I like to think back to my past. Probably because it was better back then. My favorite memories are from when i was 5. My mom took me out for eyescream, showed me the human realm, did all kinds of fun activities with me. But.. it went pretty downhill when it came to my 6th birthday.
She probably didnt think i would notice but she started drinking again. I didnt know much back then. Didn't really know much about alcohol and stuff, so i didnt really question it.
I also really like a memory from when i was 6. My mom brought home this creature, she said she didnt know what his name was or what exactly he was. I asked if we could keep it and my mom agreed to it, my mom bought a collar for him because thats just what you do when you get a new pet. My mom said that she named it king, i thought it was a cute name, maybe even a bit silly that such a cute creature could have a powerful name like "king", but i still liked it!
One of my least favorite memories are probably when my mom is angry. She tends to get more angry when shes drunk. I hated those moments. But, something told me i had to keep king safe, no matter how many slaps i had to go through, i had to keep him safe and not let him see. So i did just that. There was one encounter though, it was weird. She wasn't angry like normal, she seemed.. sad. She still smelled like appleblood so i was sure she was drunk. She said these exact words to me: "im sorry. Oh im so sorry, my dear child. My dear edaine, my sweet owlet. Im sorry for slapping you, youre so brave for standing up for your brother and yourself. I wish i could stop and control myself,my anger. Im so sorry." She hugged me, she cried in that moment. That moment always stuck with me.
Over the months she became more angry and brutal. She started hitting me. I dont know why, i dont even know why she drinks. I thought maybe it was because of my appearance. Did she hate my mint green hair? My green and yellow/gold eyes? Was it because i was smaller than people my age? I dont know if it was because of those facts. Im pretty sure it was.
I was always a fan of bard magic/music tho! I loved it, my mom taught me how to play an instrument that she kept in a chest in her room. It was really fun to learn! It was also one of my favorite memories, my mom and i, togheter, teaching me how to play an instrument.
I actually taught myself how to play the piano! Sure it took alot of time but, i think im pretty good at it!
I also like spending time with king, i see him like my little brother, he likes talking about demons, kingdoms and how he ruled. I was fascinated, i loved hearing the stories, thinking on how he ruled. Hes really cute!
I got into hexide when i was about 9, my mom taught me how to do simple spells so i didnt have to come into the baby class. Im really thankful for that. I ofcourse picked the bard track. And mx.whispers became my favorite teacher. They're kind,passionate and patient. They also love bard magic and seem to be very good at it! They immediately became somewhat of a role model for me. I really enjoy every lesson i have with them!
I dont wanna think back to any other memories. They scare me. I will just try and get some rest. I hope i can sleep tonight.