Remember
The Chinity line went back to China again and the remaining WJSN members just focused on their studies and solo schedules. Eunseo just went home from school when she saw Bona on the living room. Bona smiled at her and asked her if they can talk after which Eunseo agreed.
After changing her clothes, Eunseo went out of her room and looked for Bona. She noticed the latter sitting on the balcony so she sat next to her.
Bona felt nervous and scared thinking how she should start her conversation with Eunseo. She wants to be honest to Eunseo in the softest way she can so that Eunseo won't be too hurt unlike last time that the younger girl almost killed herself. Bona keeps on sighing while looking into space while Eunseo is just watching her silently. Bona frowned when she heard Eunseo laughing then glared at the giant baby.
"What's funny, Son Juyeon?" Bona asked seriously.
"I'm sorry but... you just look so cute being nervous, Bona unnie." Eunseo said making Bona rolled her eyes. Eunseo smiled. "You can tell me everything what's in your mind. Don't worry cause I won't try to kill myself again because of your harsh words, Bona unnie."
"How sure are you? You became even more sensitive after the pedestrian accident, Eunseo." Bona said with a sigh.
"I've become even more sensitive because of my depression, Bona unnie." Eunseo said and Bona watched her curiously. "I can't handle my stress and emotions well that's why I've became dependent on the sleeping pills. I keep on denying to myself that I need help that's why...this all happened. I'm so sorry for bringing you in this stupid mess of mine, Bona unnie."
"What? Stop with your self-pity, Eunseo. That's one of the reasons why you became even more stupid." Bona said glaring at Eunseo. She sighed then patted Eunseo's head. "But don't worry cause unnie is here to help you, stupid."
Eunseo chuckled. "Thanks, Bona unnie."
"But... honestly, I'm here to tell you that... I don't think I want to give us a chance." Bona said with guilt. She took a long deep sigh. "I'm sorry but... I can't accept your feelings for me, Eunseo."
"Thanks." Eunseo said making Bona frowned at her. "I felt much better with that rejection. I think...I don't know what to do if you'll ask me to be your girlfriend, Bona unnie."
"Yah. Aren't you the one who confessed first? You are too much, Son Juyeon." Bona said with a cute pout making Eunseo chuckled.
"But our playful kisses are one of the reasons why my heart dangerously ached for you, Bona unnie." Eunseo said making Bona more guilty. "But it's okay. I have no regrets in anything that happened between us. Honestly, I really want to try loving you but..."
"But your heart keeps on telling you that it wanted Seongso and not me, right?" Bona asked and Eunseo keep her mouth shut. Bona chuckled. "Don't feel sorry for me. I'm glad that your honest cause I don't really want to be a rebound, Eunseo. And besides, even though I wanted to give us a chance too, I know that I will be the one who'll lose in the end cause I'm not your real love but Seongso. I know that you'll realise it sooner or later."
"I'm so sorry, Bona unnie." Eunseo apologized.
"I'm so sorry too for confusing your feelings. I'm really sorry for almost breaking your precious relationship with Seongso, Eunseo." Bona said sincerely.
They shared a hug like real sisters, like what they always were before. They won't feel bad to fall in love with each others but instead, they will feel bad for hurting the two chinese girls who really owns their hearts.
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Bona and Eunseo went to the doctor to finally answer a lot of questions for Eunseo's sake. Eunseo told the doctor everything she can remember. From the day she started feeling so stress and restless, her drinking of sleeping pills just to escape in reality thinking that her dream world is a much better place, the pedestrian accident and her dissociative amnesia.
"Stress can wreak havoc on your mind and body. It has the potential to hurt your heart, your immune system and even your memory." The doctor explained after listening to Eunseo. "Anxiety and depression are common reactors to stress. Where you get into problem is when that stressor is on going and persistent, and the person's coping resources are overwhelmed."
The doctor continued to explain about Eunseo's depression and it's connection to Dissociative amnesia. He also pointed out that Eunseo's stress and her overused of sleeping pills can somehow made her mental state worst that she developed dissociate amnesia. The doctor explained that amnesia is her brain's way of shutting down when she didn't allow it any other way to rest.
"Memory loss caused by extreme stress or trauma is actually dissociative amnesia. If it's alright for you, I will recommend you to a hypnotist to help you in meditation to regain your memory and manage your stress, Miss Son."
Eunseo smiled then thanked the doctor. She looked at Bona sitting on the other chair who smiled at her.
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"Thanks for accompanying me, Bona unnie." Eunseo said sincerely while she and Bona are walking on the hospital lobby.
Bona smiled then gently squeezed Eunseo's hand. "You're welcome. I will always be here for you, Eunseo. You know that."
"I know and I'm so thankful not just to you but to all of our groupmates. I promise that I will finish my medications so that everything will be alright soon, Bona unnie." Eunseo said sincerely.
"I know you can do it. You are our group's vitamin and you are so strong, Eunseo. Fighting."
Eunseo is so happy and excited to finally recovered her lost memories and manage her stress well. She will do this not just for herself but also for her family, her groupmates, her friends, her fans and for all of the people who love her.
But most of all, Eunseo wants to do this more for the Chinese goddess named Cheng Xiao.
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A/N: Feel free to share me any of your thoughts about this story. Thanks for reading. ;)