secrets of the past
Its a few days later, Alex has just woken up.
They share the room with Peter and Morgan, and even though they love the company it doesn’t exactly give them much privacy.
They walk with their clothes to the bathroom, when Nat and Wanda are done Alex walks into the room.
After they’ve put on their clothes they look into the mirror and smile. They have been dressing masculine and androgynous lately and it has made them really happy.
“Alex!” They hear someone yell.
They then realize who the voice is coming from, Grumpy.
They immediately run down stairs and see him standing there.
“Kid, who the hell is this?!” Tony asks them annoyed and irritated.
“Come here.” Alex tells grumpy, they really don’t want the others to get mixed up in fairytale business.
Alex walks into the only separate room in the house, followed by Grumpy.
When grumpy closes the door, Alex turns around and screams “what are you doing here?!”
“What am I doing here? What are you doing here?! You can’t just come uninvited-“
“I didn’t come uninvited, I told both ruby and David I was here.” Alex says defensive.
“Whatever.” Leroy sighs. “Can you just do 2 things?”
Alex doesn't want to get mixed up in fairytale business but on the other hand, they’re an avenger. Which means that they’re a hero. If there’s trouble in storybrooke, and they’re capable of doing something about it, they should.
“What is it you want me to do?” Alex asks
“Fist off, tell me how the hell you were able to cross town line. One of my brothers tried and now he lost his memories.”
“He doesn’t remember who he is?” They ask.
“Well, he only remembers his curse memories, not his real ones. Do you know why that is?”
Do they know anything about that? Did Regina ever tell them something about crossing town line?
“I don’t know, honestly.”
“You don’t know?! Your wife must have told you something!” Leroy yells at Alex.
“Listen up you dwarf, you have no right to yell at me. I’m only helping you because I’m one of the good guys now, not because your or your brothers life means anything to me! No Regina didn’t tell me anything, and she is not my wife!” Alex yells back at him.
“If you were a hero, you’d be helping us get snow back by now.” Leroy murmurs.
“What?” Alex asks, legitimate concern in their voice.
No they don’t care about the dwarfs, but David became their friend during the curse. Snow and Alex weren’t that close but Alex knows she’s a good person and that she doesn’t deserve any trouble she’s in.
“You don’t know?” Leroy asks them.
“No, I don’t.”
“Rumplestilskin had sent the wraith after Regina but Emma insisted on saving Regina. Emma, Snow and David were planning on sending the wraith to another land through Jefferson’s hat. Emma accidentally fell through the portal and snow followed her.” Leroy explains.
“That explains all the noise last night and the destruction in town.” Alex comments.
“Yeah.”
“What land did they fell in?” Alex asks him.
“It’s not really a land, it’s more a void. We sent the wraith to where the enchanted forest was.”
Alex sighs, Snow didn’t deserve this.
“I’m sorry for your loss.” Alex tells Grumpy.
“No. I won’t give up on Snow or Emma. I refuse to believe that the enchanted forest is gone, no matter what Regina or Rumplestiltskin or anyone else says.”
Alex knows it’s a lost couse but David, Grumpy and all the others in this town won't give up on them. Snow white is a hero and leader to this town and Emma is the savior. Alex shouldn't give up on them either.
“I promise I’ll do everything in my power to help save them.” Alex promises Grumpy.
After Grumpy left their home, Tony asks them “what was that about?”
“It’s nothing.” Alex tells him annoyed.
“You sure?” Tony asks them, not believing Alex at all.
“It’s nothing! And even if it were it would be none of your business! You’re not even my real dad so you don’t to get to act like the worried parent, got it?!” Alex yells at him.
He takes a step back, there are tears in his eyes. He looks upset, hurt.
Alex then quickly walks out of the house and up to the street. Fuck, they ruined it. They never wanted to hurt him, they just snapped.
A part of them wanted to hurt him, wanted to hurt someone, but that part terrifies them.
They decide to walk to the police office where David probably is.
They feel horrible about what they said but they can’t cry.
They can’t give into pain, instead they’ll live up to the promise to save snow and Emma.
When they’re at the police office they see Thor standing next to David.
“Thor? What are you doing here?” Alex asks confused.
“I’ll leave you two alone.” David tell them, he then walks out of the room.
“I heard you talking to Tony.” Thor tells them.
Alex sighs, “it’s really none of your business Thor, you should get out of here.”
Thor takes a step forward. “No, I won’t leave you. I know what you’re doing, you’re trying to push me away. Loki always does that when he’s hurt, I won’t let you do the same. You’re my best friend lady Alex-“
“I am not a lady! Stop calling me that!” In an second the words are out of there mouth and they know they can’t take it back.
Thor takes a step back, he looks taken aback by Alex’s outfall.
Alex starts crying, they don’t want to push him away.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I don’t want to push you away. I’m ruining everything, I’m-“
In a second Thor walks up to Alex and gives them a hug.
“shh, shh, I’ve got you.” Thor says, stroking their hair.
“I’m a monster.” Alex whispers.
“No you’re not, I’ve seen monsters. But you, Alex Stark, are an avenger, my best friend and my family.” He tells Alex softly.
After Alex has calmed down Thor lets go of them, “tell my everything, okay?”
Alex nods. They know what Thor is talking about. He doesn’t want them to burden whatever is burdening them alone, and honestly Alex doesn’t want to either.
“Okay.” Alex nods. “I’ll tell you everything.”
They both sit on the table, Thor has placed his hand in Alex’s to comfort them.
“I-“ Alex clears their troath. “I’m from the enchanted forest. All fairytale characters are real, like the norse mythology is as well. All the fairytale characters once lived in the enchanted forest, including me.”
Alex looks at Thor to see their reaction, but Thor is completely cool with the information Alex just told him.
“Regina, the evil queen, used to be my girlfriend. She was a good person once upon a time, the best I kew.” Alex smiles at the memory. “I was the stable girl, I would teach her how to ride her horse. We had to keep our relationship secret because of her mother Cora, her mother was as homophobic as it gets but the worst thing was that she had magic. If she’d ever found out me and Regina were dating she’d kill me.” Alex sighs.
“One day Regina and I heard a little girl yelling for help, her horse had run wild. Regina had immediately jumped on her horse and saved the little girl, that was the person she was back then. Beautiful and-“ Alex stops themself, they need to stop thinking about her.
“That little girl turned out to be snow white. Her father was the king and had proposed to regina. Regina didn’t want to accept but her mother did it for her. The worst part was that when Snow had found out about me and Regina she had told Cora about it. When Cora had found out about it she wanted to kill me, but Regina’s father Henry stepped up for me. He payed the ultimate price for it, death.” Alex shivers at the memory. It was the worst thing that ever happened to them, an innocent being killed because of something that was their fault.
“It gave me time to run away so I did. Cora didn’t know where I was, only Regina did. Her father’s death had broken her and she wanted to learn magic to bring him back. Rumplestiltskin had taught her, when she found out resurrection from the death wasn’t possible she didn’t stop, instead she became darker and darker. Overtime that she came to visit me I could notice it, I had lost the woman I loved. Regina was hellbent on killing snow white and made anyone who helped her suffer.”
Alex starts crying “When I found out what she did I.. I didn’t stop her or told her she was better I- I begged her to let me join her and she did. I wanted her so bad Thor, so bad. I would kiss her while I heard the screams of the innocents whose hearts were being crushed.” Alex takes a few breathes in and out before being able to continue.
“Regina didnt tell me her grand plan, though. The dark curse, to bring everyone to storybook with false memories of who they are. She gave me false memories as well.” They smile. They know they shouldn’t but they really enjoy the memories.
“In this new land, here, in storybrooke, we were happy. We were married.” Alex tells Thor with teary eyes.
“Do you still love her?” Thor asks them.
“I don’t know…” Alex sighs. “Yes.”
“But I… I've tried so hard to change. To be a hero. Regina always brought the worst out of me, I'm selfish for her love, our love was toxic. I was a monster back then but I don’t ever want to be that again.” Alex tells him.
“You won’t. You’re a beautiful person Alex. Maybe once upon a time you were a villain but you’re a hero now and I and all the avengers will always be here for you, even if you make mistakes.”
“Thank you.” Alex says smiling.
“I do have a question for you though.”
“What is it?” Alex asks curious.
“Why did you tell me you’re not a lady?”
Alex sighs, they don’t want to tell Thor this. But since they’ve already told him about their past, they may as well tell them about their gender.
“I told you I’m not a lady because I’m not a female, Thor. Or a male. I’m… I’m bigender.”
“Excuse me but I have no idea what that means.”
Alex laughs, they should’ve known Thor had no idea about nonbinary genders.
“It basically means that I’m both male and female.” Alex explains to him.
Alex looks at Thor to see his reaction but he looks absolutely cool with what Alex just told him.
“You’re not confused? Shocked? Anything?”
Thor laughs. “Alex, you’re a fairytale character who dated the evil queen and I’m a god from the norse mythology. It would’ve been weird if I were surprised you’re male and female.”
Alex smiles. “Yeah, you’re right.”
“What am I supposed to call you now though? Instead of lady?”
“What about liege?” Alex tells him.
“Okay, Liege Alex.” Thor says smiling.