Losing Your Memory
he had been in the hospital, he kept passing in and out and didn't understand what had happened to him. he had managed to pass out for the thousandth time and this time when he came tohe looked down seeing his leg and arm were bandaged and he felt less like he was lightheaded "your awake" he heard and turned seeing a nervous looking Blonde standing next to him who swallowed thickly and he had his hands in his pockets not sure where to put them "I...." he trailed off looking to the right of them and then he sighed as he turned back to Steve "They said it looks like you were in an accident, or that and animal attacked you or both, what happened Steve" he asked the brunette who swallowed thickly.
he wished he didn't feel this way, the feeling of confusion evident on his face as he tried to come up with an answer on what the guy meant. he looked at Steve in frustration and then sighed, he opened and closed his mouth then he scoffed "forget it Harrington" he said and started walking towards the door and Steve panicked "wait" he called out forcing the guy to turn around and face him with a disapproving look "I......." Steve looked liked he was struggling and he looked upset as well "I'm sorry, I don't.......how do you know me" he asked forcing the guy to drop the stern look and actually look bewildered. he looked away towards the door and then back as he slowly approached Steve as if he was a wild animal ready to pounce "Steve it's me" he said and he frowned not getting what the guy meant "it's Billy" he said, he still didn't understand as he looked down at the floor and then sat down in the chair "we're, well we know each other well, we've hung out a few times" he tried explaining and was looking to Steve with a hopeful smile "so we're friends" Steve asked unsure and Billy chuckled dryly as he bit his lip and looked down.
he wouldn't exactly call their relationship friendly but more like allies or two people just getting along but he looked up and swallowed thickly and nodded "yeah we're friends" he said and then he sat back in the chair, Steve smiled a bit at this and wondered why his memory was gone for now, he even asked the Blonde who sighed "we don't know, someone found your car turned over near the school and called it in, you messed your arm up pretty bad and your leg luckily didn't need a cast" Billy stated as Steve looked down and noticed his arm was bandaged and his leg was also wrapped up. he sighed as he placed a hand to his forehead and then swallowed thickly "did they say anything else, like how the accident might have happened" he asked to which Billy sighed as he looked down at his hands and then swallowed thickly "they think you might have swerved to avoid an animal but they also think maybe you were attacked and were trying to flee" he said motioning to Steve's bandages and he sighed crossing his arms.
he didn't understand what happened to him, nor was he sure he wanted to know since he was informed he had a bite wound on his ankle. they said the cut on his arm looked like he had possibly been trying to climb out of a window or something, he tried to remember but when he tried he cried out and held a hand to his head "don't push yourself......the memories will come when they come" the doctor had explained to him so he just nodded as Billy's hand remained on his shoulder. the kids he couldn't remember, he didn't even remember Nancy much aside from he knew her name, he knew their names but not how he knew them and it was over whelming. he didn't know why his father moved them out here when he was fifteen, he remembered living in New York since he could remember. it never occurred to him to ask his father but he soon learned that his father and his mother only ever came home once a month sometimes once every few weeks if they were particularly happy, he felt sad about this because his mind was that of an eighteen year old of course but he only remembered memories of himself when he first moved here.
he knew their names but not why he knew them or what they were to him, he also knew that he cared deeply for the kids and felt a protectiveness wash over him when he saw them but didn't understand why, as well as he only trusted Billy to be around him when he felt overwhelmed. he grabbed Billy's hand when the doctor ordered people out "no stay, please" he begged Billy who looked shocked, the Doctor moved forward to usher him out but Steve panicked "please can't he stay.....please" he looked terrified and the Doctor sighed as Billy leaned down and placed a hand on Steve's "fine but he can't be in the way, I need to check your vitals as well as see if your bandages need replacing" he explained to which Steve nodded as Billy smiled a reassuring smile and sat down in the chair next to him. he wondered if this made him weak but he couldn't help it, there was something about Billy that made him feel calm, relaxed, safe and sound. from there he stayed a week in the hospital and learned it was his second week there before he was heading home. he heard his car wasn't the one he actually had been driving, Billy just assumed it was his car but it was an unknown vehicle none of them had ever seen before.
his car sat in the driveway and he wondered briefly what had caused the crash, why had he been driving someone else's car, how did he get the leg and arm wounds, not to mention the most famous question "Why can't I remember anything" Steve asked for the thousandth time as he swallowed thickly and held the meatloaf Nancy had made for him to bring to Joyce as a sign that yes he was okay "look it'll be okay, eventually your memories will come back to you" Jonathan said as he opened the door and he smelled the pie his mom was making "mom we're here" he called out and Steve watched a banner come down and smiled warmly "welcome back Steve" it said and he realized it had the kids handiwork all over it. he sighed as he turned seeing a brunette woman smiling and she pulled him into a hug "you must be Joyce" he said and she looked close to tears "oh sweetie" she whispered and hugged him again, he wished he could remember her because her hugs felt so familiar and safe.
it was when he was sitting on the porch his head started hurting, he felt this throbbing pain and hissed as he stood "Steve hey, how are you" Nancy had said as she walked up, he ignored the pain in his head briefly and then swallowed as it slowly went away "head just hurts a little" she nodded as she looked to the ground then at him "do you really not remember anything" she asked him and he sighed shaking his head "I wish I could say yes but, I'm sorry I don't" he said then he got a funny look on his face "so how do we know each other again" he asked realizing he didn't know how he knew Nancy but Jonathan said they went back in some way "I mean to say the last I remembered was we moved here when I was fifteen but aside from that, nothing" he said and Nancy looked sad for a second then she smiled at him "we're all just really good friends" she explained as a door shut and Jonathan came walking out "you two okay out here" he asked jokingly and Nancy smiled as he leaned over and kissed him.
Steve saw this and he just felt happy for them, yet Nancy was looking at him with sadness again and he didn't understand. what he did know was when Billy showed up he felt calmer, he stood by the car while the kids came over and chatted with Max. Steve made his way over and didn't miss how Billy tensed but he didn't call him out on it either "you want to come in, there's free food" Steve joked to which Billy snorted causing Steve to frown in confusion "what" he said still smirking. Billy turned to him while still smoking and sighed "it's just weird seeing you all Civil and Friendly" he said and Steve frowned remembering what Billy said, then he stood straighter "you said we were friends" he stated and Billy sighed as he stood up straighter as well "we are it's just, we had a sort of bad start and we haven't been this friendly to one another" he mentioned causing Steve to sigh and then swallow thickly "you want me to stop" he asked unsure to which Billy chuckled and then pulled a cigarette from his pack "nah, it's just strange is all" he said and then Steve took the cigarette offered and smiled.
both smoked for a while and in Steve's case he was re-informed of what he couldn't remember in some parts "yeah Nancy's great, I think her and Jonathan are great together" Steve mentioned causing Billy to frown and then scoff "what now" Steve asked in playful frustration as he smiled. Billy shook his head and then sighed "I'm just surprised that you'd forget how she left you for Jonathan to begin with, you two used to date if I can recall and got into it pretty bad at the Halloween party not to mention the next day when you two broke up" he commented and Steve frowned. he swallowed thickly as he sighed running a hand down his face, why would she lie to him or in other words not tell him the whole truth "look don't stress it, you deserve better" Billy commented and Steve sighed as he tossed the finished cigarette down "yeah, the least she could have done was told me though" he said and Billy cursed as he realized he might have messed things up again but then he decided how was he to blame when Nancy should have told him.
Steve sighed as he reached the home however and saw how Nancy smiled and laughed with Jonathan, she looked so happy. she looked like she fit right with him and Steve smiled, he turned to see Billy frowning at him but then shrugged forcing a laugh from Billy who then shook his head "your a strange one Harrington" Billy said and then he sighed climbing into his vehicle. the lights flashed briefly in Steve's eyes however and Steve froze, he felt pain. pain inside his head as he remembered white halls, voices speaking, he remembers screaming. he heard a muffled voice and frowned as the roaring stopped and he slowly came back to himself "STEVE, STEVE!" someone screamed and he shook his head as he saw he was kneeling in the dirt, Billy had his hands on his shoulders and he saw Nancy's worried face, the kids looked scared, Jonathan was wrapping a blanket around his shoulders and was staring at him with fear in his eyes.
Billy looked pale as he stared at Steve, that was when Steve noticed and he wiped his nose. he came away with Blood and he swallowed thickly as he stood but then he nearly collapsed forcing Billy to take the reigns and pick him up "that's it, I'm taking him home" he told them to which the kids protested but one hard glare from Billy had them shutting up "guys Billy's right, he needs to go home, he needs rest" Jonathan stated and then he sighed handing Billy Steve's jacket he had shrugged off. Steve however felt dizzy and he felt light headed "what happened" he had asked Billy as he drove towards Steve's home, Billy sighed as he looked over at a pale Steve and then swallowed thickly "not sure, one minute we were talking and the next you just froze. I tried to get through to you but then you were clutching your head and going down to the ground" he mentioned which Steve didn't remember "I tried to get through to you again but then you started getting really pale and shaking so I called for the others, I didn't know what to do" he said.
he didn't mention and he seemed to be the only one who noticed that the wind picked up when Steve went down, it was like a storm was coming. it only stopped when Steve calmed down and was back with them which he didn't understand but he decided to let it go this time, he sighed as he looked at Steve and wondered what happened to him. why had he fallen, why had his nose bled......what happened to him the night he was found. then again he heard Steve was off in new york visiting family and wouldn't be back for weeks, it had been summer after all and still was it's just.....weird is all. funny how when he returns he nearly gets killed and winds up in the hospital but then this happens, maybe Billy was reading too much in to this, he knew Steve would never leave the kids it's just the one month he did leave he only told the kids there was a family emergency out of state and he'd be back when he could. here it was nearly the fourth of July and he was stranger than before he left, Billy wasn't so much worried for himself as he was for Steve since the guy went through something. something that caused his memories to disappear and for these seizures, headaches, attacks to happen, he sighed as he pulled up to Steve's driveway and before Steve got out he grabbed him "you......" Billy trailed off but then he sighed and ran a hand through his hair "you want me to stay" he asked looking hopeful.
Steve could see it and he could have said no but then he thought it was sweet how Billy cared, he didn't care anymore about what might have happened between them. he liked this side of Billy, the only side he really saw of Billy since he couldn't remember the bad shit as Billy called it that happened "sure" he said smiling a bit and then he went to climb out but his legs gave out as Billy came around "none of that princess, the kids will kill me if you fall and hurt yourself" he joked making Steve chuckle as the doors were shut and he carried Steve inside. the light was turned on and he was carried to the couch, except when he sat Steve down enough to stand next to the couch his hand still lingered on Steve's waist "you can let go now" he whispered and swallowed thickly as Billy stared at him. he nodded and then took a step back, Steve slowly sat down and Billy snorted "you want to rest for a moment or I guess just take a nap" Billy asked him to which Steve sighed he said maybe but he looked lost as he stared at the house.
Billy looked around and then sighed as he helped Steve back up "you should take a nap, just to get your bearings back or whatever" he commented and Steve sighed as he nodded and chuckled "yes dad" he commented and Billy wrinkled his nose "don't call me that again" he teased and Steve just laughed as he was carried up the stairs and to his room, from there Billy laughed as he pouted at being left alone but the blonde said he'd just be downstairs if he was needed. he didn't understand why he couldn't remember the Blonde Male when he felt so safe and close to him, like he felt a connection to him but could not for the life of him understand why.....then again maybe he never would. so he just sighed, snuggled under the blanket and as the sun still shined through darkened curtains he drifted off to sleep.
it was quiet when he opened his eyes, he saw what looked to be the hospital again and frowned. he didn't understand why he was here nor did he truly know how he got here, swallowing thickly Steve turned left and right as he tried to figure out which way to go to return to the exit when he turned back around. he started walking down the hall when he heard it, it was muffled at first. a scream. he frowned as he turned and heard something else, he frowned even more as he heard it getting louder. as it got louder he noticed the scene changing a bit, the hall glowed a red as he realized it was alarms going off.......he swallowed thickly as he turned and then found himself jerking back as this white haired man smiled at him "it's time to go back" he stated and Steve swallowed thickly as he frowned. he was scared of this man, but he didn't know why........he backed up and then frowned as he looked down seeing Key's in his hand.
in an instant he found himself shoving past the man and racing outside, he raced past a girl who kept staring at the building. she had red short hair and glasses and he frowned as he looked at her. she turned his way and then looked sad "I can never leave, I can't go home" she said to him and he watched in horror as she slowly started decaying before his eyes, he turned and wound up jumping in the first car he saw. the key worked which was a miracle, he backed up and was speeding down the road when he saw this creature in the middle of the road, he swerved.....the car flipped, his arm started bleeding but he knew he hadn't cut it on the car, his leg started hurting but the creature had not grabbed him. he saw a creature as he turned however and it pounced at him as he tried crawling out Steve shot up gasping as the dream slowly started fading away or nightmare if you wanted to call it that.
he swallowed thickly as he only started remembering bits and pieces of it, remembering he was running from something when he was found, there was a man as well. he remembers a man, he was scared of him but didn't know why "you okay there Harrington" he heard and turned seeing a groggy looking Billy with mussed up hair looking at him with concern and he frowned "I heard you kind of yell,it sounded like you were having a nightmare" he explained and Steve frowned as he looked down at his hands. he sighed as he turned placing both feet on the floor, he felt the bed dip as Billy sat next to him "Steve what's going on" he heard and Steve sighed as he looked over to Billy "I don't know, I just......I remembered a man, but at this point I don't know if he was even real" he said which had Billy sighing "I remembered a creature too" he said not noticing how Billy tensed. Billy swallowed thickly as he turned Steve's way and frowned "what kind of creature" he asked watching as Steve turned his way and then his stomach dropped as the answer was given "it had no face" he explained and his hands shook as the wind howled outside forcing both teens to wonder what had actually happened the night Steve lost his memories.