Chapter 5
When the whole world is telling you you are crazy, it is very hard to remember you are sane. This is something that Erik has learned.
Another thing that Erik has learned is that the world is out of balance. Things are tipping dangerously to one end of the scale, then the other and he’s the only one who is seeing the pattern. He is the only one who can fix this. Loki’s voice is in his ear telling him he is pathetic. His therapist says that he wants to save the world so badly because he nearly destroyed it and she doesn’t see the patterns no matter how hard Erik tries to show her.
It is real. It must be real. It is real. He can see it all so clearly.
He takes some of the meds they give him, the ones that let him sleep without a world of blue, the ones that slow his heart when something reminds him, but he doesn’t take the ones that dull his thinking, the ones that stop everything. They take away Loki’s presence, but they stop his thoughts and break him open and he can’t... he can’t.
He knows he is right. He knows the patterns. He knows the science. This is real. He is real. The pattern is real.
It is real.