Christmas!
Lexa handed in her last assignment for this semester and thanked her teacher Indra as she wished her a merry christmas and happy new year. All though she smiled and wished her the same Lexa wasn’t that excited about the holidays.
She hadn’t gone visited her mom yet and she was not gonna join them this year, it would be the first christmas without her. Her dad had promised to take her too her next year, hopefully in the beginning when it wasn’t too much with school.
Anya was pissed at both their parents, dad for lying and at mom for not snapping out her depression. Lexa had no idea how she was like and it was scaring her a little, a little delay didn’t mind her.
”Lex” Luna waited for her by her car.
”Luna” She smiled and opened the car with her keys.
”We made it darling” They closed the car doors and Lexa started the engine.
”I can’t wait to sleep in and forget about school for a while” Lexa stopped the car as some students was passing by. of course it was Clarke and Raven. The blonde stared at her as she passed but looked away as Raven said something. The blonde was driving her crazy at the moment, maybe it was her fault for backing away as soon as she tried to have the talk.
She just didn’t understand why…they where having such a good time? Did Lexa want more, yes maybe in the future but why did they have to go so fast? If she was really honest with herself she knew that ever since she fell for Costia and made her whole world about her - to have your heart broken sucked, so yes maybe she was a bit afraid. Clarke Griffin scared her but she couldn’t get enough off her.
”Fuck…She’s hot isn’t she?” Luna followed her and Lexa wanted to tell he everything but it was her and Clarke’s secret, she wasn’t sure if it was her place to tell.
”Yeah” Lexa just casually nodded, it wasn’t a lie.
”Do you think it’s gonna be weird having them join the trip?”
”It’s definitely something we haven’t done before…”
”I’m curious about their jocks friends” Luna shook her head. ”I hope they aren’t like the stereotype”
”I wouldn’t know” Lexa told her. ”I don’t think they’re that bad”
”That’s the Bellamy guy right?” Luna asked and Lexa looked where she was pointing and saw him next to Clarke with that goofy smile on his face, how could Clarke be so blind not to see that he was into her?
”Yes” Lexa got a bit annoyed by the sight. ”They are friends with Lincoln so I guess they are okay”
”He’s crushing on Griffin” Luna chuckled. ”We should play some dirty games and play with them a little” She smirked and Lexa thought that was a terrible idea. She had seen Clarke kissing Niylah and that was terrible, seeing her with a boy would probably be worse.
”Don’t start shit, we’re just getting to know them”
”Okay, okay…I thought we could have at least a little bit fun”
”Maybe” Lexa smiled at her. ”Just go easy on them”
”When did you become so soft?” Luna chuckled. ”Anyway, I am starving can we get some food?”
”Of course” Lexa speeded up the car.
Christmas came quicker than she imagined, her dad woke her and Anya for breakfast and it was pretty awkward. They usually didn’t spend much time together, just the three off them.
”I have to run by the office but I will be back for lunch” Their dad said.
”You have to work on christmas?” Lexa looked at him, seriously.
”I’m sorry sweetie”
”I got you” Anya put and arm around her.
”Thank you, see you soon girls and umm…merry christmas”
”Our family is depressing” Lexa looked at her sister.
”Good thing we are amazing” Anya smiled at her. ”Come on, let’s eat some candy and watch Home Alone”
”Alright” They snuggled up next to each other under a blanket, it was something about christmas and being close to your family. Anya maybe didn’t seem like the perfect sister but too Lexa she was, they understood each other like no one else did. Sure they could fight and argue about a lot but in the end of the day they would kill for each other. When you grow up in a house where the parents aren’t always present you rely a lot on your siblings.
Lexa started scrolling through her phone too see everyone happy Instagram photos filled with big family and happy smiles, stories with people laughing and spending time together. The only one sticking out was a post from Clarke Griffin. ”We miss you today, love you dad” and an older picture of her with Jake and Abby, her story showed her legs and probably her moms chilling in front of a fire. She felt bad for Clarke and she wanted to text her but wasn’t sure if it was a good idea.
”Take a selfie with me” Lexa said to her sister and Anya leaned in.
”I can’t believe you got so blessed with being photogenic” Anya wined.
”I’m just prettier” Lexa teased. ”Okay one more”
”That will do” Anya agreed and went back to watching the movie. Lexa added the title ”Christmas with one is better than none” and hopefully Clarke would get the memo. It was shit she must admit but she just wanted to send out the message that she wasn’t alone. It didn’t take long until she saw ”Clarke Griffin replied to your story”. She wanted to wait a little before she opened it, to not seem too desperate but one minute felt like forever so she gave up.
Clarke Griffin: Merry christmas Lexa, take care of each other!
Lexa Woods: Merry christmas. I know you miss your dad extra today.
Clarke Griffin: Yeah, unfortunately I don’t have a ping pong table at home.
Lexa chuckled a little at the text, remembered that day when Clarke followed her home. Lexa had seen her upset all day and she just wanted to see her smile again, she had no idea her dad had passed. She was definitely strong.
Lexa Woods: You got this! :) Otherwise, you know where to find one
Clarke Griffin: Thank you..See you soon.
Lexa Woods: See you.
”What are you so smily about?” Anya teased her.
”Nothing” Lexa smiled wider.
”Who is she..?” Anya asked.
”No one, come on” Lexa shook her head.
”Let me see…” Anya snapped the phone from her and even as she tried to take it back it was too late.
”Anya”
”Oh…Clarke Griffin? Lexa…”
”You can’t decide who I can see or not” Lexa sighed.
”I know..I just, I don’t know anymore. According to Raven she’s the best person in the world”
”So when she say it you believe it?” Lexa chuckled.
”You know I’m just looking after you”
”I know” Lexa nodded. ”I’m careful”
”You always give so much…and then…”
”I don’t need a reminded thank you” Lexa cut her off. ”Anyways, I think I fucked it up so you can relax”
”What happened?”
”I was careful…and she wanted more”
”And what about you?” Anya wondered.
”All I know is I can’t go a day without thinking about her, she drives me crazy but in a good way…she makes me do stuff I can’t explain, I don’t think straight around her”
”I’m pretty sure you don’t think straight around anyone” Anya joked.
”Naah, you’re right about that” Lexa winked. ”But yeah, she’s special”
”Now I feel bad for being such a bitch about it…”
”You are always a bitch Anya” Lexa teased.
”Yeah…well is it too late?”
”I don’t know, we are going back and forth about the same thing…I just…I am scared that if I give it an honest chance and she’s…I don’t know, looses interest. It will fucking hurt”
”You have to ask yourself if she’s worth it then?” Anya suggested. ”Can’t let Costia haunt you forever”
”I just don’t know how I feel”
”I think you do sis”
”Maybe”
”Why don’t you give her a christmas gift?”
”How will that help?”
”Say you’re sorry, something romantic…I don’t know, this is usually your expertise”
”I feel like I shut down that part off me”
”Find her, use her”
”We will see…”
”Yeah, I mean whoever fucking hurts you again will get stabbed so…”
”Oh is that right” Lexa laughed.
”Yes you little shit head…how about we start making lunch and even if he doesn’t deserve it we can surprise dad when he comes home?”
”Sounds like a good idea” Lexa agreed.
The sister had a good time in the kitchen, they put on some cringe christmas music and did their best cooking the food. It had been a long time since they hanged out like this and Lexa realized how much she had missed her sister. She figured Anya had missed her too because she was on her best behavior and even when dad got home she kept smiling, it was unusual for her.
Their dad got extremely happy and even changed from his suit into a silly christmas pajamas Lexa and Anya got for him a few years ago. Even if so much had changed this year, that her mom was missing it was still a pleasant day. Lexa of course had her mom in mind the whole day but she tried her best to do the best off the situation.
Christmas was over quickly and as it was sad the holiday was going so fast Lexa was excited as she was packing her suitcase. Every year her and her friends made a trip to their magical house up in the woods for some skiing. It was a week filled with drinking, bath tubbing, skiing, amazing food in a freaking winter wonderland.
Even if Anya was dragging some new people into their tradition she was excited because it meant that she would see Clarke - and maybe they where fun she had an open mind.
”LEXA” Anya yelled from her room.
”YEAH” She yelled back.
”Are you done?” Her sister entered her room with a big bag on her shoulder, she was dressed in sweats and looked ready for a road trip.
”Yeah, who’s going in my car? Or what’s the plan?”
”Me…you of course, Gustus and Luna” Anya told her. ”We need to go and pick them up”
”Alright, are we waiting for the other cars?” Lexa put her bag on her shoulder and took a last look into the room to make sure she didn’t forget anything.
”We talked about having lunch like mid trip, that’s when the roads get tricky so I think you will have to lead the way”
”Alright” Lexa nodded. ”I’m not driving all the way though”
”You love driving” Anya shrugged and winked at her.
”Oh…just FYI” Lexa dropped her bag in the trunk. ”No one knows about me and Clarke…so please don’t say anything, not too Luna or Raven especially”
”I figured” Anya put her bag next to hers. ”I hope you girls don’t kill each other this trip”
”Can’t make any promises” Lexa chuckled.
”Oh well, l wish you luck little sis”