Part 24
Part 24
𝓣𝓪𝓮𝓱𝔂𝓾𝓷𝓰 𝓹𝓸𝓿:
The blood curdling pain and persistent heavy thoughts keep wandering up your body untill you make them stop yourself.....
Jungkook's father The King, had said this in the morning, the words weren't meant for me but they were surely spoken with the intensive of me understanding them and practice them to purpose.
I had, had breakfast this morning with everyone. First time after days may be and it was nothing awkward.
They all treated me just normal, no one looked at me with pity eyes or weakling looks, they all were too bothered about why there were chopped green chilis in there scrambled eggs instead of black pepper ....
We had ate our breakfast and Majesty King had asked me to wait....
He had said he had to show me something I would love.
And indeed it was true.
Never before saw a place with so many beautiful flowers and butterflies flying like they owned the sky.....
Never saw the golden fishes run around the cold water so swiftly to cath each other and nuzzle there faces...
Never saw before the beautiful fountain and a majestic garden with a small piano at the corner..
Was it for me???
They kept it specially for me???
I'll just think they did.....
As soon as my finger tips touched the bare keys, soft melody escaped the little instrument.
I felt good....
It felt at peace.
I stared at the elements around me and I never knew I had this beautiful power of feeling myself at my best, anytime.
I had forgotten the pain that had settled in me for a while now.
It stayed right there deep under my burns.
"I see, you are trying to built things between you and My son again "
My thoughts were invaded.
I looked at him and now his words started to make meaning.
I paused instantly.
Well,
It's been already a week for the little talk we had in my bed.
Since then, we had started to make these little conversations everyday.
Not really like we had back then.
But the minimal at least.
Because it was difficult, staying in such close vicinity with him and not to look at him, not to stare at him , not to love him.
And evey time I would ignore him or I would not talk to him, the eyes he made, made me weak by my knees.
As if they screamed for my Love.
And I was full of it.
We just talked about how day I spent, or may be what was his schedule, we never in once talked anything very serious. We both clearly had no mind to deal with it I think.
In this week, I had got to know Jungkook more.
And with him I had got know Yeri more too.
His wife.
His beloved wife.
He would not stop telling me about her.
One of these days, when him and I were sitting in the garden discussing about different collections of perfumes he had got here, she had came in there .
She had stood by the pole quietly, her eyes so unsure about, if she should stay or leave
Indeed she was a beauty, I wondered if I was anything closer to her??? May be I was!!!
I was, right?
Of course I was!!
Jungkook thought of her, when he was with me.
He saw her in me.
So I have got to have a little prettiness of her in me.
Never mind
We had then invited her to sit with us and I had realised, she was really a sweet and nice person to talk with.
She have got this habit of throwing her entire self on someone when she was laughing loudly.
Yeri did that with me, I won't lie, I was quite surprised, but then Jungkook had swooned her in his arms and let her be there curled up in his arms.
He had stared at her so longingly, his smiles never once leaving his
For a moment, I wished my lover would that to me, then I realised, he was my lover.
Yeri had then always been with us, we were sort of a trio these days, going out in markets together, playing board game together, eating together.
I was with her more then, I was with Jungkook.
She would come running to my chambers, grabbing me by my wrist and bringing me to these places full of queens and Princess to sit and talk or to dance or to just to enjoy.
At night, when sometimes we would get some time alone, she would talk about Jungkook without even blinking an eye. She would tell me how much she loved him.
I never failed to notice the amount of love and adoration she had in her eyes, when she stared at Jungkook while he was talking.
And I knew then, that there was someone else too who would look at him like I did.
She would tell me stories from back then when they were the best companions since they were kids and how they promised to be with each other for the rest of there lives.
And in his perfect fairytale of a King and his queen, what was I doing here????
Crying for the fairytale which was never written for me???
And once again I felt degraded , more times then the times I felt when those old men had touched me .
I would not lie, once in a while, when I cried these days for love of him, I had thought of him leaving his wife and coming to me.
I felt sick everytime, she stood in front of me now.
I felt lowest of a human.
I wanted her part of happiness to ruin so that I can have mine??????
I would not want that!!
"Y-yes" I answered back hesitantly.
"Are you okay with it? "
I did not know what to say.
" Why would it won't be? , your highness "
"Being just Companions with a person you love and his wife is not something a person deal everyday or normally son , you bare cuts everyday ,I know"
Yess I do.
And they sting a lot.
"We had nothing between us like that your highness, he is my best companion and my honorary. For him I am his paramour and a companion, that's it. It ends there, it doesn't matter what I feel for him. "
I realised I was panting.
"It would not ruin the relationship he and his wife have. My love for him would bring no bad to his name and his position, nor even her's. "
He smiled then.
"I wasn't even thinking of it, you know"
"Then? My highness, what would other reason be for a king to ask a paramour about the illegitimate love he have for his son? "
I was not in any position to question him, but I had did.
He sighed and looked at me.
" You are just like a son to me Taehyung. That is enough for me and my wife to care about you I think "
I was just so not ready to agree with what he said.
I was like a son to him?????
They cared about me?????
Even when I was a paramour and was in love with his son????
"And I can understand you well, how does it feels to love a person who would never love you back. I know that feeling son"
If I was not shocked, I was like withered ashes by now.
No way he was talking about him and Jungkook's mother!!!!! I have never saw anyone in love as much as them.
There's no way!!!!! May be he was talking about his first love?????
" But son, it's worth it"
I looked over him.
He had a sad smile on his face.
"It's worth every hurt we get every second if it's meant to watch them happy and just being there in this living world of ours . Continuing loving them selfishly is what love is after all"
Right
Loving selfishly.....
Was I able to do that???
Would I ever look at Jungkook and Yeri being in love and have kids in future and not feel envious or jealous?????
Would I ever not want Jungkook to come back to me???????
Would I ever be happy with just loving him without wanting anything in return from him??
We stood there in absolute silence.
Him thinking of something I couldn't recognize.
And I thinking of something I would not want to recognize.
" You play piano very well, would you play for me and Jungkook's eommo in our wedding anniversary royal banquet? ".
I sucked on my breath.
Really?? I get to do that? ?? So openly?? In front of all kings and royalties??
" I should? "
" I don't know, who should if you won't son. It's gonna be you or no one"
I laughed out loudly.
Now I know from where Jungkook have got charms.
"Fine, I will. But only if you let me keep this" Puppy eyes would always work!!!!
It was him laughing now.
"Ofc, like it's already yours."
Rest of the evening we spent talking some more philosophical talks about love and life.
Both were the juices of my heart.
I played some more melodies and he occasionally sang a little verses of his favourite music creations .
Preview of chapter 25.
"Angel?? "
A loud gasp left my lips.
"Hyungie?? "