Talking to the moon
Talking to the moon. Bruno Mars.
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He knows how the time in prison can make you feel. He knows that since he was a kid.
She knows how felts loosing a part of yourself. She knows that since she was a kid.
Both have to know how survive after all of this.
He was tired to be at that place, but he knows how much he deserved that loneliness. Beeing the rest of his life without her, was his punishment. He need to see her, see if she was alive, he can't want her forgive. But his heart needs it. Being there, make him notice all the things he lost, a weird family, a proud father, one smart sister, a scary step mom, and the two most important things in his life: his best and only friend; the one he try to save throwing him up into the sea, hoping that damn metal thing can float, just like Jemma always said; and the only woman he loves.
But what else he can want, if his life was made to kill?
And today, he was there, buried in the dark, totally alone with his guilt, pain and all the regrets. He runs like crazy hitting himself in the cement walls, trying to ease all the pain, and the warm memories about the past, but nothing works... the happiness stills there, screaming in his ears all the errors he made. Showing him all the things he lost.
He close his eyes, and sit against the holographic wall, and it doesn't care if the electrical waves burn his back again, he need to feel that autoinflicted pain, to feel himself alive.
She remains in the darkness of her bunk, holding the tablet between her hands, watching him talking like every night. Sometimes; almost always; she ends crying with him, looking how a part of herself dies every day with him. Thinking of the day she found out he was the high level prisoner in the basement Vault, she was totally angry with Coulson and May, because they are acting like paranoid parents with her, she wasn't a small girl who needs to be protected!.
The day she finally can hack the internal feed system in the camera's room, her heart went into pieces when she looks at him the first time, totally broken, bleeding and bruised... sitting on the floor with his dark eyes fixed in the small roof's lamp, talking to the nothing. One part of her wants to kill him for the things he do to the team, for Fitz's wounds and Jemma's departure, for braking Coulson's faith. But the other, the strong one, wants... needs to forgive him, because that's real love does. She loves him, and she hates him for that. He was the first man she truly cares, he was her role model, her friend, her partner...
How much of his words were truthful?
He was talking about her the first time she can hear him ...
"You're all I have" " Are you outside?" "I never lie to you Skye, not again"
She closes her eyes, attempting to not run after him, because he sounds like an abandoned child, begging for love, she knows he was...
"Did you hear me calling?" "I hope you're in the other side... I need you..."
Who am I trying to fool? He ask himself for the eleven million time that night, she has to hate him now, it doesn't matter how bad he can feel... He lost the only light in his darkness... Skye becomes his entire world, and now he was only a sad psychopath who lost everything he loves. The day he tries to write her a letter, ends with him making an origami knife and an endeavor to kill himself.
She was looking him that day.
Her heart skips a few beats when she recognizes what he's trying to do. No. She always loses everything she loves in her life. Her parents, her foster parents, her friends... No, not this time. Her fate was in her hands this time.
She need to get a way to taking him out from that vault, and later, making them disappear. Because, when Coulson finds out her plan, he kill her, or worse, kill him, and any of those was a good alternative.
"I'm here Grant, just wait, I'm coming for you"
But thise words never be hearded, because once the new girl comes into the team, she attracts all the attention of all of them, and her plans of freeing Ward were killed in the first attempt. That freaking girl takes him out from the vault, puts him in the infirmary and never let his side again, even if he was awake. And after that, that traitor never let's her alone either.
Ironically, Skye start to talk to the moon too, asking her why she was alone now, why she has all those weird flashbacks/vivid dreams/ nightmares covered in circles and lines, drawed on old walls, screams and weird voices, why she can't close her eyes without a scare... why her role models/ adoptive parents never talk to her again, Why this damn girl Alicia tooks away all the things she loves?
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