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The sick feeling never really goes away. It spikes and it wanes and during the waning periods it becomes a background noise that you learn to live with. When it spikes, you take your guns apart, one by one or first-step-by-first-step, until it starts to die down. For an anon who prompted Rocket dealing with OCD. Warnings inside.Complete.

CONTENT WARNINGS: This entire thing deals with obsessive-compulsive disorder, so please be careful if your obsessions or compulsions are easily triggered, or if you're prone to picking up new ones from fiction. Intrusive thoughts and magical thinking are included here. It seems maybe relevant to state here that I am obsessive-compulsive.OTHER CONTENT WARNINGS, various levels of severity: Abuse, alcohol, anxiety, blood, contamination (germs, misophobia), degendering, dehumanization, denial of food, denial of water, disordered eating, drugs, electrocution, eye horror, gore, guns, "it" as insult, misgendering, needles, poisonous force-feeding, police, prison, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, torture, violence, vivisection, vomit.