The Dance
Lexa looked at herself in the mirror as she made some last touches with her powder to finish her make-up, she looked great. However, she wasn’t too excited about going to this dance - she hadn’t been excited about much since she broke up with Clarke.
Honestly, it was a good decision - she was tired off Clarke being so blind with Bellamy. Damn, she was jealous off Ashley that Lexa had zero connection with. Bellamy though, that’s a completely different story, they couldn’t even be compared in her eyes.
Clarke had known him forever and fine, Lexa could buy that he meant a lot to her but this obsession was getting to much - taking over her ex-girlfriend. Lexa had been patient with her, given her time and she had tried her best to be understanding but Clarke didn’t see that - being with someone who constantly thought about someone else (that Clarke also had sex with) was nerve wrecking.
Lexa had done her fair wrongs in the beginning and maybe agreeing to the prom wasn’t her best moment but she didn’t like being treated like she wasn’t top priority. Was that selfish off her? To want attention from her girlfriend?
The worst part was that she knew Clarke didn’t mean to hurt her, she had seen her big heart and how much she cared for her friends. Usually it wasn’t something bad but in Clarke’s case it wasn’t healthy.
”Are you ready?” Anya popped her head into her room and it made Lexa snap back to reality and stop starring at herself.
”Yes” She smiled at her sister.
”You look gorgeous” Raven entered the room and she didn’t look bad herself either.
”Same to you”
”Don’t get any ideas” Anya winked at her sister and it made the three girls laugh.
”I’m meeting Ashley at the dance so we’re good to go” Lexa informed them as she grabbed her phone from the desk.
”Let’s have some fun!” Raven cheered.
***
Clarke looked at the crowded dance floor, knowing exactly what she was looking for but there was no sign off her ex yet. She was sipping on some soda and was honestly bored at the moment, she would rather be at home - sleeping.
”You look nice!” Octavia walked up to her with Lincoln and Bellamy behind her, they guys stopped to talk to some team mates.
”So do you!” Clarke looked at her friend, she was beautiful. ”Lincoln is one lucky guy”
”How are you holding up?”
”I’m surviving” Clarke told her.
”And…you’re here with Bellamy?” Octavia wondered.
”As friends…honestly I don’t even know. I told him today that it wasn’t really a great idea and we came here separate. I just don’t want to confuse him or make him think that it’s something more than that”
”That’s a good idea” Her friend nodded.
”He doesn’t seem to happy about it though…” Clarke glared at him. ”He’s starting to get on my nerves, he needs to accept that I don’t want anything else”
”He does” Octavia looked at his brother as well. ”He can be a douche sometimes”
”I wasted so much time trying to save our friendship and in return and lost Lexa…I just -” Clarke stopped talking as she immediately spotted Lexa walking into the room with Raven and Anya behind her. She was breathtaking and everyone turned their head and looked at her - she couldn’t blame them, she was drooling as well. Her smile quickly disappeared when she noticed Ashley almost running towards her, the cheer captain kissed Lexa on her cheek and her whole body stiffed at the sight.
”I need some air” Clarke told Octavia before she flee the scene.
***
”You look absolutely stunning!” Ashley smiled at her.
”You too” Lexa smiled back.
”Everyone is looking at us” She chuckled and Lexa had indeed noticed, she had especially noticed Clarke starring at them before she rushed away. She hated that she cared.
”Well…do you want to dance?” Lexa asked her and Ashley nodded like crazy.
Lexa was glad about the hectic dance music that was playing loud, she didn’t have to talk too much with Ashley and they didn’t have to slow dance close to each other. Raven and Anya had joined them as well and it made it easier to make it friendly. Lincoln and Octavia was close by as well but they where more occupied with each other.
She didn’t have a bad time though, it was actually nice to have fun for an evening and for a moment just move her body to the rhythm of the song.
”I need something to drink” Lexa had to speak loud for Ashley to hear her. ”Want anything?”
”I’m good” Ashley told her as she was still moving her body, not ready to stop dancing.
***
”Are you gonna stand here all evening?” Bellamy asked Clarke as she was trying her best to hide from everyone.
”I’m just not in the mood” She told him.
”We could dance?” He asked.
”I’m not in the mood, I just told you” Clarke looked at him.
”Okay…” Bellamy leaned on the wall next to her. ”Wanna talk about it?”
”About the fact that my ex-girlfriend is out there having fun with my friends while I’m hiding here because I’m ashamed for how things ended? Or - how I decided to go this dance with you even though I deep down knew it would hurt her? Or maybe the fact that you won’t accept that I want to work on our friendship and not see if there is any sparks between us? You see, whatever I do - I will hurt someone I care for. So Bellamy, do you really wanna talk about it?”
”Damn…” Bellamy sighed. ”Listen, I’m sorry how things ended with the two off you..”
”But you’re not Bellamy?” Clarke was upset. ”Instead of listening to me, you took your shot to invite me here and if I didn’t accept you would keep ignoring me, don’t you see have fucked up that is?”
”I didn’t mean that…I just - ” Bellamy was unsure what to say. ”I didn’t mean to take advantage of the situation Clarke I just thought we could have a nice evening”
”I can’t blame you…unfortunately I think we’re more alike than I want to admit” Clarke sighed. ”We want whatever suits us the best, ignoring who we hurt on the way to get there”
”We’re not that bad Clarke”
”But we are Bellamy…and I am just starting to realize it and it’s an awful awakening let me tell you that. I think that I wasted a lot of energy on someone I thought was my friend” Clarke locked eyes with him. ”But turns out that I was wrong”
”Don’t say that, you don’t mean that…we’ve been best friends forever”
”Exactly, so why do you want to ruin that?” Clarke spitted. ”I think you’re more upset that I turned you down - because no one turns you down - it’s getting to your head”
”Why are you being such a bitch about this? I confessed my feelings for you and you’re acting like this?”
”Wow, what a man you are Bellamy. Making me so eager to find that spark you talked about…I have done nothing but being honest with you…fuck you”
”So this is it?” Bellamy shook his head.
”I don’t want you near me right now and that space you wanted - please take it and use it, I am done chasing after you”
”Clarke…” Bellamy tried and she could see the regret in his eyes mixed with anger.
”No” Clarke shook her head. ”I’m done trying and I will be fine if you never wanna talk to me again because of this, because you can’t accept that I don’t feel the same way about you. Just leave me alone Bellamy”
”We’re are you going?” He yelled after her.
”Home” Clarke yelled back before leaving the dance and the loud music behind.
***
Lexa had some big sips of the water she just poured herself, she was warm and the cold water running to her body felt amazing. She was a little out of breath from all the dancing and decided to sit down for a moment.
She spotted Clarke rushing through the dance floor and wondered where she was going, she hadn’t seen her all evening. Second after she noticed Bellamy as well, he seemed upset and when he noticed her staring at him he walked towards her. Fuck.
”Lexa” He sat down next to her, she was not pleased by it.
”What do you want Bellamy?” She wondered.
”Just saying hello”
”Okay” Lexa tried to keep it casual.
”So I heard about you and Clarke…bummer” He didn’t look upset about it, instead he was smirking about it.
”I don’t feel like talking about Clarke with you” Lexa told him, trying to stay calm.
”I’m sorry she chose me over you”
”If that’s how you see it, sure”
”It’s over between you two, you realize that right?” Bellamy was looking at her intense.
”What are you trying to say here?” Lexa rolled her eyes. ”Don’t you think I know we broke up?”
”That you should leave Clarke alone…she thinks being with me will hurt you”
”What do you mean?” Lexa swallowed and had to take another sip of her water.
”She struggled tonight, knowing you where here…and for me and Clarke to move forward you need to let her go”
”We’re not together anymore” Lexa could feel her heart get heavier, what the hell was going on here?
”You’re not” Bellamy agreed. ”And I think that’s best for Clarke…and we want whats best for her don’t we?”
”If Clarke wants you, I don’t see what our problem here is?” Lexa wanted to yell but it wasn’t worth it, did her ex actually have feelings for Bellamy?
”She does, she just told me but she was afraid to face you…do you see what I’m trying to say here?”
”That you want me out of the picture, I got that Bellamy. Are you really that insecure?”
”No, I’m asking you to leave Clarke alone”
”So why did Clarke run out of here? You’re saying that’s because of me?” Lexa scoffed but she was actually in so much pain, she needed to try to laugh it of.
”That’s exactly why…she doesn’t wanna hurt you either so I’m actually kindly asking you to respect our feelings and respect our wishes”
”You’re really something” Lexa shook her head. ”That you have the nerve to walk up to me, telling me that I have to respect you guys? What about you respecting me?”
”I don’t mean to offend you Lexa…We can’t help how we feel about each other”
”Of course you can’t, well don’t fucking worry about me Bellamy. She’s all yours”
”I’m sorry it had to end this way” Bellamy told her as she stood up.
”You’re not sorry?” Lexa spitted through her teeth. ”Don’t ever fucking talk to me again, you hear me?”
”So we have an agreement?” Bellamy asked her, ignoring her anger.
”Both of you can go fuck yourselves or each other, just fucking leave me alone” Lexa swore before storming off.
Her heart was breaking into a million pieces and she was not gonna let him see that.