When i see the sun start shining, i see you..
Come the morning, Lena opened her eyes slowly, amazed by her first sight at the day, a warm shadow that usually only comes in her sweetest dreams.
She saw Alex Danvers next to her, lying beside her, facing her face, their eyes connected. Wondering how long Alex has looking at her.
That dreamy look, with the sun shining from behind her, the gleam of pure happiness in those soft brown eyes, she know she'd fallen for Alex, not sure if Alex feels the same way.
Her heart told her that so, and her mind went to panic, a lot..
Her mind told her not to, don't ever let it happen, and a Luthor usually has to put the brain over the heart.
Her mind told her that she didn't deserve love, especially Alex's.
"Hey," Alex breathes, forward a little to brushed a lazy kiss on her cheek, it feels different in the morning, something about the sunlight has made the gesture more real.
And again, her heart betrayed her mind, and her body too..
Her knees feels wo weak as Alex looked into her eyes, deeply.
Lena pulled the blanket higher, to cover her open breast, which is useless, Alex have saw it all. Aware that she was completely naked, with Alex Danvers still wearing the clothes from the previous night, with several buttons hanging open, messy hair, bruised lips, Oh...
"I hope you won't lose your date, by being here all night," Lena smiles, But Alex so sure she caught the sadness in her smile.
Alex just remembered her lies from last night, consider whether she should be honest with Lena,
but Alex realized that she couldn't. Last night's making love doesn't necessarily mean anything to Lena.
Alex believes Lena has been through one night stand before, and somehow her heart hurts imagining it.
"I won't.. it's just a friend, a colleague..," said Alex as she got up a little, staring at Lena who smiled at her sheepishly.
"But i would lost my Job if I don't wake up right now," Alex hisses, stalking towards Lena. "And I can't possibly leave you while you're still sleeping," Alex added, smiled faintly.
Her eyes sparkled staring at Lena, as if those eyes were smiling too.
"But from what I heard from Kara, you left her friend hanging on her sleep, hungover, and slipped out of the room," Lena chuckled, making Alex's face went red.
"I guess I should talk to Kara about my privacy when she comes back," Alex replied, make Lena laughed at her. At this time Lena realized her defenses had collapsed due to the warmth feeling towards her heart.
"But Lena.." Alex's expression turned serious, she took Lena's hand into hers, grasping it a little.
"Don't mean to get personal, but you can't stay with James any longer, you can’t force it." she sighed, with a hopeful tone.
"I know, Luthor don't deserve love," Lena smiles, wet and mirthless.
"You deserve better, you deserve---" Alex wanted to say you deserved me , before she realized that she wasn't.
"Just call me when you need distraction."
"Distraction?," Lena asks. hurts..
Alex nodded. "You being quite distracted last night, means that i'm doing a good job."
"And since now on, i'll always be there for you." Alex added, her voice unreadable.
Then Lena saw Alex getting out of bed, kissing Lena on the cheek one more time. Lena can see Alex's messy clothes, the rest of last night's romance.
But Alex suddenly turn around, catching the eye of Lena who was staring at her back. "Lena, i hope you don't mind, i’m stealing a kiss on your lips twice, while you sleep."
That was Alex's last words that morning, and then she left. Leaving Lena in an extraordinary dilemma. Making love to James never felt like this, neither did Jack, or whoever ever enter her life, or her bed.
Alex is very simple but very sweet. Very strong, yet very soft. Alex Danvers screwed things up. The wall of the Luthor she's built from a long time ago is going to be destroyed.
She should be in Paris right now, holding James's hand while walking to her favorite restaurant, drinking her favorite coffee, and soaking in hot water in her suite room.
But now she's making her own coffee, in her own penthouse, while touching the glass on her kitchen counter, its Alex's .
Lena touches the glass once more and a familiar sense of warmth strikes her right in the middle of her chest, until her eyes catch something on the floor, near her the usual place where she usually hung up her coat, her favorite chocolate "Perugina" on the floor, her favorite flavor, but not hers, it means it's Alex's, and when she lifted that thing up from the floor, her fingers shaking, read the hand writing that sticks beautifully on that chocolate box, in a small white-pink heart-shaped Valentine card.
Dear Lena Luthor, Hope it spoils you. You deserve it.. :)
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It didn't take any longer for her to risk her luck that day.
Knowing Alex Danvers was standing in The Baldwin's lobby last night for how long, wearing a suit that perfectly matched her posture. Carrying chocolates in her hands, and flowers, catching by the lobby’s CCTV Lena just asked from the receptionist, enough to make Lena rush to Alex's familiar apartment, where they have met awkwardly but warmly, during game nights, moments since they were still like strangers, until they were good enough to call each other friends.
Alex Danvers opens the door, who else?
Wet hairs that has not been combed, body smells of soap and fresh shampo, Alex must have just finished shower.
So surprised by Lena's uninvited arrival, but still trying to calm down her self, using her training skills in DEO for so many years.
"What? Miss me already?," Lena can't stand the grin on Alex's face. Lena doesn't know why her eyes are watering when she saw Alex right now.
"I just found out that a Director of the DEO who fight againts aliens almost everyday doesn't dare enough to give chocolate to a woman and end up making up a lie." Lena stares sharply at her, the tears start falling in her cheek, then she’s in Alex’s space, breathing Alex’s air and her teeth bite Alex's lips, and Alex has to be absent from work today.