don’t walk away
‘I’m pregnant’ Mia said, completely terrified of what Jen might say, ‘you’re what?’ Jen responded completely in shock. ‘I’m pregnant.’ Mia said, crying, still completely in shock, ‘I took a test and it was positive, Jen. I’m 6 weeks.’ for a moment it was silent, Jen not saying a thing. The silence soon went on for five minutes and Mia couldn’t take it anymore, ‘Jen, please, just say something’ Mia said, pleading, while completely upset, not knowing how to handle her own emotions. It was dead silent for a second. ‘Get the fuck out.’ Jen said, pissed, while she had also not known how to handle her own emotions. ‘Okay.’ Mia said, still crying, grabbing her keys, slamming the door and walking out to get in Emily’s car, she soon left and drove on the highway with it raining, while crying because she remembered getting pregnant at 18 in high school, and having the same thing happen to her, which made her feel worthless, like she could never be a good mother. Even though everyone knew that if she had the chance, she’d be the best mom someone could ask for. Being a mom was her dream, and not being able to have that without Jen, it made her feel terrible.
As soon as she got home to Emily’s, soaked from the rain, she was met with Emily asking her why the mustang was gone, but she made up an excuse that she had just went to the store, which she knew that Mia had probably gone to Jens, even though Mia picked up more pregnancy tests on the way home just in case, but after it stopped raining Mia took a shower, and sobbed, although she couldn’t believe she was finally pregnant, she was sad she couldn’t have this with Jen. She loved the boys more than anything and she already loves this baby more than anything, but not having that with someone like Jen, well, it hurts. She hated having to lie to Emily but she had to after what happened last time with the baby, when she asked ‘where have you been’ and ‘where was my mustang’ she panicked. Emily was the one person she could trust, but lying to her was hard. Trying to act fine around her, that was hard. Saying ‘I just went to the store’ and then having to take a shower to cry because she hated being vulnerable, that was hard, she pulled herself together well for a while but that didn’t mean that what she was feeling wasn’t heavy, Mia loved hard, and losing Jen, that was the hardest thing she had ever felt, because she felt like with Jen, she didn’t have to hide, or put up a wall. Jen felt the same. She was just too scared to admit it. They were scared of losing each other, they had a connection so deep, and yet so beautiful, that if they lost their other halves, they might as well have never existed. They built something beautiful together. They just needed to fix it, but Emily believed they could, so did Madison, and even the boys, hell, even each other.
After Mia finished her shower, and eventually dried off, she went to the bathroom, looking at herself in the mirror, looking at her stomach, talking to the baby, she said, ‘hey there, my little monkey, I know it’s just me and you right now but we’ll be okay, me and your mom will be okay. But I’m not gonna let you come into this world feeling unloved, or feeling like you don’t have a family that already loves you. You are a blessing, even if you don’t know it yet. But I want you to know I love you, your brothers are going to love you, and your mom is going to love you.’ Mia said, sweetly, talking to the baby. Mia didn’t know it yet, but she is going to be a great mother, the most loving, and the most caring. Her strength was admirable, but her as a mother, it was beautiful.