There's no going back
Three weeks have passed and Alex is worried about Kara. She knows where she is but she’s going to follow her sister's wishes and won’t do anything until Kara says so. As she sits at the DEO and looks out over her coworkers she just stays deep into thought. Ever since J’onn left for vacation with his wife, he put Alex in charge. She never thought about this day, ruling or taking over the DEO while J’onn is away.
She genuinely misses him, and if he were here, he would know how to handle the current issue. In an effort to soothe her anxiety, Alex inhales deeply once more. “Alex?” She pivots in the direction of the entrance where the supers enter and sees Kal-El. “What is it?” As she walks towards him, she feels somewhat at ease. “I went to Kara’s cabin. She isn’t there.”
"Wait, what do you mean she's not here?" She said her heart rate increased ten times faster, Kal-El must've noticed because he puts his hand on her shoulder, 'Don't worry, I'll go out to search for her. But she's not there, and I wanted to let you know." Alex shakes her head, relieved that he is here to assuage her concerns.
She just wishes Kara was here to soothe her worries.
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Kara walks around the fortress of solitude and remembers the time she brought Lena here to explore the icy cave. She smiles at the memories they had here. Now it’s just memories, very unpleasant memories that she remembers. It’s a good memory, but the way she looked at Lena as if she was the only woman on this earth.
“What?” Lena asked, smiling at the blushing hero, after noticing Kara won’t take her eyes off her.
“I can’t look at my girlfriend? And fall deeply in love.” Kara said, bringing Lena close. “You’re just saying that,” Lena said and dropped her eyes to the floor. Her eyes found their way back up with the help of Kara’s fingers on her chin, “I really do love you. Ever since I laid my eyes on you. You make me smile every time I see you when you text me when you give me a small kiss. You are all that I need because I fucking love you Lena Luthor. And only you. No one can take you away from you because you are mine.”
Lena gasped at the last part, she understands Kara is deeply in love with her. “I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.” She repeats over and over as she gives kisses in between.
Kara's eyes are full of tears as she sits in the corner of the solitude, arms wrapped around her legs pulled close to her chest. She cries silently and goes through all her memories with Lena. She fucking miss her like crazy.
Supergirl remains on the floor as tears roll down her face and she just looks around, every spot that she looks she sees herself and Lena standing there, sitting there, floating there, falling in love all over again in each spot.
“I love you Kara Danvers.” The first time Lena had ever said I love you to Kara was right there next to the control pad. Lena said it quietly but Kara heard her loud and clear. That first I love you turned into two and three and up until four. The last I love you she ever received from Lena was when they went to the New Year's party at Alex’s house.
“Why do I do this to myself? Why do I fall in love with people who would leave me in the end.” She asks herself over and over again, and can’t find the correct answer. Kara deeply sighed and just covered her face.
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Andrea had made it to L-Corp, last night Lena had left to go to work, she didn’t know if that was her cue to leave or if she was allowed to stay at the apartment. There wasn’t a note left, not even a text message. So she decided to go home and shower put on some new clothes and head over to Lena.
As she walks into the establishment she notices Sam working behind the desk, a smile spread across her face as she sees her best friend hard at work, “May I speak to Ms.Luthor?” She said with a teasing tone, “Yes, do you have an appointment?” As Sam looked up she rolled her eyes, “Bitch.” Andrea laughed at the woman behind the desk.
“But seriously, is Lena here today?” Sam would read her like a book if she made a mistake, so even though she is aware that Lena is there today, she doesn't want her to be aware of anything that has occurred. “Yes, she is here. She’s dealing with someone in her office right now, though.”
“I can wait.”
It didn’t take long, once a man had left the office, Lena stepped out and her eyes landed on Andrea, she smiled at her and Andrea felt a storm rising in the pit of her stomach. “How may I help you, Andrea?” Her voice sounds so different in the morning, the professional voice.
Andrea swallowed her nerves before responding, “I wanted to talk to you.” She doesn’t finish the sentence, since Sam is sitting right there. Lena nodded her head, understanding what Andrea wants to talk about. “Come on in. Sam dear, can you hold all my meetings until Andrea leaves.” Sam faced the brunette, “Sure.”
Andrea takes a pen cap off the counter and throws it at Sam, who laughs when it hits the center of her forehead. “Bitch.”
As the door closes, Lena goes straight to her desk and sits down, gesturing to Andrea to follow suit to sit right in front of her. As Andrea sat down she can feel her arousal now, wet and warm. Those two words she heard Lena say the other night. “Do you have regret?” Lena asked to break the silence.
“No, of course not, I just thought you did because you left without a note or a text,” Andrea said, scooting up a bit in her seat which was a terrible idea.
“I don’t regret anything. Yes, I did leave without saying anything because if you haven’t noticed I work in a company and no one can function with me breathing down their necks. I do apologize for my disappearance.”
Andrea was in relief, maybe this would work out. Them both. But she knows Lena just got out of a relationship, but she looks better than ever. Maybe it was for the better.
“Anything else, dear?” It was a seductive tone, the same tone that made her cum last night. “Fuck.”
“Take your clothes off.”
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Kara isn’t in the fortress of solitude anymore she decided to go for a drink, and now she doesn’t drink to cope with a lot of things. Especially something like this, but there’s nothing else to do. So she goes to the bar. The Alien Bar. Maybe she’ll get better.
As she walks in everyone looked at her with shock, gasps can be heard through the crowded bar. She didn’t pay anyone mind and went straight to the bar to order her something to drink. “Something strong, I don’t care.”
The bartender gave her a thumbs up before fetching the strongest drink they have. While waiting Kara notices someone approaching her from the side of her eye, but she doesn’t turn toward her. “Supergirl. In a bar. My dreams came true.” Spanish accent, Kara thought.
“Hopefully it wasn’t a nightmare,” Kara said still not facing the mysterious woman, but how desperately she wants to know who was speaking to her.
The woman chuckled, sounding like music to Kara's ears. “Never a nightmare when I see my favorite hero.” This time Kara did turn to face her, “Favorite huh?” The woman nodded to the question, “You’ve been my favorite ever since I saw you on television. My dream was to meet you in person.” She looked the super up and down in a seductive way, “Now my dreams are right in front of me.”
The bartender came back with the drink Kara asked for, the blonde thanked her before downing it in one go. “And she can drink.”
Kara felt the burning but it felt really good. She got the bartender's attention and asked for two more, one for her and the woman she is finding really attractive. “So, since you know who I am, how about I get to know who you are?” She doesn’t know where this confidence is coming from, but it just so happens to find its way to the surface.
She forgot why she came here in the first place.
“You can call me, Ash.”
“Short for Ashley?” As the bartender brings the drinks, Ash took off the black glove and grabbed the cup, in seconds it went up into flames, and Kara was not even phased. “Short for ashes.”
“Oh, I see, secret identity?”
“Bingo. Perhaps you can get to know me better." She said while approaching her, extremely close to her lips. " Well, yeah." Ash had slipped between Kara's legs as she rotated her body.
Kara doesn’t know what she is getting herself into, she doesn’t know what she wants at this point. Anything that is thrown in her way she would take at this point. And no one can stop her.
She’s ready to fuck her life up.
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It was late at L corp, and Lena was about to leave. Up until someone opened and closed the door. She turned to the unexpected guess, and it was Alex, much to her surprise. “Danvers? "What exactly are you doing here?" She came to a halt in her work and turned her attention to the Agent.
“I came to speak with you. Why did you end the relationship with Kara?” Alex asked moving closer to the businesswoman’s desk and standing just mere feet away from her.
“That’s none of your business, whatever I want to do, I can.”
“You can. But that’s my sister that you ruined, you broke her heart.” A pause, “you are a good friend, and you know I like you. But I need answers on why you broke up with her.” Lena knows that Alex isn’t going to stop until she gets what she wants.
“I don’t have to answer to anyone, you, the media, or even Kara.” Alex was not having it.
“You’re so selfish, why won’t you answer my simple question? It’s like you wanted this to happen in the first place.”
“I made my decision that day, I didn’t think about breaking up with her before besides that day. I was under a lot of stress and I couldn’t move on with her. So I end it. There are you happy?”
“There’s more to it. Because you’re not hurt by the sudden ending. Did you really love her?” Lena didn’t answer the question, she stayed in silence which made Alex continue, “You wanted to break up with her, but for what? Was she too needy? Was she too clingy? Is it because Kara was annoying? Was she too much for you to handle?”
“WE were getting TOXIC!” Lena shouted, “there was no communication, there was no trust, there were no feelings being exchanged from one another.”
“Don’t give me that bullshit. Don’t sit here and tell me y’all got toxic because I can show you real toxic, and y’all wasn’t. Because if y’all were, wouldn’t your thing I would’ve broken it off? I’m her sister I see everything, and what I saw was her falling in love with you, over and over again every time she would see you, hear your voice, even stand next to you.”
“I don’t know what you expect me to say, that’s my truth, if you don’t believe me, oh well.” Lena isn’t new to this. No one trusts her and she doesn’t expect Alex too.
“You’re hiding something, the real reason why you broke up with Kara. And I just want to know why.” Silence had fallen between the two, alex shook her head, “I’ll find out one day. Don’t think this is the last.” And with that, she left Lena’s office.
Lena sighed, was there something she was hiding from herself? Impossible. But what Alex said made her think, was Kara too much for her?
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Ash’s body collided with the wall as Kara pushed her against it, they were both naked beside their undergarments, both breathing heavily as their mouth explore each other. Kara's hand started to feel around the available skin, noticing how everywhere she felt is soft and very smooth.
They broke the kiss and Kara traveled down Ash’s neck, the shorter woman moaned at the sudden movement, her hand traveling to the blonde locks to keep her right there. Another moan slips out as she felt slender fingers rub up against her private area.
“S-supergirl, fuck.”
As time passed, Kara and Ash went at it like animals, eventually collapsing on the floor. Both were out of breath and tangled with one another. Kara has a grin on her face, but it quickly fades after she comes to her senses.
She sat up so fast, alerting the woman beside her, “Baby? What’s wrong?” The first time this night, Ash spoke in the kindest voice ever which somewhat soothed Kara. “yeah, sorry. I just thought…” Kara has to remember.
She’s single again.
“Thought what? Are you in a relationship?”
“Not anymore.” Ash regret asking that question, the blonde voice had cracked just by saying those words. Kara stood up and went to her closet to get some clothes, she made sure to grab a pair of shorts and a shirt for her guest.
“What happened?” Ash asked as they both got dressed and sat on Kara’s bed. “It’s a long story, but as a summary, my ex Lena-”
“Wait, Lena Luthor? The sexy ass businesswoman?” Now usually Kara would’ve punched anyone who spoke about Lena that way, but she didn’t.
“Yes, we broke up about a few weeks ago, going on about a month now.”
“Why did y’all break up?”
“She said that she’s been really busy and focusing on me is exhausting to her.”
“Oh, I am so sorry that happened. You deserve so much better.” Ash said moving over to Kara and tilting her chin up to meet her eyes, “you are a kind soul, and a very good fucker.” That Kara smiled, “I've only known you for a few hours and you've been sweat to me, you said so many kind words when we were playing pool, and you even lifted me up when I almost tripped on the stair.” Kara laughed at that.
“Don’t let this influence you, there are so many people out there.”
“I know, but I’m going to take a break from love, I can’t keep sending my heart out there and get it hurt. I need to protect it, protect myself.”
“I understand, and you will come over this, it will take so much time for you to get where you need to be. And you’re not alone.” Ash said smiling up into blue eyes. Kara smiled at her and brought her into a smooth kiss.
Ash is right. But what can she do right here at this moment? She still thinks about Lena and it aches her, she doesn’t want to move on, but she has to force herself. And at this point, there’s no going back.