs brushed across her jaw.
“Remember when you and Chaeng were both on a vacation just this summer?” Jeongyeon stole a chaste kiss, but the Japanese didn’t seem to mind. She’s just smiling along the silliness that’s about to come out of Yoo Jeongyeon’s mouth.
It’s one of the things Sana learned on all the time she’s with her, the Captain has a habit of blurting out foolish things just when they’re about to have sex or even in the middle of it which will make both of them laugh; but she never minds, because that’s who Jeongyeon is. She could even go far and admit that she lov— No.
“What about it?” Sana sat up, leaning her body on the backboard of the bed.
“Nothing. I just remembered how you crossed four towns just to take care of me when I was coming down with a fever.” Jeongyeon sat on her heels, trying to calm down her hurried heartbeats.
“Of course,” the Japanese reached out and planted a kiss on the palm of Jeongyeon’s hand, “my girl is my number one priority.”
“Remind me to thank Chae for traveling to Taiwan this summer, cause now I know I'm your number one.” she jested before taking Sana’s lips to her own for a brief kiss, as if thanking her.
Breaths uneven, but it’s easily the most relaxing thing to hear. Foreheads pressed together, but it’s the only place she would always rather be. Eyes closed, but she sees nothing and everything. A million thoughts were running on Jeongyeon’s head, but one stands out the most.
I love you.
Sana pulled back, stunned at what she heard. “What?”
Shit, I said that aloud? Jeongyeon was just as surprised with what she just said, but she already confessed. What's there to lose, right?
"Sana, I love you.” she looked directly into her eyes, pouring all the love she feels on this gaze.
“I realized this last week,” she chuckled, to somehow reduce the speed of her palpitating heart, “I knew I love you when I’ve realized that I'm willing to give you anything. That I'd give you the stars, the sun, the moon, I'll give you the whole universe if I could...” Jeongyeon’s smile couldn’t get any bigger as she declare her true feelings for the girl.
She searched for any hint of reaction on Sana’s eyes, anything that resembles happiness or joy or anything that’s positive, but all she got was a startled expression. Her heart is pounding, her stomach lurched. Say it back, baby.
A minute has passed and Sana hasn’t uttered a word. What is she thinking?
Jeongyeon’s heart is already on her throat, she’s excited to hear Sana say those three words back. She’s read her right for almost a year, she can’t be wrong on this one... right?
"I’m sorry,” tears started to stream down on Sana’s cheeks, “I can’t.” hurt glazing her eyes.
She doesn’t know why she’s hurting so much when she’s the one who just rejected Jeongyeon. Seeing the girl in front of her lose the smile that was plastered on her face because of her...
Jeongyeon’s tightly closing her eyes, gritting her teeth out of frustration, her knuckles white from all the hurt she’s trying to hold in... Sana knows whatever pain she’s feeling, it’s double for Jeongyeon.
It’s devastating to see the Korean suffering with all the heartbreak she’s feeling, the anguished look on her face is enough for Sana to just lean in and wrap her arms around her, to make her feel safe and loved again, but Sana couldn’t do her like that. She can’t lead Jeongyeon on further when she herself isn’t sure of what she feels.
So, she does what she thinks is best for them, “Let’s end this.”
The words that came out of her mouth shot daggers to Jeongyeon’s heart.
She looked up; only to see that everything was blurry. Her tears inhibit her from seeing the hurt etched on the Japanese’ face. She can’t lose her, she loves Sana.
“No, I can wait for you. You're almost there, right?” at this point, she’s just grasping on anything that can stop her girl from really walking out of her life, “I’ll wait, Sana, I'll wait. I don’t care if you don’t love me yet, just don— don’t leave, please. I...”
“Jeong...” Sana held her face and wiped the tears on Jeongyeon’s face with her thumbs. Trying her hardest not to fall back in, she shook her head. “Please, go.”
Please, go...
With tears falling freely on each side of her face, she shook her head vigorously. Jeongyeon couldn’t believe that Sana is breaking up with her right now. All because she told her she loves her. I'm so fucking stupid! Now she regrets ever saying it, because now, she’s losing the only girl she’s ever loved.
It's useless, begging that is. She knows Sana wouldn’t change her mind; she’s experienced it a few times to know.
Jeongyeon stood up, her chest heaved up and down, eyes red from all the crying. She doesn’t know if she will ever feel okay again.
“I’m sorry, Sana. I didn’t mean to hurt you or surprise you, I...”
It's now Sana’s turn to bawl her eyes out. She’s lost count how many times she’s cried tonight, and she probably deserves it.
She just hurt Yoo Jeongyeon, the goofiest, kindest, sweetest, most selfless person she’s ever met.
“Stop crying, you’re making it really hard to go.” Jeongyeon still looked at the ginger head the same way, she doesn’t think she’ll ever hate this girl, even if she broke her heart.
Sana wanted to say a lot of things but all that ever came out were sobs. Jeongyeon, despite having her heart shattered into a million pieces, tries to cheer up the girl in front of her, “Just take care, okay? Eat proper meals, not just those Kinder chocolate bars you eat all the time or your Gong-cha tea.” with tears still cascading on her face, she leaned down, nuzzled her hair and kissed the top of her crown. “I’ll miss you, Sana-ya. So much.”
And just like that, Jeongyeon is out the door, walking back to her own dorm.
What’s there to lose? Jeongyeon thought of the question she had in mind earlier before everything went to shit. Because she got her answer now.
Nothing much, just the love of my life.