• Peter stood at your funeral with tears streaming down his face so bad that he couldn’t see.
  • He kept his sobs in. He felt like he shouldn’t shatter the moment, especially because he blamed himself.
  • There was a new villain in town and Peter didn’t realize the tricks this villain had up his sleeve
  • When Peter noticed you, he was able to talk to you real quick.
  • He begged you to leave, but you were too stubborn. You wanted to help anyone you could get away before you did.
  • If he wasn’t in a battle, he would have made you leave but duty calls.
  • He left, feeling a little angry at you. He loved your selfless nature but not when it could get you killed!
  • He was fighting the villain and the next thing he knew, rumble was flying everywhere.
  • Peter was quick to take down the villain but not quick enough.
  • He called your phone as soon as the battle was over. His heart dropped when he heard your ringtone. It was too close to the disaster area.
  • He followed the noise to find you dead. His heart clenched as tears started to blur his vision.
  • He cleared all the rumble off you and picked you up.
  • He walked past a bunch of police officers, firefighters, and paramedics. They all asked him if he needed help.
  • “No. I have to return them to their parents myself.”
  • He knocks on your door. His heart drops at your family’s faces when they see your corpse.
  • He can’t stop apologizing. They don’t want to hear it.
  • He apologizes to them at the funeral. They tell him it wasn’t his fault, it was that villain’s fault and maybe Spider-Man’s too.
  • He knows it was his fault. If he was quicker, smarter, braver maybe you would be alive.
  • But he wasn’t. And you aren’t here.
  • You’re dead.
  • After the funeral, he gets closed off. He’s already lost so many people in his life, and now you? That’s just not fair.
  • When he’s Spider-Man, he’s ruthless with everyone. He beats the criminals within an inch of their lives.
  • He spends all his time working. He hardly eats or takes care of himself anymore.
  • “Peter, would (Y/N) want you beating yourself up this way?” “Shut up, Ned! You weren’t the one who killed her, I was. This is what I deserve.”
  • He won’t hear Ned’s or MJ’s or even May’s protests that he didn’t kill you.
  • He did and he knows it.