What You have done to me?
4
Quite a busy day in DEO. Alex gets used to working harder when Supergirl isn't around.
Wound by wound. Fight after fight.
Visit one world to another.
Meet various aliens from different planets.
But can't stop her mind to thinking about Lena Luthor. A woman she never imagined would haunt her mind accros the time.
She knows she can't keep doing this..
Lena is the one of her bestfriend's girlfriend and in the other page Lena is her sister's best friend and Kara is really protective with Lena.
Yeah sometimes James is a jerk if it comes to relationship, Kara cried a few times because of him. But besides that all, Alex knows that James is a good man, Lena can get any worse man than him. And the most important thing is Lena loves James.
Lena cried so many times because of him, a powerful Lena Luthor, and it must be because of love.
And Alex knows it's only a matter of time, at least she's going to think it that way. Lena Luthor is amazingly beautiful, and this attraction may only be limited to physical attraction.
And it’s normal, it’s normaly happen to everyone..
After seeing Lena Luthor fight for Sam, for Kara, for Supergirl, even when she could kill her easily, maybe that's when she start thinking of the woman.
And now Lena Luthor feels like the first snowflakes of winter.
Cold, yet beautiful, can't be grasped, but the cold can stay on the skin any longer, sometimes going straight into her soul. And she's just hoping that Lena Luthor will be like that winter, which has a time limit.
And will disappear when spring comes. And that's the right time they can start over again, she can be a good friends to her, take Lena with open arms like a friend, bestfriend maybe..
Oh, maybe later when Kara comes back they three can have lunch together, even becoming a partner in game night, staring at her face without feeling choked.
And that's when Alex never expected to receive an instant message from Lena, in broad daylight.
At leisure time, when the National City doesn't need DEO, when everything is finish, After Alex writing report after report about what happened in the last few days in National City.
Lena Luthor : James came, apologized. I forgive him. But i told him that need space.
The hole in Alex's heart is open.
Pulse from the inside.
She convinced herself that this wasn't a pain.
We can't lose what we never have..
Lena Luthor : i dont even know why i texted you. just ignore it
Lena Luthor : Bye, Director Danvers..
Alex Danvers : I always know that he will make it up to you..
Alex Danvers : But next time make sure you wear a coat when you decide to sit on a park bench in the winter. I don't want to put a needle on your skin. Last time i'm doing it with Sam, i lost my last stock of lolipop.
Alex smiles. A sad smile anyway.. Maybe after this she can go to the bar. Drink a few glasses of good scotch, find someone who can warm her body tonight.
She's not a one-night stand lover, but she clearly needs it now.
Lena Luthor : Are you busy? What are you doing?
Alex Danvers : Just comeback from Earth-1. Craving for coffee.
Lena Luthor : Noonan's? My treat?
And Alex didn't realize how quickly she answered yes. She showered longer than usual in the DEO shower.
Her tactical gear is already too dirty by alien liquids. Even she refused when Sara Lance wanted to hug her before going home.
Even though the hug was just a sympathy because Sara knew about the Supergirl's departure.
*******
This is Lena's first time going out with Alex, not for business. Lena's starting to think that they're friends now. Alex was sitting at a table on the edge of the room when Lena first arrived, with newspapers in both hands. Wearing a leather jacket that always become her trademark..
Fresh, charming, and it fells so very warm when Alex raised her head and smiled when she saw Lena coming.
Lena didn't expect Alex to stand up and pull the bench for her, because it’s sounds like a date, but she knew it wasn't..
But there is one unfamiliar need in her chest to be close to this woman, maintain this relationships well, without crossing boundaries, Alex Danvers is out of the wall.
They never really had a good start. Their first meeting when she was almost killed, Alex was also almost killed too.
Then Alex never really became her friend after that. Kara Danvers stands in the middle of them. And now when Kara is not around, Lena is very careful not to cross the wall.
When the sprinkle green eyes meet hers as they sit down, Alex is trying to ignore the butterflies in her stomach. Her years of training at the DEO would have been able to hide what she fells right now. She once pretended to like Maxwell Lord for a mission. Now she should can definitely ignore that feeling in her chest. Burry it in the deepest hole inside her heart.
Or at least she can take it out tonight, with some pale girl who looks like Lena but not her Lena. She doesn't even have the right to call it her Lena . And for God's sake Alex Danvers begged to her logic not to falling deeper to this woman.
Because It will going to get worse instead of getting better.
Lena Luthor is more complicated than Maggie Sawyer. This can't be happening..
"You look good for someone who just arrived from another world." Lena says.
"I took shower. simple as that." Alex chuckle.
"I'm so glad to see you happy like this, i know Kara will, she wants me to look after you,"
Alex don't get the point why she's saying this, yes Kara ask her to look after Lena, but don't know why she needs to tell Lena that is Kara who care for her.
"i miss Kara,"
"Me too,"
"And i'm glad having you here right now. Thank you for being so kind to me even if Kara isn't here."
"My pleasure.." Alex smiles at her, the sweetest smile she ever gave to Lena Luthor.
Then they ordered pasta. Talk about some research. Alex is very interested to hear Lena talk about science. About some of Lena's research that maybe can fix the world oneday.
Alex became a very good listener, also a really good place to exchange ideas.
Alex is a genius, a new thing Lena has just find out today. Add a list of amazing things about Alex Danvers.
Lena doesn't really want to end this day. She's aware that she's drowning right now.
To Alex Danvers..
But the meeting must come to an end. Alex helped her put on her coat as they stood up from the seat. Alex touches shoulder her as they walk towards the door, opening and holding the cafe door for her. Get her in front of the car. And Lena couldn't resist not hugging Alex before she got into the car.
"Kara and i hug each other. i hope you don't mind." said Lena, when she realized Alex didn't returning her hugs.
Then Alex hugged her back. Awkward at first, but very close in the end. Alex is afraid her feelings will spill over into this one hug. Alex trying so sooo hard to make it still in the friend zone, try not to immerse her head in the curves of Lena's neck, breathing on her scent. Alex let her go before she lost control.
Alex waved her hand at Lena who was still opening the window before her car moved away.
Her phone beeps just seconds after Lena's car disappeared from her sight. Just before she turned on her Ducati.
Lena Luthor : Are we friend right now?
Alex Danvers : Of course :)
And Lena needs to get back to reality. To keep sane.
After a few glasses of wine in her penthouse, Lena called James, ask him to come, just right now.
Wearing her best lingerie, begging James to fuck her hard tonight, and remind her self who is she and where she belongs.
Eventhough she doesn't need to beg...