Im Sorry
How could she be so stupid! I can't get Hepatitis C through touch! Joan thought angrily at herself.
She watched vera get up from the table. She didn't want her to go but she couldn't say anything she couldn't get any words to come out of her mouth. She was mute. Joan could see the hate and hurt in in the smaller woman's eyes when she got up from the table. She knew that she really Hurt Vera this time.
Why do I have to be such a germaphobe! Joan thought to herself
About 10 minutes passed after Joan cleaned up the mess from dinner. Joan started to feel guilty for letting Vera walkout without any sort of explanation. She kept seeing that look in Vera's eyes when she drew her hand back. She felt disgusted in her actions. She wished she had never pulled away her hand.
Joan was tired of feeling guilty about what she did to Vera so she grabbed her keys and coat and got into her car and drove to drive to the smaller woman's house. She really messed up and she wanted to fix what she had done. On her way to the smaller woman's house she could see nothing but the look that Vera had given her. She never knew that Vera could hold so much hate for another person.
The closer she got to Veras the more she started to panic. What if she doesn't let me in? She pushed away any fear she had as she got closer to The smaller woman's house. When she got to Veras she could see that Veras car was in the driveway. That was a good sign at least she was home.
Joan pulled in and suddenly started to have second thoughts. I should just leave her. NO! I need to make things right. Joan got out and walked up to Vera's door. She knocked and didn't get an answer. She knocked again and still no answer. That's weird Vera normally answers the door right away.
Joan turned the knob and realized that the front door is open. Joan walks into the hallway and it's dark, she doesn't see Vera anywhere. She checks everywhere down stairs but no luck. She decides to have a look upstairs. As she climbed the stairs she could see that the light is on for the bathroom across the hall. She walks closed and hears the shower running.
She's taking a shower I should probably leave then. As Joan goes to turn around she hears a soft sob coming from the bathroom. She starts to feel her heart ache knowing that she's probably the reason behind Vera crying. She liked scaring the shit out of people but making Vera cry was something she never wanted to do.
She opened the door to hear the cries were louder and harder. She peeks in the shower to see Vera curled up into a ball crying into her knees. As much as she fantasizes about seeing Vera naked she knew that she was vulnerable at this moment and needed comfort. Joan leans in to turn off the water seeing as Veras has been in there a while, her fingers were starting to wrinkle.
Joan leans down and wraps her arms around Vera lifting her out of the shower and taking her over to her bed. Vera was so caught up in crying that she hadn't even realized that Joan was there.
Joan laid Vera on the bed and started to dry her off. She could see Veras full breasts and strong thighs. She would have preferred to see Vera naked under different circumstances but right now Vera needed comfort.
When Vera finally realized it was Joan she quickly covered herself in embarrassment. “What are you doing here! Have you come to tell me how gross I am to you? Get out!” Vera sobbed
“Vera you are far from gross to me, I reacted in such a way earlier that was unacceptable, I'm sorry.” Joan said with her head hung low.
“You're sorry, pfh that's a first.” Vera still crying
“Listen Vera, Like i said earlier I'm not one to make friends easily, but I consider you my friend. My only friend. Whether or not you feel the same way i'm not sure and I wouldn't blame you if you didn't.” Joan now letting herself become emotional
“After everything you've done to me, I'm not sure if i could call you a friend.” Vera now with her knees up to her face and a sheet over her.
“I understand, But Vera like I said you're my only friend. I trust you, So i'm going to stand by your side through all of this. I'm going to make sure that you're well taken care of if you like it or not!” Joan sat down on the bed next to Vera and hesitantly wrapped her arm around her to pull her closer to comfort her. Vera was a little startled by the touch and flinched.
“You couldn't even touch my hand earlier, why are you touching me now? I'm disgusting, remember.” Vera sniffled, she wanted to move from Joans arms but she felt safe and comforted despite the tension between them.
Joan pulled her closer and caressed her left arm. Vera's head laid on Joans solder and Joan laid her head on Vera's head. “Let's get you dressed shall we, I think you should get some rest, you've had a long night.”
Joan walks over to Vera's dresser and grabs her a black silk camisole with matching shorts and a pair of nickers. “Here let's get you into these.” Joan started to help Vera put on the clothes before Vera stopped her.
“I can do it myself, can you please turn around.” Vera said shyly
Joan gave a little smirk. “I just took you out of the shower and dried you off and not to mention the whole time you were naked. Now I would have liked to see you exposed under different circumstances but I will turn around if it makes you feel better.” Joan turned around to give Vera a slight bit of privacy so she could change.
“Ok i'm done now thanks.” Vera sat back down in the bed. She started to fiddle with her fingers and Joan knew that this was a sign that she was nervous.
“What's up? I can see your nervous, what's on your mind?” Joan spoke in a soft comforting voice.
“Well uh, I- I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I have to call out of work and well… I was wondering if you would come with me to keep me company?” Vera's voice was shaky as she spoke with uncertainty.
“You don't have to come. I can understand if you don't want to and you would probably have to call out of work for it. So no pressure i was just ask-” Vera was soon cut off by Joan.
“Nonsense Vera, of course I will come with you, I'm glad you asked.” The corners of Joans mouth turned into a slight smile. Joan didn't like the idea of doctors or hospitals but she was willing to accompany Vera anytime she asked. This was the first step to making their friendship stronger.
“Can I get you something to drink?” Joan asked Vera politely. Joan knew that she was in Vera's house But she wanted to make sure Vera was as comfortable as possible.
“Uh, water would be fine.”
Joan made her way downstairs to the kitchen.She grabbed a tall glass and got some filtered water for Vera. On her way out of the kitchen she noticed a calendar. She saw that Vera had two more doctors appointments this month.
Joan took out her phone and snapped a quick picture of the calendar so she knew the dates and times for them so she could make sure to go with Vera.
Joan was heading upstairs, when she entered Vera's room she could see that Vera was fast asleep cuddling a pillow. Joan set the cup of water on Vera's bed side, covered her up, and kissed her forehead. Joan decided to leave a note.
Vera by the time I got back with your water you were sound asleep. I didn't have the heart to wake you. I will be back in the morning at 8AM to take you to the doctors, end of question I'm taking you.
-Joan
Joan left Vera's house and made her way home. Once she got home she felt a huge release and somewhat happy for making things right with Vera. She really wanted to get close to Vera as a friend and possibly more. With all the tension off her shoulders she decided that she could finally get some rest. Joan then went to bed and she would be lying if she said she didn't go to bed with a smile on her face.