Running for president

”You know what?” Bellamy sighed. ”Forget I even said anything…”
”Bellamy” Clarke stood up.
”After everything we been through I thought I at least deserved some honesty from you Clarke…” He looked at her. ”But silence? I just put myself out there”
”You must understand I am a bit shocked”
”Just…forget it okay” He started walking but Clarke went after him, she felt bad about the situation.
”Don’t walk away” Clarke raised her voice as he kept walking towards the entrance off the school.
”Then please say something” He opened the door and the sudden sunshine hurt her eyes for a second.
”Okay, okay” Clarke took a deep breath and he finally turned around to look at her. ”I am sorry Bellamy, I do love you and I care for you but you are one off my best friends and I…I don’t feel that way about you”
”Because you never let yourself go there” Bellamy crossed his arms. ”You know there is something here, we just never act on it”
”Bell” Clarke might have thought about in the past for a brief moment. ”I’m sorry…I don’t want this to affect our friendship”
”I think it just did Clarke, listen…and think I might need some space from you” Bell looked at her with sadness in his eyes. She didn’t like seeing him like this but was she suppose to lie to him? That would only make everything worse.
”We should talk about it…please Bellamy” Clarke pleaded.
”I’m sorry” Bellamy shook his head and turned around as he started walking away from her, she didn’t try to stop him this time. She figured he needed space but she watched him walk away until she couldn’t see him anymore due to the trees and bushes.
”Fuck…” She breathed for herself.

***

Lexa looked at her mom as she carefully brushed her hair, it was dirty and she wanted to clean it for her but she had no idea how. At least she could sort out the tangled hair - her mother didn’t seem to mind. To be fair she didn’t seem to care about anything but Lexa was living on that small ”no” she had gotten a few days ago.

As she was brushing her hair she talked to her even if she didn’t get any response, deep down it felt like her mother listened to every word so she kept going even if it was nonsense. She told her about her day and she even talked about Clarke, that she was catching feelings for someone again.

Her mother had always been supportive since she came out, it wasn’t really a big thing either. Lexa had gotten home with her first…could she even call it a girl friend? Anyway, her mother had just asked if it was her girlfriend and Lexa had nodded quietly in response, unsure what would come next.

Her mom hugged her and said she loved her no matter what and that she was happy for her and that was it, she never really had a struggle coming out - her dad didn’t say much about it but he didn’t look at her different or questioned her choices. He was supportive in his own way and to be honest she didn’t want them to be extra about it. It was still her, nothing had changed really.

Anya never really stated her sexuality, she had been with boys and girls over the years - honestly Lexa believed she fell for the person rather than focusing on the gender. As long as her sister was happy she was cool with it.

”We’re gonna be alright” Lexa kissed her mothers forehead before leaving the dark room, she wanted to turn some lights on but she was thinking baby steps. She didn’t want to force anything but she was thinking about starting with a table lamp, a bit further away from the bed to see how her mother would react.

She had a good feeling about this, her mother was strong.

***

”He did what?” Octavia looked at Clarke surprised to hear her brother confess his feelings for her.
”He’s avoiding me, ignoring my calls…my texts. I honestly don’t know what to do” Clarke sighed as she sat down on Ravens bed. It was a few days after the day in the library but she hadn’t had the time to tell them yet, she had suggested for them to hang out today and her friends had been eager to hear what she had to say.
”To be fair…” Raven looked up from her phone. ”Are you really that surprised, anyone can see that he has a crush on you”
”I didn’t” Octavia bursted out. ”He never said anything about it to me and to be fair we talk about almost everything”
”We might had a flirty past or…I’m not sure if I can even call it that. We have been friend zoning each other for years”
”Did you ever think about it?” Raven wondered. ”You and him?”
”Not really…He’s a good guy and I do love him but…”
”That’s not what I asked” Raven pushed.
”Yeah fine, I might have - but that was a long time ago. I don’t want to ruin our friendship and to be fair…I can’t even see him like that anymore”
”I can’t believe this…typical guys to speak up years later” Octavia shook her head. ”Like what did he expect?”
”Probably not this” Clarke shrugged. ”I just…I feel so bad about it”
”What did Lexa say?” Raven slipped out and Octavia looked at her weird.
”Why do we care about what she thinks about this?” She wondered.
”Shit…” Raven looked at Clarke with an apologetic face. ”Sorry”
”Excuse me?” Octavia looked at both off them knowing they where hiding something. ”What are you guys not telling me?”
”Me and Lexa…” Clarke had to tell her, it’s not that she wanted to hide things for her but the more people that knew the higher chances off it to spread. ”We are secretly dating” Clarke saw Octavia gasp so she rushed her next sentence. ”I know I should’ve told you, I wanted too but we both decided to keep it on the low…Raven found out because well she’s Raven”
”No one can hide shit from me” Raven smirked.
”Oh my god?” Octavia had to stand up to take the news in. ”How could I not see it? It’s so freaking obvious now that you say it”
”Please don’t tell anyone, we will eventually. It’s because off the campaign, we don’t want do let our relationship take all the attention”
”Strange but…no of course” Octavia assured her.
”And Bellamy doesn’t know” Raven looked at Octavia and she tried to gather everything she just heard.
”Shit…I know you don’t want to hurt him Clarke…just go easy on him okay?” Octavia asked her.
”I don’t trust me…” Clarke sighed at the tricky situation, she had no idea how she would handle this without telling the truth about Lexa.
”And…I will talk to him too” Octavia nodded. ”He can’t keep ignoring you but I know my brother, he will need his space to calm down and then he will come around”
”I hope so” Clarke understood, she would probably need some time if it was the other way around.
”Well…now that Octavia knows…” Raven smiled. ”You have to tell us about Lexa, we have no idea about your secret relationship, spill the tea”
”Okay” Clarke smiled at the thought off the brunette and she had wanted to talk about her with her friends for so long. ”She just makes me so happy…” Clarke started and then they dived deep in a conversation about Lexa and also her friends relationships. It felt like it had been a while since they all just talked and it was nice to catch up with their lives.

She had missed her friends.

***

Lexa closed her locker and corrected her jacket after throwing her bag over the shoulder, she was ready too leave the school and spend some time with Clarke. The last week they had both been a bit busy and she missed her.

They had decided over text to meet at the parking lot so she slowly made her way over to her car, Clarke’s class hadn’t even finished yet so she wasn’t in any rush.
”Hey Lexa” Someone yelled and she turned around just as she reached her car to see Ashley run towards her.
”Hey Ash” She was a bit surprised. ”What’s up?”
”I wanted to ask if you’re coming to the first game on Friday?” Ashley had her blonde hair in a pony tail and was dressed in her cheerleader outfit, Lexa wondered if it wasn’t a bit cold outside for that.
”Of course” Lexa nodded. ”Have I missed a game yet?” She asked.
”No, you’re really supportive" Ashley smiled a bit to long and Lexa finally saw that she might be trying to flirt with her.
”Thank you, the team is doing great this year” She tried to change the subject.
”Me and the girls have a little surprise for you on Friday” Ashley smiled wider, ready to see Lexa’s reaction.
”Oh…what now?” Lexa took a step back as Ashley was getting closer without seeming rude.
”It’s a new cheering song and we where thinking that you maybe wanted to introduce us this time?”
”Introduce?” Lexa wondered.
”I’ve seen that Clarke is a bit a head off you so we need to work harder Lexa, say something great like you always do and we will do the rest” She winked, even if she might be a suck up it actually wasn’t such a terrible idea.
”Okay” Lexa nodded. ”Thank you” She smiled back now.
”See you on Thursday for a quick rehearsal” Ashley cheered up now that Lexa was in on it. ”But you can’t stay for practice, we want that to be a surprise”
”You know I love cheer practice” Lexa slipped out and she swore to herself, sometimes she hated that she flirted with basically any girl she found attractive. She hadn’t been doing it since she and Clarke got serious but this had been a part off her personality for so long that it was a hard habit to shake.
”You’re welcome any other time” Ashley chuckled. ”See you Thursday” She smiled before skipping away.
”And what happens Thursday?” Lexa turned around and saw Clarke starring at her with crossed arms, shit how long had she been there? Did she hear her stupid comment?
”Ashley is helping me with the campaign” Lexa said as she waited for the blondes reaction.
”Of course she is” Clarke shook her head. ”Can we go somewhere where I can hug you?” Clarke looked upset and Lexa looked at her worried.
”Is everything alright?” She asked.
”No…” Clarke opened the car door to her side and Lexa quickly made it over to the driving seat. ”I missed you so much this week and…I had a fight with Bellamy and he won’t talk to me”
”I missed you too…” Lexa placed her hand over Clarke’s and she looked around in the parking spot before leaning in for a quick kiss. ”One more” Lexa had missed the touch off Clarke’s lips against hers.
”Mom is working late, might even be a night shift so we can go to my place if you like”
”Bummer, your mom is cool” Lexa was joking but she wasn’t lying either.
”I am not sure if cool is the right word to describe my mom” Clarke laughed an damn, Lexa had missed the sound off that as well.
”So babe, tell me what’s on that sweet mind off yours” Lexa was concerned.
”I am not sure you’re going to like it…” Clarke looked at her nervous and it made Lexa more tense.
”Okay…” She focused on the road even if she wanted to look at her girlfriend right now. ”What is it that I am not going to like?” She didn’t mean to sound so harsh but she was scared to what Clarke wanted to tell her, especially if it involved Bellamy.
”Bellamy confessed his feelings for me” Clarke nervously said while she focused on the road as well.