Chapter 4
I came to the library where all my school-related things are. I’m annoyed with my parents because I don't understand why it is a big deal. I was going to do my school work, but I lost track of time. I just got distracted playing Zelda Breath of the Wild, and it was pretty addictive. I've never played a game that got me like that. I did some research on the saga, and the only thing that I know now is that I want it all.
They’re not acting fair. They want me to be a kid, and I was just having fun. It's not like I'm putting my life in danger. They are really strict, well Dad is, Dean on the other hand lets me get away with things. When Dad came from the empty he decided to give me some rules, and the biggest one is “don't put your life in danger”, and it's not like I'm going to. I’m not stupid.
I understand that rule, but the “Finish your chores and schoolwork” I think that's not at the same level. They need to chill.
Anyway, I think I see a point because I want to go to college, not that they know, but it's not like there is a deadline to finish highschool. I decided to get out my Math books to finish the assignment that was due soon. I wish I had my phone to listen to some music. When I work without music I get distracted pretty easily.
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I don’t know what's happening with Jack. He seems distracted and has been acting rude. Dean says it's part of being a teenager, but I will not tolerate disrespect or laziness. I'm being fair. When I came back from the empty I decided to reunite with my family and put some ground rules for everyone.
I needed to be in control of my family. I know that sounds possessive, but it's not like that. It's like I can't help them if I don't know what's going on, and I can't protect them from themselves without the rules, and I have to follow them too. So it's not like it's unfair to them.
When our family was only Dean, Sam, and I, it was easier, because there were only rules that regarded our safety. Then Jack came to my life and I tried to keep them, but after I came from the empty I realized that Jack was just a kid in a grown-up body, and he needed structure.
Sam and Dean understood my reasoning but Jack didn't and he got himself in trouble many times. The only thing that I'm grateful for is that he has never put himself in danger. I don't know how I would react, to be honest.
And speaking of the brothers, I love them with all my heart. Dean is obvious as he is the love of my life, but Sam is like a kid brother to me. If I could compare the kind of love that I feel for him is just like what I feel for Gabe. I know that I'll never be at the same level as Dean with him, but I do love him and would move mountains to keep him safe and well.
Right now there is something with Sam, and Dean is freaking out. I think he is being unreasonable. Sam has the liberty to do as he wants. He is a grown-up man. I think I know what's going on. If my suspicions are correct, he has met someone. So that's why I think Dean is being paranoid for nothing. If I thought that he was doing something dangerous I would be the one putting a stop, but I know there is no need.
I think Dean is freaking out because there hasn't been a hunt in weeks. And I'm concerned that Dean is going to do something stupid about it. He is just like that.
Right now he is laying by my side watching Doctor Sexy. I don't know why he loves that show. I think he has a crush on the protagonist, and I find that humorous. Dean having a crush on a fictional character. The show has no plot, only drama, and sex, so I try to not watch it.
The episode ended and Dean started to look at me. I returned the look and when our eyes connected I felt our connection strengthened. His eyes are beautiful. When I look at his eyes I can see why I loved him. It's true what they say, the eyes are windows to the soul. And Dean shows me how pure his soul is. He doesn't believe that, but I do. I believe that I fell for the greatest guy ever.
“How was the episode,” I ask Dean
“Amazing as always Cas, I don't understand why you don't watch it. The show is a masterpiece” He says. And I shook my head.
“Dean as you don't understand why I don't watch the show, I don't understand why you watch it,” I tell him. He seems as if he is going to start our typical fight about the show, listing all the good things about the show, but decides not to.
“You just don't want to give it a chance Cas, you know if you get hooked up with it you will not stop,” He told me while laughing. And I think that his words have some truth behind them. I can be very obsessive with tv shows.
“You know me baby”
“What are we going to do after lunch, Cas. I’m bored, and I need something to do. You know how I get” And that's the understatement of a century. He doesn't know how to stay put.
“First of all, we need to get up. Then I’m going to check on Jack. Will you join me? Or are you going to get lunch started
“I think I will join you Cas. Sam is going to do lunch is his turn after all. I don't want to eat his healthy crap, but you know that's what we agreed on”. He said. I didn't know that today was Sam's turn to do lunch, as I don't eat, I'm not usually into their “shifts”. “And I think that I need to go with you to check up on Jack, so he sees a united front, also so you don't kill him,” He said with a smile.
“You know I'm not going to kill him,” I told him with a raised eyebrow.
“I'm not so sure about that Cas, you are getting tired of his attitude pretty fast”
“That doesn't mean that I'm going to kill him. His butt will not be happy with me, but that's all”
“Yes, I know baby, but it doesn't hurt being there, as support for both of you. He is my baby you know?” I smiled at his last statement.
“I know baby, I think you spoil him”
“We know that's true sometimes, but let me tell you that I warned him about his attitude too”
“So if you warned him too, why are you being like that with me?”
“He doesn't need to know that Cas. I'm going to be firm with him. That's the other reason that I want to join you. I'm just teasing you. I'm getting tired of his attitude too. His schoolwork doesn't bother me that much”
“Well, let's go”
We got up and walked to his room.
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After watching a mini-marathon of Doctor Sexy. We decided to check up on Jack. I’m hoping that he has some work done, it's been hours. When we entered the library he was working on his notebook, so that's something.
“Hi Jack, how are you doing”
“Hi Dean, I’m doing my last assignment.” I smiled and was relieved that he did his work.
“That’s good. Have you seen Sam?”
“He is in the kitchen Dean. He is doing lunch” Cas was looking at JAck and decided to sit down next to him.
“How much time till you finish that Jack”
”Half an hour Dad. Can I have my phone back?” That's not what Cas expected to hear. The kid really has a death wish.
”We will see Jack after you're finished and eat lunch” Jack rolled his eyes without Cas noticing. Thank God.
”Fine Dad, is there anything I can help you with? You know how easily I get distracted without music” He says respectfully. Jack really is a wonder to me. How after rolling his eyes at Cas, he can be that respectful?
”That's it Jack. See you at lunch in an hour” Cas stands up and looks at me. I decided to join him in the kitchen.