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Alice P.O.V
I stared down at the large plate of food in front of me, a wide grin spreading across my face. It wasn't the prettiest plate of food. Esme could make something better in only a fraction of the time it took me to make this. But this was my best attempt yet.
The bacon was only slightly burnt around the edges and the same goes with the toast. The eggs were a little over done too but definitely not burnt. The yolk just wasn't runny as my mate prefers. But this was close enough. Bella has definitely eaten much worse that I've made with a smile on her face.
There was also fruit salad and coffee but those were hard to mess up. Bella isn't really picky with her coffee. Just a little bit of that italian creamer she likes and some sugar. So this was good. This was the start of a wonderful day. To a wonderful week actually.
I carried everything upstairs with ease, balancing everything in one hand as I opened my bedroom door. Which would hopefully be our bedroom door if things went according to plan this week.
A small pout made its way onto my face when I saw the empty bed. I guess I took too long to make breakfast. I was trying to surprise her with breakfast in bed.
The sound of the bathroom door opening caught my attention as I set everything down on the desk next to my bed. The bed I bought just for us. Our marital bed if you will.
"Good morning sweetie." I called out as I placed the coffee on the desk. I glanced over my shoulder, shooting a smile at my still sleepy mate. My eyes widened slightly when I saw her but I quickly tried to cover my surprise.
She was still wearing my clothes from last night. A pair of sleeping shorts that were pretty long on me but were too small on her. Leaving most of her beautiful legs exposed. The tank top I had lended her wasn't holding up much better.
It looked more like a crop top than a tank top. And she wasn't wearing a bra underneath. That's not what shocked me the most though. What shocked me was her eyes. Instead of the beautiful smoldering brown I was used to, her eyes were an a vibrant shade of green.
"Morning." She grunted, her voice still raspy from having just woken up. Not only were her eyes green but they were also heavily lidded.
"I made you breakfast." I state, deciding not to comment on her eyes. It's a rather sensitive topic.
Just like vampires, her eyes changed colors with intense emotions. Hunger, annoyance, arousal, rage. I chalked it up to her being hungry. She usually is when she wakes up. And she didn't eat much last night.
She just picked at her food at dinner before rushing us up to the bedroom. Practically pushing me into bed and ripping my clothes off. Stating she needed to touch me as she climbed on top of me. I was so stunned by her sudden boldness that I thought that things were going to a completely different route. But she just really wanted to cuddle.
"I can see that." Bella responded and I sat on the edge of the bed. Unable to stop myself from admiring the view. Shamelessly checking my mate out as she slowly moved closer . It's rare that I see so much of her skin. Which is a shame, she has such a lovely figure.
"I thought you might be hungry."
"Starving actually… How considerate of you mate." Bella purred and I shivered.
She rarely addresses me as her mate. I'm her girlfriend, her partner or her lover on special occasions. But her mate? I could count on one hand how many times she has called me that. It feels good hearing those words come from her lips. Feels right. It was possessive and primal and fuck.
I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself but instantly regretted it. I hadn't noticed before, probably because I forget to breathe sometimes. But now it was impossible to ignore. That scent… I've smelled it a handful of times before. Mostly when we were alone together at night, when soft goodnight kisses became heated. But never this strong. Never this much. The scent of her arousal filled the room, clouding my senses like a thick fog.
"I try to be considerate." I responded, gazing up at her through my eye lashes.
"How lucky am I? To have such a kind and caring mate?" Bella asked and straddled my lap.
My hands immediately went to grab her waist as I noticed how warm she was. I know she's always warm, almost hot most of the time. But she was even warmer than usual. That snapped me out of whatever trance Bella had me under and I reached up to feel her forehead.
"Are you feeling well, sugar?" I asked and she nodded her head. Her arms wrapped around my shoulders as she leaned down, her nose brushing against mine.
"You worry too much, just kiss me." She demanded, her fingers tangling through the hair at the back of my neck. Tugging with strength rarely displayed, tilting my head back as she kissed me hard. And I just melted.
Bella kisses me often, well not as often as I would like. Usually I'm the one to initiate any kind of affection. Holding hands, hugging, kissing. But that's because I'm just because of how I am. I love physical touch. Bella enjoys it too but rarely initiates it. Which is not a problem. She shows her love in other ways. But she never kisses me like this.
Soft and sweet. Timid and chaste. That's how I would describe the way Bella kisses me most of the time. Before bed or between classes. Randomly whenever we are having family movie night.
Never greedy or hungry or like would rip my clothes off me. I moaned against her warm mouth, tightening my grip on her waist. In the past, I may have felt a little saddened that my relationship with Bella wasn't passionate enough.
I've seen my family with their own mates. Rosalie and Emmett destroy entire rooms. Edward and Jasper can barely keep their hands off each other. Hell, even Esme jumps on Carlisle after a long shift. Bella and I have been dating for almost an entire year, our anniversary was this week and we still haven't had sex. Which is not an issue! I would gladly wait as long as she needs me to.
Sex is not the issue. But I just want to feel… wanted. Sometimes I just want her to jump on me. To pull me into the janitor closet and kiss me like she missed me. Until we were both out of breath and buzzing with energy.
But I've accepted the fact that that just isn't Bella. Bella isn't passionate. Bella is soft and shy and loving. It took her weeks into our relationship for her to let me kiss her. And she does make me feel wanted. Just not in the way that I'm used to seeing. But here she is now, kissing me hard and deep and oh God. If I was standing my knees would have given out.
Bella nipped at my bottom lip, hard enough for me to actually feel it. If I was human she probably would have drawn blood with those canines of hers. They felt sharper than usual, longer too. I gasped at the feeling, my nails digging into her skin when she slipped her tongue into my mouth. A year and half worth of passion all unleashed in one kiss. It was almost too much to keep up with.
I slid my hands down to the back, grabbing her ass with one hand, pulling her even closer. Bella really seemed to love that because she started rocking in my lap. Rubbing her warm damp center against my thigh.
I pulled away from her hot mouth, ignoring the whine that left her mouth and the way she was trying to pull me closer. Yes my mate was strong, stronger than any human and most shifters in her human form. But I was stronger. Much stronger.
"Bella…" I panted, staring up at my love in shock.
"Alice." Just the way she said my name caused shivers to go down my spine. She leaned down, her lips now on my neck. Sucking and licking and oh fuck biting. Still rubbing herself against me, I could feel a damp spot growing on the outside of her shorts now. She's this wet from one little kiss? I mean she's not the only one but fuck.
"Bella, where is this coming from? Are you sure you're feeling okay?" I tried to ask her and she whimpered against the side of my neck.
"No, I'm not okay. Too hot, burning up, not enough of you. Need more of you. You can make it better. You can make the burn go away. Only you." She rambled between sloppy kisses against the side or my neck.
Her hands had somehow found their way underneath my shirt and I felt her large palm on my chest. And I wasn't wearing her bra. Why would I? Bella and I were just cuddling in bed before all of this. Before I got up to make her breakfast. I never wear a bra to bed, there was no need. Maybe if we were actually having sex, I would have worn some fancy lingerie underneath my sleep attire but there was no need for that.
Last time I wore lingerie for her it was months ago. We had taken a romantic getaway for her birthday/valentines day. A week before that she told me that she thought she was ready to take the next step in out relationship.
I was ecstatic, I did everything I could to make the trip as romantic as possible. After spending the day cuddling and watching movies in front, we decided to head to bed. While Bella was in the shower I set everything up.
Candles, roses, music, everything was perfect. It had to be perfect because not only would it be our first time being intimate together. It would also be Bella's first time, ever.
I was waiting on the bed only wearing a thin robe over the lingerie I bought to surprise her. Everything was going fine. I was sitting on her lap, my hands in her hair, her trembling hands gripping my waist. She was nervous but assured me she was okay. It wasn't until I untied my robe and threw it aside did everything go downhill.
Bella took one long look at me before running into the bathroom, locking herself in there for almost an hour. Definitely not the reaction I wanted. I pretended like my feelings weren't even a little hurt as I tried to calm her down through the bathroom door.
Assuring her that we didn't have to do anything until she was ready. And I wasn't mad at her for "chickening out" and that I still loved her before she finally unlocked the door.
I've since decided that I would not wear lingerie around Bella anymore.
"Bella, why don't you eat your food and then we can tal-" I tried to offer because as much as I am enjoying this. This is all I've wanted these past couple of months. Some passion. Some heat. But this was out of character for Bella. Way out of character. And her health takes importance over everything.
"I will, I promise. Just kiss me, please." She mumbled, pulling away from my neck. Pressing her warm mouth against mine again and again. I melted into her, my own hands sliding down to grab her ass possessively, fighting the urge to smile when Bella moaned into my mouth.
She's so sensitive right now. Is she always this sensitive? That… that would make sense actually. Why the small touches would cause her to tense up… Why whenever I touched her in a suggestive way she would suddenly blush hard and squirm as she mumbled an excuse to stop.
"Take this off." Bella grunted, pulling away from my lips suddenly. I panted as she clumsily tugged my shirt over my head. Ripping it in the process but not seeming to care as long as she got it off me.
I pulled her even further onto my lap, nuzzling the side of her neck as I slid my hands underneath the back of her shirt. My fingers pressed into the soft damp skin of her lower back before sliding my hands upward. Caressing the entire length of her backside.
Sliding my hands all the way up, one burying itself in the back of her hair, pulling her head back, giving me more room to kiss and nibble on her neck. The other hand dug its nails into her shoulder blades.
"What's got you so hot and bothered this morning?" I muttered against her skin, kissing my way up the side of her neck and along her jawline before nibbling on her ear.
"Alice…" She whined my hand, cupping the back of my neck as she tried to kiss me again. I pecked her lips a few times, my heart ached as she tried several times to deepen the kisses.
"Answer me. Where did this come from?" I asked, stroking her back tenderly as I stared up at her.
"I can't kiss my mate without there being a reason?" Bella asked, almost offending that I would ask her such a thing. Shd pulled back a little, her eyes now glaring down at me. She was no longer grinding sensually on my thigh, all movement had stopped.
"What no! It's just… you're not acting like yourself." I explained, trying to defuse the situation. Not only was Bella incredibly horny this morning, she was also quite moody it seems. And the last thing I need right now is for her to catch an attitude.
"And what is that supposed to mean?" She asked and pushed my hands off her.
"Nothing! I was just curious! You're usually not this… affectionate." I tried to carefully pick the right word. Bella's eyes widened and I could clearly see that I had ruined it. I had ruined the moment. Not only had I ruined the moment, but now she was upset. Which was even worse.
"Are you trying to say that I'm usually not affectionate? I kiss you all the time Alice." She growled out defensively and I nodded my head.
"You kiss me a lot. You're very affectionate… I just meant aggressive. You're usually not this aggressive." I tried to fix it but now I've made it even worse. I should honestly just shut up. My mate practically threw herself at me this morning. She was a needy, clingy mess. Begging for my touch. And I just had to open my big mouth and ruin it. Why couldn't I just make out with my girlfriend like a normal person. Why did I have to ask questions?
"Aggressive?! You're the one who wanted me to be more passionate and now you're calling me aggressive?!" She exclaimed and suddenly she was off my lap. Leaving me cold and exposed. I laid back on the bed, groaning as I covered my face.
"I said that one time Bella! Are you going to throw that in my face every time we get into a disagreement?! And you were being aggressive, you ripped my shirt off of me! Which is good! I'm not complaining, I like aggressive!" I exclaimed, leaning back on my elbows as Bella began getting dressed.
"Yes, I am going to bring it up everytime. Because you make me sound like some cold, heartless robot!" She exclaimed and tugged on a pair of jeans she had laying around somewhere.
"I never said anything like that! I just said that sometimes I feel like you're not sexually attracted to me! And I have apologized a million times for saying that!" I exclaimed and she huffed. I waited patiently for a response that never came. Oh great, now she's giving me the silent treatment.
"Real mature Bella." I snarled and she glared at me silently. She grabbed her tray of food which was definitely cold at this point. She hurriedly ate, not even acknowledging how pretty everything looked. Or how long it took me to get everything just right. Just shoveling it into her mouth like some kind of caveman.
Usually, she would have thanked me for making her breakfast. She would have eaten it while it was hot and told me how much better I was getting at cooking. And I never realized how much that meant to me. Until this very moment. Because right now, all I could think about was slapping that plate out of her hand.
"Is it good?" I asked, my eye twitching slightly as she ate. She had already finished half of it.
"It's fine. Would have been better hot." She mumbled with a mouth full of food.
"And who's fucking fault is th-What is wrong with you this morning?!" I asked and Bella scoffed.
"Nothing! You're the one acting weird, not me." She mumbled and gulped down the cold coffee.
"How am I acting weird?! You're the one acting like some kind of caveman!" I exclaimed and she just kept eating her food.
"You're not even going to thank me for breakfast?! Do you even know what today is?!" I asked and Bella burped.
"Thanks. It's Monday, which means I have a lecture in an hour. And I'm going to be late if we keep talking. You can finish nagging me after class okay babe?" She asked as she finished her food.
She threw on one of my jackets which was just a little too small on her as she grabbed her glasses. Her eyes still glowing bright green as she leaned down to kiss me goodbye.
I turned away from her, disgusted that she would even try to kiss me right now.
"You have coffee breath." I mumbled and she scowled.
"Coffee breat- you kiss me when I have morning breath all the time." She argued and I glared up at her.
"That's when you're not being a stubborn ass Bella." I stated and she clicked her tongue. She stared down at me, glaring at first before her eyes widened. And suddenly she looked hungry again. Her gaze lowered and I looked down to see what she was looking a-
"Seriously?! Focus!" I exclaimed and Bella grinned like the cat who ate the canary.
I crossed my arms across my chest before searching for something to cover up with. Not because I was shy. No never. Because I couldn't think when she was looking at me like that. I grabbed her hoodie, staring down at it for a few moments. It was on the back of my desk chair, where she always puts it. Why didn't she grab it? I tossed her shirt over my head before following her into the bathroom.
"I am focused." She mumbled before marching into the bathroom.
"I thought you said you were going to be late." I called out as she rinsed her mouth with mouthwash.
"I did say that." She mumbled as she spit out the mouthwash.
"Well then go, I wouldn't want to nag you anymo-" I started but she reached out. Grabbing me by the front of the hoodie, yanking me closer.
"Thank you for the breakfast. Sorry for not eating it while it was hot." She mumbled, her nose brushing against mine as she spoke. Her breath was now minty fresh and I realized what she had done.
"I still don't want to kiss you." I mumbled and rolled my eyes.
Bella ignored me, pressing her lips against mine tenderly. I melted a little at the sweet gesture, halfheartedly kissing her back. When she pulled back I had to pretend like I didn't want to kiss her again.
"I know what today is. It's the first day of our anniversary week." She mumbled and that made me feel even better.
"Then why were you being an ass earlier and pretending like you didn't?" I asked as she cupped my cheek. I leaned into her touch. Staring up at her through my eyelashes.
"I… I can't tell you. It's embarrassing." She mumbled, leaning down to kiss me sweetly again.
"You're going to be late. You can tell me later." I told her and she sighed. Resting her forehead against mine.
I wrapped my arms around her, comforting my sweet girl. Who was incredibly sensitive this morning. Both physically and emotionally it seems. That's why I forgave her so easily. She was clearly not feeling like herself.
It's not like her to throw herself at me. It's even more out of character for her to pick a fight like she had done earlier. Maybe she was trying to distract me from the issue at hand. It had worked… not for long of course.
"I don't want to talk. I just want to keep kissing you." Both her hands cupped my cheeks as she pecked my lips once. Twice. A soft pout made its way onto her face as she stared down at me. And I noticed her eyes had shifted back to their usual shade of brown.
"We have to talk eventually." I tell her, leaning up to kiss her again. And again. I pressed her against the wall, my hands moving down to grab her ass. Causing a low moan to slip from Bella's mouth, her hands suddenly pushing me away.
"I'm going to be late." She mumbled, her cheeks flushed bright red as she tried to put some distance between us. There she goes, there's my shy girl.
"Okay. I'll see you later." I state and eased back. Always making sure to never push her too far. Even when she was grinding against my thigh and ripping my clothes off. I never want to push her too far. To pressure her, to take advantage of her. I would never. And that's why I stopped us earlier. I probably even let that go on for too long. But she was hard to resist.
"I love you." She kissed my cheek timidly before leaving me in the room by myself.
Bella P.O.V
"Told you this would happen man." Leah states and handed me the joint.
"Shut up." I mumbled and took it from her fingers. Holding the joint between my lips as I threw out a card.
"But no, you never listen, do you?" Leah asked, continuing to rub it in my face.
"We get it Lee, you were right. I was wrong. Can we please just focus on the issue at hand?" I asked and Jake picked up a card only to throw it out immediately.
"What is there to talk about Bella?" Jake asked, reaching for the joint. His head laid comfortably in Seth's lap, who was running his fingers through Jake's short hair.
"I don't know, maybe the fact that I am going into heat? And I have no idea how to hide that from Alice." I responded sarcastically.
"Hiding your feelings from Alice is what got you into this situation in the first place. Why don't you just sleep with her already and get it over with?" Leah asked and I glared at her.
"Get it over with Lee? You make it sound so dull, like it's a chore. They're going to be making love for the first time, it should be soft and romantic. Not some heat filled daze." Seth states and I huffed. Finally someone who gets it!
"Thank you Seth!" I exclaimed and he smiled.
"I agree wholeheartedly, their first time should be special. But Bella won't take initiative. You are attracted to Alice, aren't you?" Lee asked and I nodded.
"Of course I am! She's extremely beautiful and sexy." I confessed and threw out another card.
"And you want to have sex with her?" Leah asked and I frowned. What kind of question is that?
"Yes, I do."
"Then why haven't you yet?" Leah asked and I blushed.
"I'm just waiting for the right time." I mumbled and Leah puffed on the joint.
"And when is that going to be?" Leah asked and I shrugged.
"When the moment is right. I can't do it in her house because I don't want anyone to hear us."
"Okay what about two months ago? When she took you on that romantic getaway. You told her that you were ready weeks before that. And then when she tried to take things further, you locked yourself in the bathroom."
"The time wasn't righ-" I started to make excuses but Leah didn't want to hear any of that.
"What about 3 weeks ago when you two had the place to yourself. You backed out then too." Leah continued and I glared.
"I wasn't feeling wel-"
"There's always going to be a reason not to Bella! It would be fine if you weren't ready or something like that. But you're ready, you're more than ready from what you've been telling us. But you keep chickening out. Why?"
"Drop it Leah, I don't wanna do thi-"
"No, I won't drop it. You're torturing yourself. You're so sexually frustrated that it's driving you crazy. But still you won't do anything about it. You're going into heat this week and it's going to be horrible because you keep denying yourself. Why do you keep denying yoursel-" Leah continued and I grit my teeth.
Why does everyone keep pushing me? I just don't want to talk about this shit. I just want a solution.
"Leah, maybe you should chill ou-" Seth tried to help me out but no one was safe from Leah's wrath it seems.
"Shut up Seth. Stop being a coward and just fuck you girlfriend Bella. It's obvious how sexually frustrated you both are! I honestly feel bad for Alice at this point. You're constantly leading her on but stopping before it goes anywhere. You're lucky she doesn't go somewhere else to get her needs met. You know how many people who would jump at the chance to fuck Alice? I'm not even gay and I would. I would do it right now if she would let m-" I lunged at Leah, my hands out reaching for her throat.
Leah looked shocked that I launched at her like this but I honestly don't know why. This is what she wanted right? She wanted a reaction. I know that. I know she was just trying to upset me so that I would end up saying how I really felt. She always does this. Which makes it 10 times more frustrating when it works. It always works. Maybe a little too well this time. Because now I'm going to strangle her.
"Oh my God! Bella stop!" I could hear Seth and Jacob in the background but I was too focused on what I was doing. Choking the shit out of Leah. She really did it this time. I'm gonna fucking kill her.
"Shut the fuck up! She's mine! You touch her and I'll rip your throat out you hear me?! I'll tear you to shreds!" I exclaimed and punching her in the face over and over. Images of Alice with someone else filled my mind. Someone stronger, funnier, prettier. Someone who was a fucking coward. And it filled me with rage I've never felt before. Suddenly those images of a faceless person shifted and it was Leah.
Leah only laughed as Jacob and Seth managed to pull me off her.
"Calm down Bella! She was just to get a rise out of you! You know that!" Jake exclaimed and I bashed his nose with my elbow. Launching at Leah again who was ready this time.
She braced herself for impact, I tried to wrap my arms around her waist to pick her up and body slam her but she was too damn skinny. She grabbed the back of my head, bashing her knobby ass knee into my own nose and yeah I deserved that one. Blood gushed from it freely as Leah pushed me back. Growling as I caught my footing.
"You'll tear me to shreds if I touch her? Someone needs to since you're too much of a pussy to do it. What are you even scared of?" She asked and she dodged my wreckless blows.
"That I wouldn't be able to please her! She's so much older than me and I've neve- it doesn't fucking matter because I'm going to kill you!" I grunted out and finally landed a punch.
Leah may be quicker than me and have more experience but I was stronger. I had a good couple of pounds of her despite the fact that she was taller. Despite the fact that shifters usually grow about a foot before they transform, I had only gotten 4 measly inches, standing just shy of 5 '8. Carlisle said it might have something to do with my animal form being a cougar instead of wolf. But that wasn't important. What was important was me wringing Leah's neck.
That one punch seemed to daze her, which gave me enough time to start pummeling her. I mean I was absolutely rocking her shit. Blow after blow. I didn't stop. Images of her grimy hands on my mate. Doing things that I was too scared to do. Touching her places I had only dreamed of touching her. And worse of all, Alice liked it. Begged for it.
The thoughts only angered me more and I'm scared that if Jacob and Seth hadn't pulled me off her again I would have seriously hurt Leah. One of my best friends. No matter how much she pissed me off, I thought I would never seriously hurt her. But I was doing more than trying to hurt her now. I wanted her dead for even talking about my mate like that.
Even now as I was being pulled off her, I was sticking throwing punches and kicks. Landing a good kick in the ribs before they could fully separate us. Seth went to check on his sister. When he was sure she was okay, he shook his head.
"I told you to drop it but no. You never listen, do you?" Seth asked, throwing her own words back in her face and even Leah laughed at that.
"Haha, fuck you." She growled playfully and took his outstretched hand. He helped her onto her feet, smiling over at me.
"I'm glad you finally admitted it. You have nothing to be scared of. I'm pretty sure you wouldn't even have to do much, she's so pent up. And even if you suck at it, you're mates. You two can learn together. She's your imprint, when has she ever been anything but kind and patient with you?" Leah states and I know that! But it does nothing to calm me.
Logically I know that even if I'm not good at it, Alice wouldn't be mad. She would probably just teach me. But the thoughts of not being able to please her were gut wrenching. And that was honestly the only thing stopping me.
But earlier, those thoughts didn't cross my mind. I couldn't think, could barely speak. My head was too full and too empty at the same time. And all I wanted was her. All I could think about was how she would take great care of me when I was in heat. How strong she was. How she always protected me, even now when I was throwing myself at her. She was focused on not taking advantage of me and that only made me want her more.
"I have to go away for the week. I can't control myself. You saw what I just did to you…" I muttered and Leah scoffed.
"You're delusional if you think that Alice is letting you go away for a week! She's already worried sick about your little outburst and it's your anniversary week." Leah states and I hated that she was right. But I can't trust myself around anyone right now. I tried to kill Leah. Well I doubt I would have actually killed her… I would have stopped… I think.
" I'll figure something out, I'll… leave her a note and tell her something came up and I'm sorry about leaving so suddenly. And I'd be back as soon as possible." I state and Seth shook his head.
"Don't think that's a bit cruel. It's your guys' anniversary. And where would you even run?" He asked, Leah still leaning heavily into his side.
"I rented a cabin for the next week and half. It was my turn to plan our anniversary trip and she had no idea. It was supposed to be a surprise and a repeat of last time… she has no idea about the cabin and with some help we can keep it that way."
"But about her visions?" Jake asked and I grinned.
"I'm one of the only people who can evade her visions. So that's not a problem. Especially if Leah comes with me." I stated and this plan was coming together nicely.
Leah would be there to make sure I didn't go completely crazy during my heat. Making sure that I ate and drank water. My heat cycles can be extremely dangerous because I forget to eat and drink. So I need someone there to make sure I don't die of dehydration. So not only will Leah be watching over me, she will also be able to block Alice's visions.
" She could track your phone or track your scent." Leah reminded me and I shrugged.
"I'll leave my phone here and I'll make sure to cover my tracks. It's supposed to rain all week, so that should help. And your scent will probably mess with her tracking abilities anyway." I mumbled and smiled widely.
"We can tweak out the little details. I have about two days before my heat officially starts so we're good. I might just get through this heat without Alice finding out."
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I rolled over in bed, burying my face in the pillow as a single tear slid down my cheek. Fuck this is torture, it's not enough. My hand wasn't enough. Grinding against my pillow wasn't even. Fuck even the shower head wasn't enough. Nothing I tried seemed to be working. Despite how incredibly sensitive my entire body is right now, I could not satisfy myself. I have tried everything. Well almost everything. There was only one other option I could think of but that was too embarrassing. Too needy.
But what if this is the only chance I get. What if my plan doesn't work tomorrow? What if I leave and Alice finds me?
By tomorrow afternoon I'll probably be in the early stages of my heat. To think my heat hasn't even officially started and I'm already this desperate. If she finds me during my heat… she'll know how I really feel most of the time. She'll know how much I want her and all the things I want her to do to me.
It's pathetic honestly. It's embarrassing and humiliating how much I want her all the time. And I know I shouldn't call her right now because I'll say things. Do the things that I'm usually too anxious to do. I shouldn't call her but I can't stand the thought of being alone tonight. Not when my mate is just a few minutes away.
I felt myself getting even hotter at the thought of my mate. The ache between my legs increased and I found myself rubbing my thighs together. Alice…my perfect mate.
Images of cool naked skin pressed against my own filled my mind. Small but powerful hands gripping my wrist tightly, pinning them above my head. Leaving me completely helpless underneath the predator above me. Thoughts of soft lips brushing against spot where my shoulder and neck met before dangerously sharp fangs sank into my ski-
Oh god I need her here. I don't care what I have to do or say to get her here. I would get on my knees and beg if that's what she wanted. I just have to have her. I'm going to die if I don't see her. If I don't feel her fingers betwee-
The sound of my phone finding dragged me out of my feverish day dream and I felt a few more tears escaping my eyes. Only these tears were of pure relief and happiness. Alice was calling me. My mate.
"Alice." I sighed out her name blissfully, a wide grin growing on my face. She's coming to save me. She always comes to save me. She's always there when I need her. And I've never needed her like this.
"Bella, are you okay? I heard you got into a fight with Leah." She asked, her voice laced with concern.
"I'm not okay. I need you here. Now. Please." I added on as an after thought. I can't think right now. My thoughts are so jumbled and I just need her.
"What's wrong? Is this about the fight? Did she hurt you?!" Alice asked and I could hear her rustling around on the other one.
"I'm not hurt! I just… I just need to see you. I can't do… it's not enough Alice. I need you." I begged, waiting patiently for her to say anything. Anything at all.
"...I'm coming okay Bella. We'll talk when I get there. I'm going to take care of you, okay?" I almost moaned in relief. She was coming. Soon. Soon.
"Can you wait 30 minutes? I have to shower and get some medicine for yo-"
"No, I can't wait that long! Why can't you understand?! I don't want any medicine! I just want you!" I snapped, getting all worked up again. She said she was coming! Why did she lie? I can't wait 30 minutes. I can barely wait 30 seconds.
"But how am I supposed to make you feel better without medicine? You're sick Bella, you're not thinking strai-" She says softly, like I was a child. I am not a child! I'm not a baby!
"I'm not sick! You're not even listening to me! It doesn't even matter anymore. Just don't come at all." I growled out before I hung up. I threw my phone across the room, watching as it shattered into tiny pieces. Fuck!
Tears ran down my face as I tried to wipe them away. Why is she… Alice is a good mate. The best mate I could ever ask for. She does everything she is supposed to. She had even killed for me.
Torn those nomads to pieces before they could even finish introducing themselves. The leader's name was James I think. I'm not sure. That's what his friend called out as she ripped him to shreds. At the time the sight horrified me. Made me sick.
I was terrified of what Alice could do. What she was willing to do for me. We hadn't even been dating officially at the time. Well it really depends on who you ask, Alice says we've been dating since the first time she spoke to me. We hadn't even kissed yet and she had already killed for me. It was scary.
But now the memory caused my heart to race and warmth to spread throughout me. Alice had killed for me. To protect me. Alice was a perfect mate. She was strong, stronger than anyone her size should be.
She was a good provider, an even better protector. Protecting me and the rest of her family not only with her visions but her strength too. She was also kind and caring. Making sure my every need and want were met. Even if that meant neglecting her own needs.
So why was she behaving like this now? Have I waited too long? Does she not find me desirable anymore? Have i… have I been a bad mate to her? I'll admit, I haven't been the best mate to her. I could be more affectionate, I know that. It's just hard for me. I like touching her. Holding her hand, cuddling her, kissing her. It had taken time for me to grow comfortable doing those things.
I have neglected her needs before but she assured me that it was fine. That she would wait until I was ready. And I'm ready now. Right fucking now. And she's not here. She's not coming. She would rather take a shower… and I know it's not fair.
To demand her to drop everything and come satisfy me. After making her wait for over a year. But I can help but feel upset. To feel rejected. Is this how she feels all the time? After all the times I've rejected her?
Oh god I locked myself in the bathroom last time. If Alice locked herself in the bathroom after I tried to seduce her I would cry. I would curl up into a little ball and sink into the middle of the earth. I don't deserve her. At all.
I was a selfish, unkind mate. She deserves better. Someone who could satisfy her with having a panic attack. Someone who would kiss her and hug her all the time. Someone who does act like an asshole because they can't properly express how they feel when they get overwhelmed. Someone who wasn't emotionally constipated.
She'd probably be better off without me this week. This week… It's our anniversary week. This was such a horrible start to what was supposed to be the most romantic week ever. I had so many things planned. We were finally going to make love, the proper way. But I just fucked it all up. I just had to go into heat. I couldn't help myself. I always find a way to ruin it.
I managed to crawl into the bathroom, washing my face and brushing my teeth when it became clear that I would be getting no orgasm tonight. I didn't deserve one. Not after how I had acted all day.
Thankfully I was already packed. It was originally the bag for the trip with Alice, but it would do for this too. Maybe I should take that gift from Rose out of there. I would hate for Leah to see it. She would tease me for weeks if she saw a strap on in my bag. A strapless strap on at that.
I entered my room, walking to my closet to get the luggage I had packed but stopped dead in my tracks. I stared straight at the wall in front of me, scared to turn and look at the bed. I don't know why I was scared. Maybe I was scared that I was just imagining her and that she would disappear if I turned and looked at her directly. Or maybe I'm scared that she is real. And that I'm not hallucinating her.
"Alice?" I asked, still refusing to look at her.
"Yes dear?" She asked and I noticed the slight edge in her voice.
"Are you really here right now or am I hallucinating again?" I asked and she huffed.
"I'm really here. You seem surprised to see me." Alice states and I closed my eyes.
"I am." I confessed and she hummed.
"So let me get this straight. You basically demanded that I come see you immediately. Then proceeded to ignore all 27 of my calls after that. And you are shocked when I actually show up. Like you asked me to. Does that sound right?" She asked and I turned around.
"That does sound right." I mumbled, not surprised to see that she was right behind me now. She was glaring up at me, her eyes were dark along with the bags under her eyes. Poor thing, she had probably been stressing herself out worrying about me all day.
"Oh and let's not forget all the other things you did today. You picked a fight with not only me but apparently Leah too this morning. You als-"
"Leah picked a fight with me." I mumbled, trying to defend myself.
"Oh yes, that makes such a big difference now does it? Did Leah also make you leave me hanging earlier? You promised that we would talk after you got out of class. I waited for you to call all day Bella! And when I finally got tired of waiting and called you first, you snapped at me! And ignored all my calls!" She exclaimed, shoving me out of pure frustration. And it probably would have bothered me if she didn't do it so gently. I've seen preschoolers who shove harder.
"I didn't ignore your calls. My phone broke." I explained and pointed at the shattered mess in the corner of the room. Oof and the den- Fuck there's a dent in the wall.
"How'd it break?" Alice asked and I growled.
"I obviously threw it. How else would it end up shatter like th-" I cut myself off, forcing myself to take a deep breath.
"Alice, I know what I said earlier but I need you to leave. Right now." I stated, trying to clean up the little bits and pieces of my cell phone.
"Are you fucking serious right now? I rushed all the way over here because you said you needed me!" She exclaimed and I sighed.
"I know what I said and I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking straight, it was the fever talking. I'm fine now. I need you to leave." I mumbled and she growled.
"No! I'm not leaving. You are going to talk to me and we're going to work this out. You don't get to run and hide anymore. I gave you all day to get yourself together. Talk to me." She demanded and I forced myself to take deep breaths. Which really was doing more harm than good at this point.
Alice was releasing a crazy amount of pheromones right now. And even when she's mad she still smells so good. I could feel the heat starting to rise along the back of my neck again. My head became cloudy and all I could think to do right now was bare my neck and beg for forgiveness. Maybe if I beg pretty enough she'll fuck me. Right here on the floor. I licked my lips, imagining Alice's fingers inside of me. Her other hand gripping my hip so hard there would be bruises afterwards. I would look so pretty with her marks on me.
"I don't want to talk right now. We can talk later, next time I see you we will talk." I tried to stay firm, trying to fight the heat. But it was hard. Because I want her to touch me. I want her to fuck me. Even without the heat. I think about it all the time. I'm just too scared. But the heat makes it impossible to be scared. It's hard to overthink when it feels like I'm going to melt unless she touches me.
"And when will that be? When will I see you next?" Alice asked and fuck I hate the fact that she picked up on that choice of wording.
"I don't know. Later." I mumbled, feeling myself starting to sink into the heat again. I couldn't think of a lie right now. My head was too clouded and lying to my mate is a horrible thing. Why would I ever lie to her? Why would I ever leave her? I should be spending my heat with her! Not grumpy old Leah! Leah isn't going to do anything but tie me to the bed and force meditation down my throat like she did last time. She says the medicine is to ease my heat but I think she's lying. It just taste gross and makes me sleepy.
"No! Because you're going to start avoiding me again and I'm not going to let that happen. Do you hear me? You are my mate and we are going to spend this week together. This is our special week." She growled, suddenly pinning me to the wall.
She slammed against the wall a little too hard, hard enough that if I was human it would have hurt. But I wasn't. The rough treatment flipped a switch inside of me. I stared down at her with lidded eyes, my heart racing as she spoke.
"We are going to talk this out. And if you still want me to leave after that I will, but I'm not leaving until we figure this out. I'm just worried about you." Her voice softening as she stared up at me.
Her cool hands reached up to cup face tenderly causing me to lean into her tender touch. Her hands felt like heaven on my overheated skin, cooling the fire that was brewing inside of me. Her pheromones changed, softening as she leaned up to kiss me gently. I sighed against her lips, my heart fluttering as she pulled away.
"I don't want you to go. I want you to say." I confessed, feeling vulnerable but safe. How I ever feel anything but safe with this woman. This beautiful, caring woman who absolutely adores me. Even when I'm being stubborn. Even when I'm being an ass.
"So we can talk?" She asked, her eyes lighting up and I bit my lip. I don't want to talk. I can't talk right now, my filter is non-existant right now. And I can't lie to her in this state. Not when my brain was basically a big ball of mush.
"I don't want to talk." I told her honestly, pulling away from her to sit on the bed.
"What do you want then Bella?" She asked genuinely and I bit my lip.
"I want you to touch me." The words barely came out louder tban a whisper. Even with the heat building inside of me, I couldn't bring myself to say it any louder.
"What?" Alice asked, genuinely confused. Like she thought she had heard me wrong. Which wasn't possible. I could have whispered it from the living room and she still would have heard me clearly.
"I want you to touch me." I spoke with more confidence this time. So there was no misunderstanding.
"I was being stupid and stubborn earlier. I want you here. I want you to touch me." I continued after a few moments of her shocked silence.
"You're giving me all kinds of mixed signals darling." She states, running her fingers through her hair.
"You don't want to touch me?" I asked, pouting softly. Alice's eyes widened and I saw how she instantly began to backtrack.
"Yes! I mean no? I want to touch you Bella, I'm just confused. Where do… where do you want me to touch you exactly?" Alice asked, stepping a little closer. Close enough to grab actually.
I tugged her closer, pulling her down on the bed next to me before straddling her slim waist nervously. She's wearing too many clothes. My mate came. Like I knew she would. She always takes care of me. Even when I don't deserve it. Especially when I don't deserve it.
"Everywhere. I just need your hands on me." I muttered, staring down at my delightful mate. Who for once looked absolutely shocked.
"Oh god, Bella. This is… this is unexpected, is what it is. Are you saying that you want to…" Alice stammered and I sighed. I don't know how much clearer I can be at this point.
"I want you to make me feel good. I want to make you feel good too." I whispered, guiding her hands to my hips.
"Holy fu- Bella you're not thinking straight. You're just sick and confuse-" her hands were trembling as they rested on my hips. Like she was the nervous one for once. Do I make her nervous?
"Can I kiss you?" I asked, unable to take my eyes off her lips. I'm not even sure what she just said to be honest.
"Of course you can. I just don't think it's a go-" Whatever she was going to say she interrupted by my lips. I kissed her tenderly. Despite how I felt like I was burning from the inside out. I still had some sense left in me. I wasn't completely out of control yet. That wouldn't happen until tomorrow night I believe.
I kissed her sweetly, cupping her cheek as I did so. I had been so stubborn today, avoiding her. Putting us both through so much unnecessary stress. We could have been doing this all day. We could have been planning on how to handle my heat together. I'm sure she would be disappointed if she knew I would rather spend it alone because of… shame. But she would understand. But no, I had to be an idiot and not tell her. I still can't tell her.
"God, I love kissing you." I mumbled against her lips, pulling away just enough so I could look at her.
"You do?" She asked genuinely and I hummed.
"Yeah, that's why I don't do it as much as I like. It gets me all riled up just thinking about it." I confessed, nuzzling the side of her neck. Oh she smells like heaven. She smells like home. I wish I could taste her. Oh wait I can.
"Why didn't you just say that?" Alice asked and I slid down onto the floor. Kneeling in front of her. My fingers caressing the waistline of her jeans.
"I don't know. Can I take these off?" I asked and Alice gasped.
"Bella!" She exclaimed, causing a small pout to slide onto my face.
"Sorry, moving too fast. Do you want to kiss more before we… do you even want to um…" I started to fumble with my words, the fog in my head being to clear a little.
"Yes, fuck yes. I want to have sex, Bella. But I don't think now is the right time." She states and I nod.
"Why not?" I asked genuinely, leaning back a little.
"Did I do something to make things weird? Are you just not in the mood? Am I being too forward?" I asked, wanting to know for next time.
"None of that! I'm definitely in the mood, I'm always in the mood. It's just you haven't been acting like yourself today. And it would feel like I was taking advantage of you if we did this now." She explained and I nod. Okay… so it's nothing I did at this moment. It's about all the other stupid things I did today.
"It's almost like… if you were drunk. I wouldn't want to because you're not…" She continued and I leaned up to kiss her softly.
"I understand what you mean. You're not hurting my feelings." I assured her and she sighed in relief.
"Good. I can't keep up with your mood swings today." She states and I chuckled nervously.
"Baby, I um… I know you said you don't want to do anything because I'm not thinking straight. But I really need your help." I state and her eyes widened.
"What's wrong?" She asked and I sat down on the bed next to her. The heat was still boiling underneath my skin but something about being close to Alice had made it easier to think. But it also made me burn hotter somehow.
"I can't… finish. And I really need to. I can't sleep because I'm so…" I tried to explain without saying too much.
"...oh. You're sexually frustrated. That's why you've been acting weird all day sweetie?" She asked and I nod eagerly. Because I am.
That's part of the reason my heats are so bad. It's more intense because I'm used to denying myself. The simple pleasures that most people would take every once in a while, I don't have as often. So when my heat finally does come, it's pretty intense.
"Yes! Usually I can manage to… get things done. But my hand doesn't seem to be enough anymore." I confessed and she bit her lip.
"So that's why you want me to… help you." She states and I nod again.
"But you don't want to help me because you feel like you're taking advantage of me. So maybe we could compromise." I offered and she swallow loudly.
"Compromise. Yes, that seems like a good idea." She states and I began thinking of different ways to satisfy myself for the night.
"Do you want me in the room?" She asked and I blushed. Yes. I need her in the room. Her scent was the only thing keeping me sane right now.
"Yes." I mumbled and she sighed.
"So that means phone sex is off the table." She states and I gulped. Phone sex? We could have been having phone sex all these months?
"Do you want me to watch?" She asked and I almost choked.
"Watch how?!" I asked and she shrugged.
"I don't know. It depends on what you're into. I could watch from the chair or from the closet." She states and I shook my head at both of those options. Those seemed a little too weird for me.
"Why the closet?" I asked and she shrugged.
"It wouldn't have been my first choice either. But if that's what it does for you, I would happily do it for you." She states, leaning close to peck my lips. Despite how utterly embarrassing this was, Alice made it easy. I didn't feel judged at all.
"How about from right here? You could sit at the top of the bed and spread your legs for me. Would you like that?" She purred and my heart was racing. Seems like my mate was back to her usual confident self now. An excited grin spread across her pretty face and it made me even more nervous. But in a good way. A really good way.
"No, that's not it. That's not gonna do it for you, it's closer though." She mumbled more to herself than to me and I watched as her mind began to race.
"I… want you close while I…" I mumbled after a few moments. It's not fair that she has to come up with the ideas and this was for me. I should help out a little.
"So you have two choices here." My mate states and suddenly I flat against the bed, her thighs straddling my waist.
"Two?" I asked and she hummed. Leaning down to place a chaste kiss on the corner of my mouth.
"We could make out and you could reach down between those pretty thighs of yours and touch yourself." Alice whispered in my ear and I bit my lip to keep from moaning at the thought of it.
"That one." I breath out, nodding my head eagerly. She chuckled, still incredibly close to my ear. Which are extremely sensitive by the way.
"You haven't even heard the second option" She cooed and I whined.
"Don't need to." I assured her and began reaching between my thighs. Keeping the underwear on seems like the wisest choice here. I don't want to tempt my mate too much.
If Alice was naked from waist down, touching herself while I kissed her, I wouldn't be able to control myself. Not that I think the thin material of my underwear would be enough to stop her if she did change her mind. Which I would also love. So maybe I should take them off… no.
Alice grabbed my hand that had been edging towards my panties, pinning it above my head forcefully. I tugged at my wrist, expecting her grip to loosen but it didn't. I tugged hard, ignoring the predatory smile growing on her face.
"You're so needy, can't even wait until I finish talking before you try touching yourself." She chastised and I blushed hard. I closed my eyes in shame, trying to ignore the way I got even wetter for some reason.
"Aw baby, don't be shy. I like it. I spent months thinking that you didn't want me." She states and I tugged at my wrist again. She didn't budge, again.
"I do want you!" I exclaimed and she grinned.
"I know that now. Look at the mess you made against my thigh." She purred and I glanced down. Blushing hard at the wet stain against her thigh. I did that?
"I'm sorr-" I began to frantically apologize. Alice had let go of my wrist to take the jeans in question off. But when she saw me trying to scoot away from her in shame, she pinned me down again. This time both of my hands were over my head.
"Hey! No more running, we're finally communicating. I'm sorry that I keep being so… intense. I just… this is really hot. I never thought anything like this would happen." She confessed and I bit my lip.
"I like it… I like it when you talk to me like that." I state and she sighed.
"I know. But it's just a little too much, too fast. Get comfortable so we can get started." Alice instructed as she released my wrist.
"I'm comfortable." I mumbled and she nods.
"Just let me know if you want to stop or you feel uncomfortable. Just talk to me okay? We have to talk." She states and I nod. Talking. I will definitely be talking. Cause that's what she wants.
"I will, just kiss me. Okay?" I asked and she grinned.
"Gladly." She purred and slammed her lips into mine. One hand movie to cup the back of her neck while the other reached between my legs. I slid my fingers underneath the waistband of my underwear, a low gasp leaving my mouth when I felt how wet I was.
Alice bit down on my bottom lip before sliding her cool tongue into my mouth. I didn't even bother fighting for dominance like I usually do. Usually I at least pretend to put up a fight before letting her take over but there was no point tonight. I spread my thighs a little wider, rubbing small slow circles around my extremely sensitive clit.
Alice pulled away suddenly causing me to whimper and open my eyes. My hand stopped moving between my thighs as I stared up at her, tears beginning to form in the corner of my eyes. Why isn't she doing what she said she would? We just got started and she's already stoppin-
"Do you mind if I touch myself too? I felt like it would be wrong if I just started touching myself and didn't let you kn-" She asked and I pulled her face back towards mine.
"Yes, touch yourself. Just don't stop kissing me." I pleaded against her lips, getting even more desperate just at the thought of her hand between her thighs too. Fuck we could finish together if we timed it right. I'd have to hold off because I don't think she's nearly as close as I am.
Alice struggled to finish pulling her jeans off before sliding her hand into her own panties. Her wrist brushed against mine so slightly as she tried to find the best angle but when she did… The moan that left her mouth was heavenly. It made my lips tickle. In a sexy kind of way.
I repositioned myself a little, trying to find way to feel her wrist brush against mine like before. I need more contact skin on skin contact between us.
"We should take our shirts off." I panted as I pulled away from her lips. I open my eyes, almost moaning at the sight of Alice. She was still in her own little world, her brow furrowed as she pleasured. Her mouth open, panting like she actually needed to breathe. Now that we were kissing and my heart wasn't beating so loud, it I could hear her fingers slid-
"Alice." I called out her name and she slowly opened her eyes.
"Yes?" She asked, her eyes fluttering shut again. My own hand began to move again at the sight of her. I could get off just listening to her I think. I definitely could. But seeing… oh god seeing her. I'm never watching porn again. Not that I watch it a lot in the first place but damn. She just ruins everything else for me. Anything, anyone that's not her isn't going to be enough at some point.
"We should take our shirts off. Bras too." I suggested, well I can be honest. It was more of a damn than a suggestion.
"Bella… you don't feel like that's too f-" She asked and I bit my lip as I shook my head.
"Maybe, I just… your skin is so soft. I just want to be closer to you." I pleaded and she sighed.
Suddenly both of us were only in our panties and Alice was kissing me again.. Her hard nipples rubbed against my as she basically squirmed on top of me. I nibbled on her bottom lip as I slid two fingers into myself with surprising ease. It's never been that easy before. Sometimes one is a hassle but fuck. I guess anything slides in easy when you're this wet.
I pressed the tips of my fingers against my g-spot, imagining it was Alice's fingers instead. Despite how small she is, her fingers were pretty long. Well they definitely weren't as short as I thought they'd be. They were long and slender, short trimmed nails and neat polish. And cool. Always cool to the touch.
My back arched and I forced myself to slow down. I'm not going to make it if I keep thinking like this. I need to slow down and think of something else. Like this week… thoughts of me and Leah sneaking away for my heat filled my mind and it almost ruined the mood. Until I thought of Alice what to do if she found me. She probably won't, I've taken every precaution to issue that she does. But oh god what if she does…
What if she tracks me down and finds me? Would she help me? I doubt she could deny me, fully at least. We could always end up doing this again or something similar. She would probably have mercy and forgive me like she always does…
But what if she doesn't? What if she's mad? Jealous even? And she pins me down and satisfies my heat. Put me in my place. Marks me as her mate. Claims me.
"Bite me." I pleaded, pulling away to look at her again. She leaned closer, trying to kiss me again before she realized what I had requested.
"Wh-...where?" She struggled to ask and I threw my head back. Revealing my neck to her. Submitting to her fully. Mark me. Claim me. Alice pulled away a little, staring at me to stare at me.
"You're sure?" She asked and I nodded my head desperately.
"Yes, fuck yes. Please Alice." I begged and she sighed.
"Say my name like that again." Her lips brushed against the side of my neck. She sucked and kissed the side of my neck. Inching closer to the spot I wanted her to sink her teeth into.
"Alice… baby please." I begged and I heard her purr in delight. Well I felt it too.
"I will… give me a second. I know you're close. Wanna… together, fuck." She moaned out, nuzzling the side of my neck as she leaned her entire weight on me. Which was not a lot. But it shows she focused her attention solely on pleasuring herself. Trying to get herself there for me.
While her wrist began to move faster, I slowed my movements down. I couldn't stop, not now. I was so close. I had been trying for hours and failing over and over and over again. Alice managed to do it in less than 15 minutes.
Maybe it was closer to 10 if I'm being completely honest. But I couldn't even be embarrassed. How could I when Alice was just as needy as I was right now. Sure, she didn't beg like I did. And she even teased me about being so needy but I knew she left the same. The same heat, the ache.
"Almost… little longer." Alice sighed out and I tried to not whimper. I really did try to hold it back. But I couldn't. The thought of holding off for even another second felt like pure torture. Agony. But I would do it for her. Anything for her.
I nodded my head weakly, trying my hardest to slow down. I've never been good at edging myself. Not that I would really consider this edging. Would I consider th-
Alice bit down on the side of my neck suddenly and that just pushed me over. I arched against her, letting out a muffled moan of her name and I came. All that heat just boiled over and it was like so good. But not good enough. It wasn't Alice's fingers I was coming on right now. It would hold me over for tonight but tomorrow… holy fuck tomorrow was going to be hell.
I know Alice came too, the noises she made as she trembled on top of me were so beautiful. I'm almost sad I didn't get to see her face.
"Don't stop." Alice panted against the side of my neck and I whined.
"Baby I can-" I started to whine and she growled.
"Don't stop. I know you're not satisfied so give me another one. I know you can." She grunted, her own hand not moving underneath her underwear. Why did I have to give her one more? I whimpered, going faster even though I was so sensitive. Fuck its too much. I can't. I've never done two in a row before and I don't think it's gonna start today. I'm just gonna tell her I ca-
I opened my mouth to tell Alice but she raw moan ended up leaving my mouth instead. Alice had just shoved her fingers into my mouth. The fingers that were just inside of her. I wrapped my lips around her wet fingers, staring up at her in shock.
"It's a reward. For being such a good girl and doing what I tell you. You're gonna give me another now." She purred as I sucked on her fingers, entirely too eager to please her. I moved my wrist faster, pressing against my g-spot more desperately than me. I have to. Anything for her.
Not even a minute later I came again, riding off the edges of that last one. It was intense, if it wasn't for Alice's soft voice in my ear reminding me to breathe, i definitely would have passed out. Her fingers were still in my mouth so it made it a little difficult to breathe like she instructed. Alice smiled down at me as she pulled her fingers out of my mouth.
She grabbed my wrist with her wet fingers, pulling it from my underwear for me since I couldn't. I couldn't move an inch right now. To my surprise, she lifted my hand to her face. She dragged her tongue all the way from the bottom of my palm to the tip of my middle finger before wrapping her lips around my middle and ring finger.
Fuck now she's tasting me too. I could barely keep my eyes open as she swirled her tongue around my fingers. Sucking and fuck that feels kinda good. Really good. I wonder what it would feel like if she did that between my legs.
She grabbed my face and I could feel her damp fingers against my cheek. I sucked and licked them clean for her. Even after I couldn't taste her juices anymore, I kept them in my mouth. It was a nice feeling. Her fingers in my mouth.
"You did such a good job for me." She praised and I hummed. Barely able to keep my eyes open to look at her. Luckily I didn't have to because she kissed me. All deep and slow and god I could taste myself on her tongue. This woman was going to kill me.
"We taste good together." She mumbled, laying her head on my bare chest.
"...what… what was the other plan?" I managed to ask as my eyes fluttered shut.
"I was gonna pin you down and let you hump my thigh while we kissed." She mumbled and my eyes widened. What?
"Oh, you like that? You wanna go again?" Alice asked, glancing down at my chest. Fuck yes. But I can barely keep my eyes open right now. And I'm way too sensitive.
"No…" I mumbled after a few moments and Alice leaned up. Her nose brushed against mine teasingly.
"You don't sound too sure… I wouldn't mind going again, you look so pretty coming for me like that." She purred and a whimper slipped out of my mouth. She was just teasing, we both know it. I could barely move right now.
"Alice… you wore me out." I whined, rolling over so I was laying on top of her. I wrapped my arms around her, using her as a full-body pillow.
"I know. Get some rest. We can do it some other time… if you want." She added on at the end and I nodded weakly. I want to, definitely want to.
"I… love you." I yawned out as Alice ran her fingers through my hair.
"I love you too."