Chapter Ten
Y/N and Wanda made it back to Wanda`s room before Y/N started to cry.
“Hey, hey, sunshine, its okay, I`m right here.” Wanda closed the door before gently cupping the sides of Y/N`s face, kissing her cheeks, forehead, and nose. She wiped the tears away with her thumbs when they silently trekked down Y/N`s face.
“What`s wrong, love?” Wanda asked softly.
Y/N shook her head. “Nothing, I- I don’t know, I`m just-“ She stopped in frustration.
Wanda wrapped her arms around her girlfriend, giving her a comforting hug. She could feel Y/N start to slowly relax into her, sniffling on her shoulder as Wanda stroked her back. Wanda slid her arms under Y/N`s legs and picked her up, carrying her over to the bed. Sitting down, she simply held Y/N as she wrapped herself around Wanda like an octopus.
About ten minutes had passed before Wanda scooted back to the headboard, pulling Y/N to lay against her as they relaxed.
“I`m so tired.” Y/N whispered. Wanda waited while her girlfriend dredged up more words.
“I think I`m doing okay and then stuff like this happens. I just feel so sad and tired of things being so hard. Why cant things just be easier?”
Wanda smiled. “I know, love. But you`re doing so great, you really are. You are so strong and I love you so much.”
Y/N sighed. “Dr. Lia said some things today.”
Wanda paused; what did that mean? “Oh yeah?” she asked.
Y/N played with Wanda`s shirt hem as she spoke. “She was talking about how my brain is kinda stuck like a kid`s, that I might need to take time sometimes to let myself act like a kid to help heal all of the trauma and stuff. Like, as a coping mechanism. Do you think its too weird?”
“I don’t know, how do you feel about it?”
“I think she`s kinda right, that it might help, but I`m tired of things not working. What if it doesn’t work? What if I become dependent on it? What if I cant function as an adult anymore?” She stared into Wanda`s eyes, searching for an answer.
Wanda hummed. “Well, if it helps you, then I`m all for it. If it doesn’t work, I`m still right here; not going anywhere. Ever.”
She kissed her girlfriend deeply before pulling away. “You are way too strong to become dependent on anything, sunshine. Trust me, I`ve tried. This is just letting yourself have moments from time to time. For normal people, they could just take ‘me time’. But you, being your own special brand of amazing, cant do that because your brain runs too much.”
She booped her nose. “I don’t think its too weird; I don’t think you`re weird, or damaged, or broken. Sure it might be awkward at first until we figure out what you need but its worth a shot.”
Y/N sighed, closing her eyes. “I still feel uncomfy, though.”
Wanda hugged her. “Don’t think about it now. Don’t worry about it or fixate on it. We`ll figure it out as we go.”