Frustrated
Clarke impatiently waited in the cramped study room for Lexa to get there, it was the day after and they had a break together at 10:15. She hadn’t talked to her since lunch yesterday and she felt bad for ditching on her the way she did.
”What took you so long?” Clarke was relieved to see the door finally open.
”I’m on time girl” Lexa looked at her phone to check the time.
”I’m sorry” Clarke bursted out.
”For?” Lexa closed the door and looked at her confused.
”For last night, we made plans and…”
”Don’t sweat it..” Lexa sighed and sat down in the little ugly purple couch.
”I feel bad for it…I just didn’t know how to say no” Clarke tried to read Lexa, she seemed a bit off.
”No I get it…yesterday got me thinking actaully. Like what are we even doing?”
”What do you mean?” She felt her heart raise.
”Hiding, lying to our friends, to my sister - and at the same time we are both running for president. Can’t you see in how many ways this could end badly?”
”Of course it crossed my mind…but”
”Maybe we should…”
”But I like you” Clarke finished her sentence.
”Clarke…” Lexa looked at her as she rolled her name out in a way only she could. ”I like you too but we can’t even spend time together without hiding and it’s just… hard, it shouldn’t be this hard”
”We will figure something out” Clarke was stressed, this is not what she wanted.
”Hey…” Lexa grabbed her hand to calm her down. ”Maybe we should just take a little break from this, it doesn’t have to be that bad. Just some space”
”We barely have any time together and you need space?”
”When I’m with you” Lexa smirked at her now, that damn smirk that she had started to adore. ”I can’t think straight and it’s getting frustrating to not to be able to be with you for real”
”Lexa” Clarke sounded desperate as she reached for the girl sitting next to her, the brunette opened her arms and allowed the girl to crawl next to her.
”Maybe we can figure something out” Lexa sighed as she played with blonde hair.
”This sucks” Clarke sighed.
”Yeah…”
Lexa had been serious about some time a part, not that Clarke thought that she wasn’t it was just painful to go to their usual spots and Lexa not showing up. She kept trying though, wishing she would magically change her mind.
Even if she hated it she understood Lexa, it was a dangerous game they where playing - it’s al fun and games until they get caught. Her friends just believed she didn’t have as much to study anymore and where glad to see her more during the school days.
It’s been around a week and Lexa hadn’t said a single word to her, Clarke stalked her Instagram stories and she seemed to be doing alright. Hanging out with her friends, hanging out in their freaking mansion - she partied over the weekend and she couldn’t help but notice (with stalking Costias Instagram as well) that they where at the same party.
Clarke was a bit jealous, yes. She didn’t like that side off herself but she couldn’t help it really - if she liked someone then just the thought of them being with someone else made her sick - but Lexa was a free woman. They never even dated or announced what the fuck they where, just two people having fun.
”So are we excited for Christmas break?” Raven asked them as they where on the way to see the soccer teams last game until next semester.
”It’s like more than a month left?” Octavia chuckled.
”Time goes by fast, there will be like two weeks of fun but we have to plan it”
”I don’t even want to think about next semester…” Clarke sighed.
”We have to work on your campaign girl but I mean it could be fun” Octavia smiled at her.
”All my grades depend on next semester and with work and the campaign and…just”
”Relax girl” Raven interrupted her. ”You’re like the most dedicated person I know, you will handle that easy”
”Yeah and Lexa seems to play nice now so maybe the two of you can have a peaceful campaign”
”I hope so” Clarke looked at her friends, trying to distract herself from the thought of Lexa.
”So winter break?” Raven tried again as they sat down, a bit further up to get a better view over the field.
”Hey girls” Anya walked by them and winked, luckily she didn’t stay to chat.
”She’s really stepping on my nerves” Raven wined.
”Can’t you just talk to her?” Octavia asked.
”Okay so I am exploding soon so I might as well tell you what happened” Raven sighed.
”Well please” Clarke had been dying to know for a while but didn’t want to pressure her.
”We where making out in that bar, Rockys or whatever it was called. That night after your speech Clarke when Miller popped the question…it was going great we where having a great time”
”Please no details” Clarke warned her.
”I’m just trying to give some backstory but okay…” Raven glared at her. ”She started asking question about you Clarke, if you where the one to plan that thing and at first I brushed it off, like no but she kept going”
”Oh..” Clarke was intrigued to hear more.
”I got a bit annoyed eventually”
”Oh you have a short temper” Clarke looked at Octavia and pretended to be surprised.
”HA-HA” Raven looked at them but she smiled a little bit. ”And I told her off, she stepped on my last nerve and I might have told her that you are better than Lexa”
”Sounds like you are missing some details?” Clarke looked at her.
”Maybe that you would never step to her level, that you have a heart and I maybe called her sister a bitch…hard to remember all the details” Raven said nervously.
”That sounds like a stupid fight” Octavia shook her head while Clarke was thinking that it did explain a lot though, how Anya had talked about her.
”I was a bit ashamed, maybe I crossed some lines but I didn’t think she would get this upset”
”She’s protective over her sister” Clarke told her.
”And how do you know?” Raven got confused.
”I mean…I’m just guessing that’s what sisters are for?” She tried to save it.
”Lincoln is a bit upset that we all can’t hang out” Octavia told them. ”He and Gustus are good friends, he even speaks well of Lexa and Anya”
”How does he know?” Clarke wondered.
”They used to hang out before, they slipped away I guess but now that they got the chance to talk again Lincoln realized how much he had missed them”
”He’s not missing much, tell him that” Raven complained.
”She’s obviously still trying to get your attention?” Octavia said.
”True, she doesn’t bother me unless you are with me” Clarke chuckled.
”Fuck off” Raven looked back and stared at Anya so Clarke followed her move but to stare at her sister, Lexa was there.
”Lucky you, game’s starting…GOOO ARKADIA” Octavia yelled and Raven and Clarke started cheering with her as the boys ran out.
As expected the boys won this game as well, they had truly been fantastic so far - there was no doubt almost. As usual after the game it was time for some celebration, as it was getting colder outside they had planned it at Finn’s house - as many other people in this school his parents had plenty of money and a magical house. Nothing compared to the Wood’s family but is was just as beautiful.
”So I invited Gustus and the gang” Lincoln warned them as they walked into the living room. They had all went home to change in between but it seemed like most people went straight from the game.
”What?” Raven questioned him.
”Come we can all settle this bullshit, we go to the same school and want to celebrate this win together” Lincoln shook his head. ”Just avoid each other or something”
”Easy…” Raven rolled her eyes as she saw Anya, Gustus, Costia, Lexa and some other people chilling in the kitchen.
”My man” Lincoln went there to greet Gustus.
”Sorry” Octavia looked at Raven.
”It’s not your fault and I guess he is right, we don’t have to hang out with them”
”Clarke, want to help me get these drinks in the fridge?” Bellamy looked at her and she swallowed, that meant she had to walk into the same room as Lexa.
”Yeah” She grabbed a bag in each hand and he did the same, she hated the fact that she tried to walk a sexy as she could.
”So what did you think off the game?” He small talked as normal while Clarke felt the burning green eyes following her, she flickered and locked eyes with her.
”It was great, you did great as always” She forced her attention back to Bellamy.
”Did you see that I almost fell” He chuckled. ”But I saved it real nice”
”You did” Clarke tried to stay focused in the converstueastion while he was unpacking the alcohol.
”What do you want?” He asked.
”What’s cold?”
”Beer” He handed her one and grabbed one for himself.
”Thanks” She smiled at him while they cheered. ”And congrats on the win”
”Maybe you’re my good luck charm” He winked at her and suddenly some glass broke in the background and they turned to look what happened.
”Sorry” Lexa rushed for some paper while Gustus grabbed the few glass pieces that had spread on the floor, luckily it hadn’t shattered in thousands.
”No worries” Finn walked in to see what happened. ”It’s AAA PARTY” He cheered them on and the music started playing louder.
”ARKADIA” Bellamy cheered with him and while people where back to whatever they where doing Lexa and Clarke just stared at each other, the tension was real. The brunette shook her head before she left the room.
”I’ll be right back” Clarke told Bellamy as she decided to follow her. Lexa walked into one of the guest rooms and Clarke closed the door behind her.
”You weren’t suppose to follow me” Lexa told her.
”I wanted too” Clarke walked closer.
”Why?”
”And why would you go in here if you didn’t want me too follow?” Clarke looked at her and carefully placed an hand on her arm. ”Are you okay?”
”Don’t do that” Lexa sighed.
”Talk to me” Clarke didn’t want to give up.
”I’m okay” Lexa finally looked at her, she didn’t look convincing.
”Don’t push me away” Clarke lowered her voice.
”I’m fine Clarke…you don’t need to check on me”
”I can’t just stop caring about you” Clarke questioned her. ”I don’t know how this can be so easy for you but I can’t just forget what happened between us” She raised her voice.
”Easy?” Lexa scoffed. ”I’m not flirting with other people in front of you”
”Flirting?” Clarke’s time to scoff.
”Maybe I’m you’re good luck charm” Lexa tried to mimic how Bellamy sounded.
”We are not flirting and he said that not me”
”And you laughed like a little girl, just admit that you have a crush on him”
”Are you the one to talk spending all that time with your ex?” Clarke fired back.
”Who’s the stalker now?” Lexa raised her eyebrows.
”You are fucking annoying you know that right?” Clarke sighed.
”I didn’t ask you to follow me here, you can go back to your little boy toy” Lexa raised her voice now.
”God, just shut up” Clarke was getting really frustrated and couldn’t help but raise her voice.
”Make me” Lexa stepped closer and Clarke looked at her intense, she was so pissed right now and Lexa wanted to make out? Why did Clarke want to make out, why was Lexa’s plumped lips the only thing she could think off right now. Lexa stared at her with desired eyes and Clarke couldn’t take it anymore, she threw herself over the brunette and Lexa had to steady herself so they wouldn’t fall to the floor. They where kissing aggressively and Clarke couldn’t wait anymore, the wait was killing her, she needed more of Lexa so she stopped to take off her own shirt before she pushed Lexa onto the bed.
”Damn” Lexa smirked but was already sitting up to get more of Clarke, she straddled the brunette while Lexa easily unzipped her bra. Lexa stared at her bare breast for a few seconds before she started sucking on her nipple, Clarke moaned.
”I’m fucking angry but I want you” Clarke breathed so Lexa rolled them over and Clarke’s back got pressed against the sheets with Lexa all over her, the brunette didn’t even care to take off the black skirt she was wearing, she just pulled it up on her stomach before she reached for the underwear in a rush to take them off.
”I’m fucking pissed too” Lexa mumbled as she was placing kisses all over her. ”But you’re fucking sexy” She worked her way to the heated area and as she finally got there Clarke had to cover her mouth not to scream out loud.
Fucking finally.