I Hate You, I Love You by Gnash ft Olivia O’Brien
Yoruichi x Soifon(I Hate You, I Love You by Gnash ft Olivia O’Brien)
It wasn't a secret that Soifon had always loved and looked up to Yoruichi but what no one knew was that they were in a relationship before Yoruichi left with Kisuke and Tessai. Her heart was broken not because Yoruichi left without her but because she wasn't even capable of telling her or leaving a message for her just like she was just a toy not her lover who she promised to never leave and to always love.
When Soi Fon saw her lover or ex-lover(she wasn't sure about what they were now) she was furious because how could she appear before her and again not tell her anything? She gave so much for Yoruichi but time after time she was lied to and left behind. She didn't hate the ryoka but she was jealous about how Yoruichi was doing so much for the boy when Yoruichi never did anything for her.
Soi Fon knew the reason behind all of this but she preferred to hide her knowledge behind a mask expecting that it would hurt less when she was proven right. The reason had a name which was Urahara Kisuke, Yoruichi's best friend and probably true love. Yoruichi would burn the world of the man asked without thinking twice but nothing stopped Soi Fon from dreaming that Yoruichi truly loved her and one of these days Yoruichi would apologize to her and tell her how much she loves her.
I hate you, I love you. I hate that I want you. You want him, you need him and I'll never be him.
Maybe it was time to let go knowing she would just be a toy to the person she loved. All the dreams that involved Yoruichi were left behind in the darkest place of Soi Fon's mind being guarded by her zanpakuto. Her love for her ex-captain didn't disappear but she saw the way Yoruichi looked at Urahara like he was everything and she couldn't fight that even if she wanted.
Once upon time Soi Fon may have had an opportunity with Yoruichi but now she didn't and she thanked to have Omaeda as her fukutaicho who could not be the best at his job but always knew what Soi Fon needed so with his help she may be able to forget little by little the woman she once loved and find a new love.
Yoruichi once had been everything for Soi Fon, and she knew it from only looking at Soi Fon's eyes, but now she was only a shadow of the past which hurt Yoruichi even if she didn't know why when she had finally got together with Urahara. It was like she was forgetting something about her and Soi Fon but she ignored it because what happened in the past was in the past even if her heart hurt and her zanpakuto whined and cried when she thought this.