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"Ahhhhhhhh! I can't!"

She immediately turns around after waking up to the sound of someone screaming from behind her.

"Wake up, Eve. What is it? Eve!"

She holds her on both of her shoulders on an attempt of waking her up and closely examining the face to see what's wrong.

"Arghhhhhh!"

She continues to wake Eve up but clearly failing and Eve is still screaming at the top of her lungs. Several moments later, Eve slowly opens her eyes, kind of disoriented that she's not in her room. She looks at her face and stops screaming.

"Oh my--- I'm sorry, V. I woke you up," the brunette covers her face with both of her hands out of embarrassment.

"Hey, it's okay. What happened? Nightmare? Are you okay?" she calmly asks.

She's close enough to examine Eve's face. Close enough to see how the sun light accentuates the doctor's features. Eve looks goddess even if she's covering her whole face with her hands, Villanelle can see how beautiful she is right after waking up.

Eve peeks through her fingers to look at her like a child.

"hm, you fell asleep on my left arm. I wasn't able to feel---oh it's coming back now,” her voice is so tiny like she’s unsure if she should say it but did it anyway.

"Oh. you scared me, Eve!" she lighlty chuckles at the brunette but suddenly remember why she's here. Eve notices the change in her eyes.

"Hey. it's okay, V."

Villanelle flops back on the bed,trying to compose herself. They are both laying on their backs and staring at the ceiling; it's not uncomfortable nor awkward. Even after few weeks of not seeing or being around with each other, they can still comfortably be around each other's personal spaces without being uncomfortable. Still, a safe space.

"How did you get over it, Eve?"

"I think no one won't ever get over it, V. At some point, I got used to him not being with us. I didn’t even realize when it happened but I stopped dialing his number at moments I need him the most. I'd like to think that he's always there watching out for me. If not, it doesn't matter anyway because he's always on my mind. I always hear his voice and he's always one of the reasons why I do the things I do. It will never be enough but I'll take it. At least he's not hurting anymore."

Villanelle sighs. Eve looks at her.

"I can't tell you that it will be okay or you'll get over it eventually. It's not the same for everyone. But, I want you to know that I'll be here whenever you need me," she adds.

Villanelle looks at her and smile.

"Thank you, Eve."

She's hurting and still mad at her living family members. So, she’s really thankful for Eve being there for here.

"You have an appointment today, right? We can go together if you want, I need to go back to the hospital soon anyway."

"Someone's been checking my schedule?" she teases Eve as she gets out of the bed to take a shower, never leaving the brunette's eyes.

"Uhm, yeah. Just need to know how you're---"

"I'm kidding, Eve. You don't have to explain. I'm going to take a shower now. Do you want to take a shower after me? You can borrow some of my clothes," She asks.

"Oh," Eve exhales, a breath of relief. "No, it's fine. I'll just shower at the hospital."

It seems reasonable to put Eve on her misery just a little bit more but she can't take it every time the doctor looks unsure of herself.

"I insist and we're getting breakfast before going to your work. No arguments."

She quickly disappears at her en suite. Giving Eve no time to argue with her. She prepares her simple ensemble for today: white shirt, black bomber jacket, ripped jeans and black converse. After half an hour, she finished her routine by putting a sunblock on her face then puts her plain black sunglasses on the top of her head.

"It's your turn, doctor. Just wear anything you want from my wardrobe," she says as she gets out of her en suite only to find Eve on her phone, talking to someone else.

Eve ends the call and turns to her.

"Sorry, are you saying something? Work."

She walks toward her and taps her nose. She notices Eve looked happy right after the call.

"I said, it's your turn, stinky head."

"You don't have to do that! Yes, I'm taking a shower," she whines like a child. She disappears to the en suite and Villanelle waits for her while reading a book at her bed side chair.

After 20 mins, Eve gets out of her en suite wearing her Oxford pullovers paired with one of her faded ripped jeans. It's a little bit oversized for her but she wears it like its hers all along.

Damn. Of course, she looks cute wearing my clothes. Nay, hot. She looks hot and cute at the same time.

"Ready?"

Villanelle snaps out of her daydream hearing the brunette's voice. She closes the book she's pretending to read awhile ago and picks up her bag. Eve follows her right after.

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The 45 minutes drive with drive thru included was comfortable and quiet like they have done this multiple times. Eve parks at the front of the hospital near the main entrance, her designated spot.

"Of course, you have your own parking slot, Dr. Park."

"Surprised? It took a lot of work to acquire the best spot in the parking area," she shrugs, turns off the engine and gets out of the car. The blonde follows immediately. They are walking side-by-side towards the main entrance.

"Not surprised. You are really good at what you do. Sometimes, I forgot that you're the world-renowned and goddess of neurosurgery."

Eve laughs, it still sounds ridiculous when people call her like that.

"Yeah? Me too, I forgot that you are a famous actress when I'm with you."

Villanelle blushes but Eve doesn't say anything about it.

"Look at your right, Eve."

Eve looks at her right but she can't understand the blonde's request.

"Do you see the cameraman with a stupid looking black cap as his disguise? Yes, still famous. Sometimes, I hate it."

"Oh, really? What a shit. Do you want me to confront him?"

"No, don't waste your time."

At that, Villanelle turns to face the man's camera and gives him a middle finger right before they enter the building.

"Congratulations, Dr. Park!!!" people say in unison.

Doctors, nurses, and other hospital staff are gather at the main lobby. The blonde stands still, confuse on what's happening. Eve doesn't leave her eyes and mouths "sorry" as Jess pulls her to the middle of the crowd.

"It's okay," she replies and waves Eve good bye.

After thanking everyone and telling them to not get their hope up because it is just a nomination, she looks at the spot where the blonde stood a couple of minutes ago. They don’t even finish their conversation, she just hopes Villanelle will feel better after her therapy.

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Two hours of non-stop contemplating and talking with her therapist put things in perspective. It's still a lot to process but it really helps a lot on understanding where her sister and father coming from.

She goes straight to her mother after the session.

"Mom, I'm sorry... I----" she can't find the words to say and starts weeping, letting it all out. She knows her mother understands her without even saying any words at all.

"I miss you, mamochka. I wish you were her."

"I miss her too, you know," Irina says behind her. "I'm sorry for letting you down," she adds while she stands beside her sister who's still looking at their mother tombstone.

"It's okay, I understand. It doesn't mean it hurts less though. Still feels like I was stab from behind my back over and over again."

She chuckles lightly, what a shit show.

"I missed you, asshole."

"I missed you too, shit head."

They look at each other and smile even though their eyes are filled with tears threatening to fall down any moment. They laugh lightly.

"Drama queen," they both say at the same time.

They sit on the bench near her mother's tombstone.

"How are you?"

"What? You're the one with amnesia, Villanelle. Why are you asking me how I am?"

They are staring at the tree in front of them. They can't look at each other, both are not used to talking about how they feel.

"I know but I wasn't here for you for a very long time, you've grown up."

"Yeah. About to enter uni next school year. I'm applying in med school at the last minute. After what happened to you and mom, I spent a lot of time in the hospital and met Eve, it just made sense. I never knew I would like to be a doctor. Now, I can't see any other future for myself."

"I'm sorry you have to go through all of it because of---"

"No, stop apologizing for something you didn't intend to do. Stop it. Doesn't look good on you."

"Oh, there she is. My shit head little sister."

"Whatever. Speaking of Eve, would you ask her if she can help me sometime?"

"What? I don't have contact with her."

"Really? After she slept on your bed last night? WELL, THAT'S NEW."

"Shut up!" she hits her on the head and runs towards Irina's car.

"Aw! Asshole! You better run for life"

After chasing each other around the cemetery for about 30 minutes, she and Irina go home. Villanelle cleans herself up and decides for a hot chocolate. She’s drinking her chocolate at their kitchen island when an idea pops in her mind. She texts Hugo for Eve’s number and after so many banters, he gives it to her.

V: Congrats, Eve. 🥳😊

E: Who’s this?

V: Ouch.💔

V: I’m your girlfriend and you deleted my number? 🤨

E: A) I don’t have a girlfriend. B) I willstop engaging if you refuse to tell me who you are.

V: Does this mean I’m your ex now?😟

After 5 minutes with no reply, Villanelle calls her. _________________________

Ring. Ring, Ring.
Caller ID: Unknown number

She’s not usually answer calls from unknown numbers but she’s really curious on who is the person at the other end, so, she picks up.

“So, no girlfriend at the moment then?” She recognizes the thick Russian accent and 100% sure she knows the person at the other end of the line.

“Funny, how did you get my number?”

“Connections, Eve.”

Eve rolls her eyes as if she can see her. Of course, Hugo will give her personal number without even asking her.

“I bet you got it from an entitled golden boy named Hugo, yea?”

“Touché, Doctora. Don’t be mad at him though, I blackmailed him to get your number,” she hears her laughing. Eve melts at the sound, she miss her silly side.

There she is. Maybe her therapy helped her to process.

“Whatever you say, boss,” she teases. “Feeling better?”

“Yep. A lot.”

“Good to know.”

Silence takes over but they can hear each other breathing. Eve decides to break it.

“Hey, V?”

“Eve?”

“Do you want to grab dinner later? My shift will end at 6:00 pm. You can say no if you don’t want to. It’s okay.”

“Are you kidding me? Of course! I’ve been dying to leave this house and eat outside!”

“Okay, then. How about korean?”

“At our favorite Korean restaurant? You can really read my mind, Dr. Park.”

“Meet you there at 6:30 then?”

“Si. Adios!”

“Bye, V.”

At 6:45 pm, the blonde arrives at the restaurant. They finished eating after an hour. If feels like a movie for her because everyone becomes blurry and inaudible except the blonde across her. Villanelle is saying something funny while smiling at her. She can feel her heart beats faster than it ever has before. She’s almost positive she’s having a have a heart attack at the moment. She never felt like this way before and it makes it more even terrifying for her.

How is It fair? She’s so gorgeous.

“Eve? Is there something wrong?”

She clears her throat, “What? No, nothing. I have something to tell you though.”