in dreams.
every morning, Jamie mentally shouted before she got up. that made her wake up faster. the second most important thing was to put water on the camelias, she always spent so much time in the garden, watering and talking.
but mainly feeling the lack of Dani. the poor camelias listened to her several times. there were some boxes she hadn't opened along with the blonde, who left even before unpacking everything. on wednesday morning, Jamie didn't curse.
she didn't talk to the camelias. she didn't wake up early.
but opened the boxes, missing and nostalgia slowly burning her skin. it was cruel how much she missed her.
a box decorated with porcelain caught her attention, which opened it quickly, inside she had written "for my lover" and there was no doubt that the handwriting belonged to Dani.
there were letters and a cd marked "listen to me" and she certainly would. my god, she could listen to the her bride for years and years.
then she did. the cd began to play while the thin, shaking fingers played the first letter, reading it:
"IN DREAM; BEN HOWARD.
hi, love. if you're reading this it's because i had no choice but to leave, and even if you think we could have held out until the end, it's not true.
because i was becoming someone i wasn't, who never was. and you deserved more, you deserved a perfect bride. not one who woke you up screaming in the middle of the night.
i write this to you because i feel her inside, feel that she is getting closer and there is nothing that can save me. save us.
but never, under any circumstances, doubt my love for you!
to leave was the greatest proof of love there is because i know that even though you are far away, you are loving me from there, right?
ps: it's ok, you can keep seeing doctor who without me.
with love,
yours."