Homosexy
Adora wakes up to harsh light beaming through her window, she groans as she feels her brain thumping against her skull. She looks in front of her to find Catra sound asleep, her arm wrapping around her roommates waist and their legs intertwined together. It was nice, for a moment before she starts to panic. Bits and pieces of last night start flooding into her memory. The party, the dancing, the drinking, the stumbling home, the begging Catra to cuddle, and Fuck the kiss , or the almost kiss, Fuck Fuck Fuck . Adora also hates this about drinking, she never lets herself get so drunk that she blacks out, which is usually a good thing. But right now she wishes she had, because she remembers everything. She feels Catra stirring awake, and she freaks out, she quickly scrambles to her feet and gets off the bed.
Catra opens her eyes confused, shocked, and tired. “What are you doing?” She asks in a groggy voice.
“Oh, uhm, I’m, I’m just going for a run.” Adora starts pacing before putting on her shoes and heading for the door.
“In that? Isn’t that a bi-” before Catra can finish her sentence, Adora closes the door behind her. Ugghh Catra groans into the pillow, before she hears the door open again and Adora walking in shyly.
“I uh, I forgot a shirt” Catra just nods, as Adora goes to her dresser and grabs a t-shirt, throws it on, grabs her phone and hastily runs out the door again.
Catra doesn’t think she’s going to fall asleep again, she honestly didn’t think she was going to fall asleep last night but the warmth of Adora’s body, and her strong arms wrapped around Catra, was well soothing. It was a type of safety that Catra has never really felt before. And now with her gone to god knows where, Catra wasn’t going to be getting any more sleep. So she sits up and swings her legs over the edge of the bed. She feels hungover, but it’s been worse before. She walks through the bathroom and into her room. Fuck it’s a mess in here, whatever I’ll deal with that when I’m semi-functional , she thinks to herself as she grabs the water boiler fills it up and plugs it in. She locates her skirt from last night and fishes out her pack of cigarettes, she makes some space on her desk and loosens some tobacco. Then she proceeds to roll a spliff to deal with this headache, and get her thoughts in order. The water boiler clicks, and Catra walks over, puts some instant coffee in a mug and stirs it all together. She walks over to her window, opens it up and perches on the ledge. She takes a sip of her coffee, and sparks up her spliff.
What is with that girl, I mean she’s the one who tried to kiss me last night, now she’s freaking out, Uggghh Catra really didn’t want to deal with this. Maybe she doesn’t remember what happened and woke up to me in her bed, maybe she thought we slept together, fuck, but we were both fully dressed Catra reasons with herself. If she doesn’t remember anything I probably shouldn’t bring it up, it’s just going to make things awkward. Catra thinks back to last night, the feeling of Adora pressed against her, the way she looked at her, the way her own heart was beating out of pace. No, I can’t think about her like that, she’s my roommate, plus she’s straight, she was just drunk, and curious, like most girls in college . She finished smoking her spliff and continued to sip her coffee, she looked to the disaster that was her room. I should probably deal with that.
Adora was speed walking across campus, everyone she passed was looking at her, she realized it probably looked like she was doing a walk of shame. But honestly it was more of a walk of panic. She didn’t know where she was going, just that she needed to figure out her thoughts before she talked to Catra. She realized she was headed in the direction of Bow and Glimmer's dorm, so she pulled out her phone to text the both of them.
Adora: Hey, I’m on my way to your room, I’m kind of freaking out sorry!
Adora gets to their door, and knocks a little too loud, it makes her wince as her headache reacts. No answer. She knocks again.
“Calm the hell down! I’m coming! Who in the hell-” She hears Glimmer shout from the otherside, before swinging the door open. Glimmer looks disheveled, she’s in her PJs and her hair is sticking up on one side. At first she looks pissed, but instantly it turns to concern. “Oh my god Adora, what are you doing here? Is everything okay? Come in” She opens the door more and Adora steps in.
Bow is rubbing his eyes and waking up, he notices Adora pacing back and forth and immediately jumps to his feet, and pulls her into a tight embrace. “Hey, it’s gonna be okay” Glimmer joins in on the hug, and Adora feels herself breathe normally for what feels like the first time since she woke up.
“I’m so sorry I woke you guys up, I ran out of my room and I didn’t know where I was going and I just started walking over here” Adora says in one breath
“Hey it’s totally okay” Bow says letting her go
“I’m glad you came here,” Glimmer says with a smile “I’ll make some coffee, and we can talk... if you want” Glimmer walks over to the coffee pot, and realizes that someone had already set it up.
“I set it up last night, before I went to bed” Bow smiles
“You’re the sweetest” Glimmer blows him a kiss
“Honestly, I just didn’t want to deal with uncaffeinated, hungover, Glimmer in the morning” Glimmer shoots him a death glare
“See what I mean,” Bow explains to Adora. Adora laughs a little, she’s so glad she came here. The coffee pot starts heating up. “Wanna sit down?” Adora drops her whole body onto the bean bag chair and sinks in. “Did something happen last night? Did you make it home okay?”
“Ya, ya I did. But I got pretty drunk. And Catra had to take me home” Adora starts recalling memories from last night, the piggy back ride, the way Catra smelled, waking up in her arms in the cab. She was pulled from her thoughts when Glimmer passed her a cup of coffee, she looked suspicious. “And when I woke up this morning, Catra was in my bed”
“What?! No! Did she try to hook up with you when you were drunk!” Glimmer looked pissed
“No, no, no...the opposite actually” Adora paused, and Bow and Glimmer looked confused “I tried to kiss her” They both made an OH face, and nodded slowly. “But she stopped me, and was actually really sweet about it, but when I woke up this morning I just panicked and ran out the door. I mean I tried to kiss her! And she stopped me, but I, I really wa- CRAP! I need to break up with my boyfriend” Adora realized
“Hey, hey now you don’t need to do anything drastic, plus nothing actually even happened right?” Bow tries to calm her down.
“But I, I… I wanted it to” she pauses for a moment to let it sink in “and honestly it’s been a long time coming, I’ve tried to break up with him a few times, but he keeps insisting that we stay together. And I stayed because everyone thought we were perfect together, so I just went along with it.”
“Well, then ya, dump his ass. If that’s want you want” Glimmer says
“Ya, it is” Adora reaches for her phone, but decides she’ll do it later. It feels weird to break up with someone in front of a bunch of her friends. She takes another sip of her coffee as she tries to formulate her next question “how did you both know that you were… you know… uhm…”
“Gay, queer, homosexy?” Glimmer laughs, and so does everyone else
“Ya, if you don’t mind me asking? Like if you feel comfortable talking about it” Adora asks nervously
“Oh ya for sure” Bow says, tapping his chin and making a hmmm noise. “Well, I have two dads, and they were always pretty open to talking about sexuality and gender with me, which I really appreciated.” he thought for another moment “But I think there was this big ah-ha moment for me. When I was younger I was hanging out with my friends and I realized that they all wanted to date the Backstreet Boys and be Britney Spears, and I wanted to be the Backstreet Boys and date Britney” They all chuckled “I came out as a lesbian, way before I came out as trans, and only after that did I start to explore dating men. It just felt wrong before because with straight men, it felt really weird gender wise, but with queer men it was actually really validating” He was smiling, as if he was getting nostalgic for his younger queer self.
“That’s really cool, I didn’t know any gay people in my town, and honestly I never really thought about it as an option” maybe it is an option, Adora thinks to herself. She looks to Glimmer who's still thinking.
“I don’t know if I had like a specific moment” Glimmer starts to explain “I feel like it was a bunch of little moments, I remember this one time I think I was like 10 or something and me and my mom were walking down the street, and there was this lesbian couple sitting outside a cafe. And I just stopped and stared, they were holding hands, then they kissed and I felt like I was in a trance, like it was one of the sweetest things I had ever seen” Adora thought back to those two women dancing, and kissing that she saw when they first got to the party. The warm tingling in her stomach and the smile that spread across her face. “Then there was the first time I kissed a girl, and my first queer relationship, which was a disaster but it was so intense, I didn’t know I could love like that or be loved like that”
“Wow… okay… ya” was all Adora could manage, as she thought I mean maybe I could be, I mean I think I might be, ya I’m gay. She smiled because it felt like something clicked, something fell into place and it felt right. She saw Bow and Glimmer smiling back at her, neither of them say anything, they don't ask if she was, they just get up and hug her. They stay like that for a moment until her stomach lets out a loud grumble, and they all start laughing.
“Let’s go get something greasy, I need something to deal with this hangover,” Glimmer said. Ahh that sounds sooooo good Adora thought to herself, as she started to get up, then she glanced at herself in the mirror.
“Do you have any makeup wipes? And maybe a hair brush?” She asked
“Ya in the bathroom” Glimmer points her in the right direction, they all fix themselves up to a point that is presentable enough. They grab their things and head to the dinning hall.
“Oh damn, I forgot my wallet” Adora realized
“It’s fine I can cover you with my meal points” Glimmer offers
“Thanks, I’ll get you back” Glimmer waves her off. They get to the dinning hall and it’s pretty quiet, probably because the lunch rush just left.
“On Saturdays and Sundays they have a brunch menu till 4, it’s like they know everyone is going to be hungover. It’s great.” Bow explains as they all grab trays and head towards the brunch section, when they get there Adora is practically drooling. She starts grabbing eggs, sausages, bacon, toast, jam, peanut butter, orange juice, fruit salad, oatmeal, and definitely some more bacon.
“Whoa Adora are you trying to use all my meal points at once?” Glimmer jokes
“Oh, no, I’m sorry I can put it back-”
“I’m just kidding, it's totally fine, I barely eat here anyways so I gotta use up my meal points.” Adora smiles, but doesn’t get any more food after that. They sit at a table near the window, and Adora immediately just inhales her food.
“Whoa girl chill, and chew” Bow says
“Sorry bad habit” Adora tries to eat slower, they all finish their food at the same time even though Adora had like 3 times more food. Bow clears their trays and comes back with 3 coffees, and some milk and sugar packets. Adora puts a few milks into her coffee, and then like a lot of sugar.
“Whoa Adora, do you want some coffee with your sugar?” Bow laughs to himself
“Wow Bow, that was such a dad joke” Glimmer just rolls her eyes
“That’s daddy to you missy” Bow winks, Glimmer blushes and Adora almost chokes on her coffee.
“So what are you going to do today?” Glimmer tries to change the subject
“I don’t know… I guess break up with my boyfriend, maybe talk to Catra? I don’t even know if I should, like what do I say ‘hey Catra sorry I got super wasted last night, and you had to drag me home, and oh ya sorry I tried to make out with you’ UGH” Adora groaned into her hands.
“I mean, you don’t have to bring up the kiss” Glimmer says
“Ya I guess… but I feel like I should… maybe”
“Well, what’s your intention in bringing it up?” Glimmer asks
“Well… I mean, I did really want it to happen, and maybe it still can” Adora says trying her best not to blush
“I don’t think that’s a good idea” Glimmer says almost instantly
“Why?”
“First thing, she’s your roommate”
“Bathroom mate” Adora corrects her
“Whatever, second, it’s Catra she is literally known as the ‘heartbreak heartthrob’, and I just don’t want to see you get hurt” Glimmer sounds concerned but also a little bit resentful
“Obviously Glimmer is a bit biased, but maybe she’s got a point. You already have to break up with your boyfriend today, and maybe it’s a good idea to take it slow. Think on it y’know, you don’t have to do anything right away” Bow seems to always be the reasonable one
“I’m not biased, I just care about my friend. It’s not my fault that Catra has a reputation” Glimmer retorts
“Ya I’ll think about it” Adora says. Honestly, how can I stop thinking about it? She says to herself.
Catra finally finishes cleaning up her room, after what feels like forever, with the help of 3 more cups of coffee. She feels hungry, and pulls up her group chat on her phone, it’s named SUPER PAL TRIO . Which she thought was stupid, put Scorpia banned her from changing it after she called it this name is gay, ya’ll are gay, and not in the good way .
Catra: I’m hungover
Entrapta: It’s saturday and I predicted this would happen
Scorpia: BRUNCH?!?
Catra: You know it
Scorpia: We can pick you up, meet you in the parking lot in 20
Entrapta: 13 minutes is probably more accurate, I changed the speed of the belt in your engine and it should run significantly faster
Scorpia: Well, that’s concerning. See you soon.
It was a tradition for Catra, Scorpia, and Entrapta to go out for hangover brunch at the diner about 15 mins off campus. It started back when they would all go out together, but eventually Scorpia kinda grew out of it, and Entrapta said she had collected enough data from queer night life. But Catra made a bunch of friends in the scene, and she continued to go, so obviously she continued to have pretty brutal hangovers. She was grateful that her friends continued to take her out to brunch, she would never admit it, but she really enjoyed the tradition.
She waited in the parking lot for exactly 13 minutes, before the bright red, beat up, old soccer mom minivan came speeding through the parking lot and stopping right in front of Catra. She slid open the back door and hoped into her seat, before putting on her seatbelt and rolling down her window.
“Oh hey WildCat, you don’t actually look that bad” Scorpia says, turning around to look at Catra.
“Thanks?” Catra makes a face as if to say is that supposed to be compliment . “I actually got some sleep last night surprisingly”
“Well, that is an interesting turn of events, on average you typically go anywhere between 2-3 nights without sleep” Entrapta jots something down in her notebook
“Trapta, what did I say about keeping tabs on my sleep schedule?” Catra tried to sound angry but she really didn’t have the energy for it
“We're just get worried is all” Scorpia says like a concerned mother, who's trying not be over protective
“Also, SCIENCE!” Entrapta cheers
Catra rolls her eyes, “well don’t be. I’m perfectly able to take care of myself.”
“We know you are, and you do” Scorpio smiles at her through the rear view mirror. Catra smiles back, she recalls all the times that usually on her 3rd or 4th day of not sleeping post bender, Scorpia and Entrapta would show up at her place for ‘regular movie night’. They would always bring her favorite foods, soothing teas, and put on a boring movie that they knew she would fall asleep to. She really does appreciate her friends, and she hopes they know that.
It’s silent after that as they drive, Scorpia turns up her powerhouse females disco playlist that she’s always listening to. ‘What’s love got to do with it’ by Tina Turner comes on and they all start singing along. Smiles and Laughter break out throughout the car as they pull into the diner.
The diner is a classic looking diner, but it’s been around so long that everything looks faded and it adds to its charm. The food is mediocre at best, but they are open 24 hrs, the portions are huge, and it’s ridiculously cheap. They grab their favourite booth in the back by the jukebox machine, that probably doesn’t even work anymore. The waitress brings them some water and menus. They all already know what they’re going to get, but Catra likes to look through the 30 page menu anyways, she always finds something she didn’t know was there. Who in their right mind would get blue cheese salmon from this place, She thinks to herself. She’s pulled out of her thoughts when the waitress asks for her order.
“I’ll get the calamari and mozzarella sticks, with extra tartar and spicy marinara sauce please”
“Anything to drink?”
“Ya, a bloody caeser please” Catra can already feel Scorpia giving her a concerned look, before she even has to look at her. The waitress walks away.
“Do you really think it’s a good idea to be drinking right now?” Scorpia asks cautiously
“You won’t be hungover if you keep drinking,” Catra says with a smirk. Scorpia just lets out a sigh, she doesn’t want to press and further so she changes the subject
“So how was the party last night? Anything fun, weird, or wild happen?” Scorpia really does sound like a mom trying to be hip most of the time
“Nah, not really it was the usual, y’know same old, same old” the waitress comes back and places a bloody mary in front of Catra, a tea for Scorpia, and a childrens orange juice for Entrapta. They stopped trying to argue with her for ordering off the kids menu after she pretty much recited the constitutional laws of age restrictions, and what sounded like a thesis on ageism. “Actually I left pretty early”
Entrapta and Scorpia both looked confused, Scorpia asked “Why?” while Entrapta scribbled quickly in her notebook
“My roommate got really drunk, so I had to take her home”
“Adora?!?” Scorpia was clearly shocked. “She does not seem like the type”
“Yea, she was actually pretty ridiculous” Catra chuckled lightly at the thought of drunk Adora. “She made me piggy back her, then she practically begged me to cuddle”
“And you did?!?” Scorpia was getting surprised all over again, Entrapta was scribbling furiously making faces as if she was having break throughs
“Ya, it was actually kind of nice. But then she tried to kiss me” Catra tried to make a Wtf?! Face but she was clearly blushing
Scorpia picked up on it “ohhh, so how was it?” raising an eyebrow. Her and Entrapta both but their elbows on the table and rested their chins in their hands
“It didn’t happen, I stopped her” Catra shrugged, trying to pretend like it didn’t take all of strength to do that.
“Why?! I mean she’s gorgeous”
“I mean ya, but she’s also my roommate, not to mention, she’s straight, and she has a boyfriend. It’s just messy” Scorpia was surprisingly quite
“Statistically speaking 1 in 4 people identify as some from of non-heteronormative sexuality, and those numbers increase significally in university. So scientifically speaking, your odds are pretty good” Entrapta says, looking up from her notebook for a brief moment before returning to writing.
"Ya I believe it, but I'm not trying to be someones bisexual until graduation experiment" Catra scoffs. Their food arrives, and Catra begins putting her mozzarella sticks through the rings of her calamari and dipping them into her sauces. She takes a bite and it’s so satisfying, she looks over to scorpia who's been eerily quite.
“What Scorpia?” Scorpia looks up from her food “I know when you’re thinking something, that you’re scared to say”
Scorpia swallows her food and takes breath “I mean I don’t want to be mean or anything, but aren't you like...kinda messy anyways”
“I am not messy! I am like the opposite of messy. I am simple” Catra sounds offended
“I mean… weren’t you sleeping with like those two sisters, and their cousin at some point?” Scorpia says hesitantly. Catra drops her calamari wrapped mozzarella stick and crosses her arms.
Entrapta flips through her notebook “also there was that married woman” Catra’s eyes widen “I stand corrected, married women. Plural. Also we can’t forget about our math teachers dau-” Catra cuts her off by putting up a hand.
“Okay...” Catra sighs and pinches the bridge of her nose for a brief second before explaining herself “first point, everyone in that situation knew what was going on, I talked to both of the sisters and their cousin. Plus when things were starting to get messy I immediately cut things off. Second thing the married woman-”
“Married women” Entrapta corrects her, and she shoot her a glare
“Whatever, they were rich and sugar mama’s are officially exempt from messiness. Third point, our math teacher's daughter went to our school, it was like hooking up with any other student” Catra feeling like she successfully made her case, continued eating her food.
“I just don’t believe that not wanting to be ‘messy’ is really your reason for not kissing Adora” Scorpia says with more confidence than she has had for most of this conversation. Catra changes the topic, because she does not want to think about that, I mean what other reason would I have for not kissing Adora, I mean I wanted to sure, but it’s just- she stops her train of thought before it can go any further. She returns to her conversation with her friends about school, Entraptas slightly terrifying experiments, and Scorpia’s fat crush on Perfuma. They finish their meals, pay their bills and Scorpia drops Catra off on campus, she hugs both of them awkwardly from behind their seats. She wants them to know that having old time friends is important to her, and that they are important to her.
Catra gets back to her room, and hears Adora yelling through both bathroom doors. She sounds upset, or frustrated at the very least. She doesn’t hear anyone else in the room and Adora is pausing before responding to someone, so she assumes she is on the phone. Catra isn’t trying to eavesdrop or anything, she’s just curious, so she tries to slowly and quietly open her side of the bathroom door. Suddenly she hears a loud THUMP on the other bathroom door. She walks over and lightly knocks on the door, before opening it.
“Hey, is everything okay?” Catra looks down and sees Adora’s phone on the ground.
“Ya, it’s fine, sorry about the noise” Adora is sitting at her desk. And Catra is leaning on the door frame. She notices that Adora clearly looks pissed.
“What happened? If you want to talk about it”
“I broke up with my boyfriend” Oh Catra thinks to herself, but she tries to keep a neutral expression
“How are you feeling?”
“I’m fine, honestly I’m relieved. I should have done it way sooner” Adora lets out a breath
Catra pauses for minute and just nods slowly, but then a smirk creeps onto her face “so the sex was really that bad huh?”
“Catra!” Adora is laughing though, and throws an eraser at Catra. Her speedy reflexes catch it, and she throws it back at Adora.
“You’re an idiot” Catra says playfully, picking up Adora’s phone and tossing it back to her. “Well I guess no-” PING Catra pulls out her, to check the message, it’s from DT and she’s typing back to them.
“Are you texting Rose?” Adora has no idea why she said that, but it’s too late now. So she does remember last night? Interesting… Catra thinks to herself.
“No… I haven’t texted her yet, I don’t if I’m going to.”
“Hmm, is there a reason why you wouldn’t” Adora looks into Catra’s mismatched eyes
“Hmm, I don’t know, is there a reason why I shouldn’t?” Catra meets ocean blue eyes
“I don’t know... I don’t see one...I guess” Adora holds Catra’s gaze
“I don’t either... I guess” Catra holds Adora’s gaze
“Okay then” Adora doesn’t break the gaze
“Okay then” Catra breaks the gaze to look at her phone, she holds the phone up to her ear before meeting Adora’s eyes one last time. “Hey Rose it’s Ca-” and she turns around, and closes the door behind her.
UUgggggghhhh what the fuck was that? What even happened? What did I just do? Did I just tell her to call rose? Maybe glimmer is right an- PING Adora is pulled away from her spiraling thoughts, she opens her phone to read the message.
Boyfriend: Just tell me Why?! Why would you do this? Why would you throw it all away? Why would you throw us away?
Adora: Because I’m gay, queer, dyke, lesbo, homosexy. Got it? Good.
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