Just Like Heaven

After their night out Loki started acting more friendly. Jane wasn’t sure friendly was the word but he was very polite towards her, nicer. He even offered to help clean the living room as long as the cat stayed away from him. They did talked a lot more too, mostly about some TV show or movie he had seen in the computer or on TV, when he stayed up late looking for something to do.

They had similar taste in music and books. Jane was surprised to find out Loki had read almost every popular and not so popular book ever written by humans and that he enjoyed old time rock music. One thing he refused to do was going outside, Jane had gotten him to go to the park just once, it resulted in Loki getting lost and being arrested after he tried to “steal a phone”. He actually believed that he could just go into a store grab one a leave.

Weeks had passed and Thor hadn’t communicate with her. Not directly. He had sent her a message with another asgardian, asking her how everything was going. She had answered vaguely, it was fine, nothing out of the ordinary and that he could take his time finding Loki a new place. In fact, she was more that okay with Loki staying with her a few more days.

She would never say it out loud but she liked him.

Loki could hear Jane pacing back and forward in the kitchen. It was sort of a routine of hers, she woke up, fed the beast, took a bath and then made breakfast for both of them. He hadn’t realise that he had gotten so use to living with her even though it had only been a few weeks. He liked Jane. They spent a lot of time watching movies or listening to music together, that was whenever she wasn’t working, she often fell asleep on the couch but Loki liked having her around. Without him noticing Jane Foster had managed to get under his skin, in the best way.

He sighed heavily trying to shake that thought away.

They spent a lot of time together, since he didn’t like to go out and Jane was working in her room half of the time, sometimes Darcy Lewis came and Jane gave most of her attention to her but the last two times she had visit, Darcy had included him in their movie nights. He enjoyed when he asked her something about a TV show or a movie and she showed him. They spent a lot of time listening to music they both happened to enjoy, deep inside Loki wanted to ask her to dance like they had done that night a the pub, but he never dared.

She was having breakfast while she waited for Darcy to call her. It was Erik’s birthday and they were suppose to go visit him. this time they could stay all day with him, she was told he was in a better more lucid state of mind.

“You need to shave” She mentioned when Loki appeared, she didn’t know he could grow a beard. More like a stubble, actually.

“Yes” Loki nodded, he ran a hand through his jaw, thing was he didn’t know how to, there was people who did that for him, “Can you?” he dared to ask, examining Jane’s reaction.

“I don’t shave” Jane said and then chuckled, “I mean-“

“I never shaved before” Loki added, “I had people who did that for me”

Jane stared at him, “Oh” she said, she returned her sight to her plate “I guess I could”

She had done it before for Erik, once his condition had worsened. It was one of the last things she had done for him before he asked her to let him go with professionals who could help him.

“I could do it now” Jane said after a few seconds, she looked at Loki with the corner of her eye. The man only nodded.

In the bathroom there was a box with the things she needed. After she left the bathroom she found Loki in the same sitting position on the couch, he was reading another book he had found a few day before. Jane dragged one of the wooden chairs of the kitchen towards the living room, where there was more light.

“Come here” Jane asked.

Loki nodded. He left the book on the couch and walked towards her. He swallowed when she pulled out a razor blade that looked very sharp.

“If you are going to kill me, do it quickly” he said, sitting on the chair.

Jane laughed, “I wouldn’t do that” she said, “Catsby would miss you”

Loki wrinkled his nose at the animal, who was rubbing himself on his leg and purring, he completely understood the beast’s admiration for him but he still disliked the little thing.

“The more you reject him, the more he will bother you” Jane chuckled.

She put a towel on his shoulder, like they did in the movies whenever they shaved someone.

“I saw that on Sweeney Todd” Jane said with a grin, they had seen the movie a few days back, when Loki asked her how enjoyable musicals were.

“Hilarious” He said.

Jane rolled her eyes and sighed. She put the shaving cream on him, rubbing her hands over the line of his jaw softly. Closer like they were she remembered again how handsome he was, how pale his skin was and how soft to the touch. She put one hand on his shoulder and her knee between his parted legs. The most comfortable position she could find and began shaving him.

“Tilt you head to the left a little bit” She whispered, her lips so close to his lips.

“That’s how I go” Loki said, making Jane chuckle, he smiled softly.

“Don’t make me laugh” Jane said.

For some reason she started shaking when she ran the razor on his neck. Loki grabbed her hand providing some steadiness and looked at her. Jane remembered that Sif had told her about Odin’s spell on him. He wasn’t aloud to touch anyone to harm them. Yet, he was there holding Jane’s wrist.

“I won’t harm you” Loki said.

“I know” Jane looked at him in the eye. And she meant it.

Loki let go of her wrist and put his hand on her hip for a fraction of second. Then he reminded it was Thor’s woman he was touching. It was someone else’s woman that was so close to him, touching his shoulder so lightly, while she did something so intimate like shaving him.

But it wasn’t.

Jane Foster wasn’t anyone’s. Smart, strong, beautiful, yet she was no one else’s. But Loki wished she was. He wished she was his’.

“Almost done” Jane said.

So he closed his eyes and relaxed, letting her do whatever she wanted with him. She could have sliced his throat and he wouldn’t have cared, because while she finished, in his mind he was with her. he wasn’t the monster she and everyone else thought he was and she wasn’t Thor’s old flame, he was just Loki and she was just Jane.

“There you go” Jane’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts.

He stood up and walked towards the nearest mirror. He looked like himself again, not that he had ever stopped being, even if he had wished it. Jane’s reflection smiled at him, and he nodded at her.

“Thanks” he said.

“You are welcome” Jane smiled, “I could cut you hair a little bit too”

Loki chuckled, “You wish you were that lucky” And Jane laughed.

A knock on the door made him jump. Jane walked towards the door and opened. Darcy Lewis had arrived with another male friend. Ian something, he introduced himself to Jane.

“Hello” Darcy grinned at him.

“Miss Lewis”

“Darcy is just fine, Loki” She said, “Looking good, all shaved and stuff”

“She shaved me” Loki said, Darcy snorted and looked at Jane, who had turned red in a matter of seconds.

“She shaved you” Darcy said.

“So?”

“Nothing” Darcy shrugged, “You look good” She finished.

“I’m going to change, give me ten minutes” Jane left to her room.

“Five!” Darcy yelled, “The ice cream will melt!”

When she heard Jane’s door close she turned to at Loki, who had gone back to his book. Darcy and Ian sat with him. Darcy turned the tv on and started looking for something.

“So… You are Dr. Foster’s boyfriend” Ian was the one who spoke, Darcy snorted.

“No” Loki said simply, puzzled by Darcy’s reaction.

“Oh” Ian nodded, “So… You just live here?”

“She used to date my brother, he bailed me out of jail and asked her to let me crash here a couple of days” Loki grinned at him.

The poor man looked shock for a few seconds, it wasn’t until Darcy laughed that he reacted. Loki smiled and went back to his book. He had, after all told the man the truth… A version of the truth.

“I don’t understand” Ian said, “Is that a joke?”

“He’s so not kidding” Darcy said, barely understandable above her laughing.

Loki smiled wickedly at Ian, who chuckled nervously.

Darcy, Jane and Ian left the apartment ten minutes later, leaving Loki to his own devices. Jane thought about inviting him to come along but it would have been a rather awkward situation.

They spent the rest of the afternoon with Selvig and returned when the sun was already going down. Jane had brought him food from some restaurant they had gone to. To Loki’s surprise Jane Foster seemed to have been drinking. The same light blush on her cheeks and glassy eyes.

“Are you alright?” he asked as he finished his food.

“Fine” She said with a goofy smile, she was sitting across him on the kitchen counter, she had been quiet but she seemed to be observing him.

Loki frowned at her, “You seem… out of it” he said and crossed his arms.

Jane mirrored his actions and glared playfully at him, “Fine” she said and let out a sigh, “Darcy forced me to do shots” she threw he hands in the air, “There you go”

“Ok” Loki nodded, Jane barely left the house so it was good for her to have fun.

“What did you do all afternoon?” Jane asked, she was now walking clumsily towards the living room, taking her jacket off and leaving it on the floor.

“I read” he answered, walking behind her, “Watched some television”

“I left you alone for the first time in weeks and you watch TV and read” Jane said, she then giggled, like a child, “If you didn’t spend so much time in the shower, Loki, I would assume you didn’t have certain… needs” she giggled again.

Loki observed her while she walked towards the vinyl player. He then realized what she had meant. Masturbation. That’s what Jane assumed he would do once she left. And so cleverly found out he did in the showers sometimes. Once or twice he had pleasured himself, yes, but it wasn’t out of the ordinary.

An old timey song filled the room suddenly, pulling him out of his thoughts. Jane started dancing, a rather funny dance, in the middle of the living room.

“Come here, let’s dance” Jane said, grabbing his hands, “You have big hands” she mentioned.

“Family trait” he said staring at her.

She did her best to make him move but he just stood there, watching his hands over hers. Then Jane slapped him with his own hand, leaving him in shock.

“You-“

“Dance” She said, more like ordered

Loki pressed his lips. And then she slapped him again.

“Stop it, Jane”

“Fine” she narrowed her eyes, and let his hands go, “You don’t wanna dance…” She took a few steps back, “You want to fight”

Before Loki would react, she pounced over him. Surprisingly enough she managed to throw him on the couch, making them both fall on the floor afterwards. She rolled over him, both arms on each side of his head, panting softly.

Loki could feel her breath on his lips, so close that he thought she was going to kiss him, and oh god he wanted her to kiss him. She closed the distance inch by inch and then… her head fell on his shoulder and he heard her snort softly.

“Okay” Loki whispered, “Okay”

He carried her to her bedroom, her arms thrown around him and her face hidden on the crook of his neck. Her soft breathing sending shivers down his spine. He laid her on the bed carefully, and when he was about to leave she held his hand. Ask me to stay, Loki said, but Jane’s hand let go of him a few seconds later.

“Goodnight, Jane Foster”