Chapter 6
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“Why didn't you tell me, Travis, was marrying Li's brother?!" Steve shouted.
After meeting your brother's “fiance", you, Bucky, and Steve went back out to your car get your overnight bags. The Captain started with you as soon as the door screen closed. You stood your ground. This was the second time he's snapped at you unnecessarily and you weren't about to let him get in a third.
“I barely talk to my family now that I'm working at SHIELD and am an Avenger!" you argued back, “And I never knew she had a brother, Steve! I came after she dumped your sorry-!"
The Captain growled and shoved you so hard you fell into your trunk. You were vaguely aware of, Bucky, grabbing, Steve, and slamming him against the side of the car, but you were too busy getting more and pissed off. You hopped out and pushed, Bucky, out of your way.
“You want a fight, Captain? Try and hit me! Or are you just gonna stand there and watch like you did when Li's husband kept beating on her?" you sneered.
Steve's eyes flashed in blind fury. He grabbed you by your collar, nearly choking you.
“I did not just fucking stand there!" he growled, “They were brainwashing me! What the fuck was I supposed to do?!"
You chuckled and pushed the Captain off of you. You were getting to him. Good...
“Or maybe she left because the great Captain America let himself get turned into a monster like the Soldier. Like her," you continued.
“I COULDN'T-THEY-!" Steve shouted, “I didn't let it happen!"
“Tell me how many times more would you have thrown her head against the wall or crushed her bones with your bare hands if the team hadn't stopped you? Would you have ripped her other leg off too or would you have been merciful enough to rip off her head instead?"
“SHUT UP!"
You closed your eyes to prepare for the punch that never came. All you heard was creaking metal and shattering glass. You opened up again and Captain America had put his fist through your roof, causing your rear passenger window to bust out. He was shaking with his back towards you and by the look on Bucky's face, his friend's thoughts were none too kind. For some reason, you couldn't bring yourself to care. You wanted to keep going. You wanted to see how far you could push Steve's rage and pain.
“I can see into your head, Steven, you enjoyed it! Being free from your morals and humanity...How much did it get you off to hear her screaming for you to stop? That you were hurting her-?"
“Agent (L/N)! ENOUGH!" Sergeant Barnes barked.
“No, no it's fine," the Captain said in a terrifyingly calm voice.
Steve turned around. His normally bright eyes were wide, dead, and years away. He gently moved you out of his way without making eye contact. The Captain grabbed everyone's luggage. You relaxed upon his anger levels lowering, instead being replaced with great sadness, guilt, and something that you couldn't place.
“W-w-where can I put this stuff," Steve asked quietly.
“The guest room is the first door on the left upstairs, mine's right next to it," you answered.
The Captain nodded, still not looking at you, and started walking into the house. You looked down finally feeling shame in your behavior. The Winter Soldier came to stand close to you and lifted your head to meet his eyes.
“(Y/N), what the hell was that?!" Bucky demanded, “That was unacceptable!"
You frowned, searching your head for answer. Eventually, you shrugged.
“I-I dunno, I just knew. I could see every guilt in his mind," you said, “I think it's a part of my mutation, James, I-."
You started panicking now. There was no question that your mutation was getting stronger by the day and was getting harder to control, but you didn't expect something so tragic to happen on your first assignment!
“J-James, I-I wanted to make him angrier, I-I it's like the more he hurts the stronger I get. Like I'm feeding off his negative emotions."
Bucky hugged you tight and ran his hand over your hair while rubbing your back with the other one. You buried your face in his chest.
“What if I start doing that to my family?! Oh, Bucky bear, what am I supposed to do?!" you whispered, “I don't want them know that their only daughter is a monster!"
“Hey! How many times do I hafta tell you two? None of that self hate crap!"
He lifted you off him and planted a kiss on your forehead. You felt heat rise in your cheeks. How was he staying so calm? When you first met anyone and anything could set him off, but in these last couple of months, he's mellowed out a lot while you seemed to be going in the opposite direction.
“I know monsters, baby doll, you ain't even close," he soothed, “Just breath."
You sighed and did as you were told, smiling up at the beautiful blue eyes of your supersoldier. He smiled back as his eyes flickered to your lips for a fraction of a second. You put a gloved hand on his cheek and he nuzzled your nose with his with a small sigh.
“I'm gonna go t' hell for this aren't I?"
“Don't we already work there?" you teased.
“Get in this house before you catch a cold!" your mother yelled from the door.
You shouted back an acknowledgement of her demand and turned back to, Bucky.
“Let's go before she gets my dad out here."
“Okay, but..."
His grip on you tightened and you felt the full force of the Winter Soldier's death glare.
“One more outburst like that and I'm pulling you out and confessing everything," he ordered.