Bittersweet || SaHyo
Sana, a girl who is often seen as bubbly, affectionate, and loving. She somehow manages to brighten up dark and gloomy days with her shenanigans, though sometimes, she may be a little too energetic for others. Although she does enjoy showing love to her friends, it would be dishonest of her to say she doesn't feel bad for people trying to keep up with her hyper behavior at times. But surely, being dishonest isn't always bad, right?
She always tells herself to be 100% honest with others to avoid conflict, and or losing their trust. However, her heart never fails to soften as she looks into their eyes. Afraid of hurting them with the truth, she has a tendency to sugarcoat things...
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A day like any other (when they have no schedules of course), with everyone in the living room, the chatter being as lively as ever. Sana was sitting on the sofa, right next to MiMo who were having their own little convo as Sana spaced out. They looked at her concerned, she was staring down at the floor and had a strange look painted on her face for a while now.
They say if you're right in front of the microwave while it's on, your cells will die. Is that true? What do you do if they die?
...But since it releases radiation aren't we just gonna end up eating it anyways?
Mina waved a hand in front of Sana, to which Sana responded by jolting slightly and looking up at her.
"H-Huh? What is it Mitang?"
"Oh it's nothing, you just had this look on your face so I was getting a bit concerned..." Mina replied. Sana shook her head and smiled.
"Don't worry, it's nothing important really." She then quickly scanned the living room. Hmm, it seems everyone was there except for one person.
"Say, where's Jihyo?" She asked the rest of the girls in the living room.
"I think she's in the room." Nayeon replied. Sana nodded and thanked Nayeon, and then headed to the room she shared with Jihyo and the others.
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Right...Jihyo, probably the loudest out of all of them. The one who very often makes jokes about Sana being her partner, about Sana belonging to her and her only. The one who puts her trust in Sana along with 2yeon the most these days, and the one whom every other member sincerely trusts and relies on. It would only make sense, as she is the group's leader.
She may be the leader, but that doesn't mean the members are perfectly fine with her taking things on by herself all the time. Sana likes to check in with her whenever she can, so it isn't out of the regular for her to seek Jihyo out like today.
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She stood outside and knocked on the door. Yes, it is her room as well, but she likes knocking anyways, as it has become a habit.
"Come in." A shaky, uncharacteristic voice spoke. It made Sana feel slightly anxious as to what she would see once she turned that doorknob.
Sana entered the room and saw Jihyo covering herself with her blanket. She walked over to the bed and laid next to her, staring at the blanket that covered her face, only to pull it away from her shortly after. She was greeted by a girl with puffy eyes, eyes that were full of tears, her lips trembling as she attempted to keep her distress from unmasking itself even more.
It broke Sana's heart to see her like this, no matter how many times she has seen it already. She looked beautiful, even when crying, but it still hurt Sana deeply whenever she saw her in this state. So miserable, so unlike her usual self, so...
Vulnerable...
She brought her hand to Jihyo's face and wiped a tear that managed to escape. She then rubbed Jihyo's cheek with her thumb and looked into her eyes.
"What's wrong Ji?" No answer, only light sniffling.
"It's him again, isn't it?" Jihyo looked at Sana and nodded, her lips trembling more than before.
"But it's also the netizens..." Jihyo said. She bit her lip, regretting having started yet another venting session with Sana.
They made her cry again.
I hate it...
"Do you wanna talk about it with me? Or would you prefer cuddles and kisses?" She joked, hoping to lighten Jihyo's mood at least a little. And although it was meant as a joke, she wasn't too surprised when Jihyo asked for cuddles. Perfectly understandable.
Sana patted Jihyo's back as Jihyo cuddled her like a baby, which brought both of them a sense of comfort and safety.
"If you decide you wanna talk about it, I'll be here. I'm listening..." Sana said. After some deep breaths and cuddles, Jihyo finally felt ready to talk about it.
"I don't know, I just get the feeling like things are slowly gonna...f-fall apart from now on..."
Sana knew everything, from the very beginning. She knew about him, and she knew about her. Jihyo was looking for someone to love, and he, who was looking for someone to save him, happened to cross her path.
In the name of love, she tried to save him, not realizing she herself had begun to drown. Sana wished to tell her this, but despite the bad times, Jihyo just seemed so happy with him. She didn't have the heart to tell her anything. And so, Sana also joined this chain of hurt.
In the name of love.
For her...
"So what if they know?" She told her.
"What matters is that you're happy, Ji. I know some of our fans are quite taken aback by it, but trust me when I say it'll be okay."
It'll be okay...
Jihyo only sniffled as Sana told her this.
"It hurts me to see you like this, Jihyo. My heart can't rest knowing you're feeling unhappy..."
Even if it hurts...
Jihyo once again sniffled, mustering up the courage to speak again.
"How could I ever be unhappy? I have you by my side...my partner." She said with a chuckle as Sana brushed some hair away from her face.
Even if I don't stand a chance...
I'll still love you...
Sana, in response, gave Jihyo the sweetest smile, and with that smile, her heart. It is painful, having to hide her feelings like this. But she would rather be in pain than have to witness the one she loves like this.
And I'll still try to be happy for you, but I wish the lies that constantly spill out of my mouth tasted as sweet for me as they do for you...
They're rather...bittersweet...