Michael Fassbender / Reader (2)
Embarrassing. Yes, that was exactly what it was, to be dumped publicly the way you were. The guy who had previously told you that he loved you had now invited you to a café just to tell you that it was over between you two. That way you were unable to cause a scene or start to cry, which would have been extremely embarrassing for him and he would have felt sorry for you.
There had not been any warning, you had thought that you were happy together and in the beginning of the conversation it had sounded that he was about to propose. The guy was talking about the future and so one and then, just out from the blue, he had said “I am not happy with you”. You had asked what you could do make things better and then he had just said with an emotionless tone “it’s over”.
You looked around a couple of times and saw people staring at you. The conversations in the nearby tables had stopped because the guy who was dumping you had done it by exclaiming it and then laughed at you for not “getting the message”. After that his voice had muffled away and you had just stared at him with a blank look on your face. The only thing you had understood was that he was not even trying to do the “it’s not you, it’s me” thing and he was bluntly going for the “it’s you”.
Then you stood up, left a random amount of coins for the waitress as the tip and walked away. You went outside and of course, well of course it was raining and you had no umbrella. You never did because you never learned. Your boyfriend, no, your ex-boyfriend had thought it was cute which made you to curse it even more. Everything reminded you about him and everything would remind of him for a long time, that you were sure about.
- That was… something.
You heard a man saying with a soft tone. The voice sounded familiar but you did turn your head to look. You stayed silent. What was there to say anyway? You just kept your gaze fixed upon the clouds and sobbed silently.
- It was pretty entertaining-
He continued, standing next to you as you stared at the gray skies. Then you turned your head and the man saw your heartbroken face.
- …but I feel sorry for you. he said while he kept staring into your eyes. Some tears had escaped your eyes and smudged your makeup which made you look even more devastating. Then you turned your head away. The man looked familiar and after a few moments of processing you realized that it was actually Michael Fassbender whose afternoon tea you had interrupted. “Well of course” you thought. It was just your luck that your favorite actor just happened to witness your embarrassing moment. You were about to step into the rain when the man grabbed the sleeve of your jacket and said
- I will drive you home.
- No need. you answered but he did not let go your sleeve. You were not appreciating his valiant gesture because you did not really want to be around anyone at the moment.
- I insist. he said. His tone was firm but surprisingly friendly, considering the fact that he had just met you and therefore he did not know you at all.
- Don’t you have an interview or something to attend to? you asked with an irritated tone. You really were not in the mood for being nice and friendly towards anyone.
- No, not today. he answered and smiled a little. You were not looking, but you could hear it from his tone.
- Fine. But do tell me; why? you asked and then turned your head so you could stare into his eyes. You wanted to know if he was sincerely concerned or if he was just joking or playing with you.
- Because those things that he said were just horrible. He was being unfair-
- I did not hear any of that. So… Thanks for telling me. you stated and chuckled bitterly. It was true, you had not been able to focus on any reasoning that had followed that “it’s over” –part and you were quite happy about that.
- Sorry. Well, I will just get my car. Wait here. he said and put his hand on your shoulder before he left you standing under the awning of the café where you had been standing and waiting for the rain to stop.
- Sure. Where would I go? you mumbled and watched Michael to run into the rain.
He got his car and gestured you to hop in as he had parked it in front of the café. He drove you home and followed you in. He took off his jacket as well as shoes and put his jacket, that was a bit wet from the rain, to dry on a hanger.
- You have a nice apartment. he said as he looked curiously around.
- Thanks. you mumbled, walked to the freezer and took a packet of ice cream out. You cut big slices for both of you, since it started to look like Michael was not going anywhere, took 2 spoons and put the slices to 2 cups, walked to the living room where your guest was standing and gave the cup to him. You gestured him to sit down and did the same. You both ate ice cream in silence and when the cups were empty, he asked
- So what’s the deal?
- I got dumped. Publicly humiliated. Great, isn’t it? you replied and pursed up your lips. This time he did not answer or comment. You felt like he was waiting for some kind of explanation so you continued
- I thought that he was going to either propose or ask me to move in with him but-
- Wait! You’re saying that you had no idea that he was planning to end it. he exclaimed and put the cup on the coffee table that was in front the arm chair where he was sitting.
- Yeah. Just a few days ago we had this serious talk about future… our future together… And now this! you stated and laughed bitterly. You rubbed your forehead and ran your fingers through your hair.
- Wow, that is cruel! Michael stated. He was surprised because he had assumed that your relationship had sucked for some time but you had not seen the signs. You stayed quiet and shrugged your shoulders. The situation had been quite opposite really; the guy had told you that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you, just a couple of days ago. Therefore you felt now betrayed and like a fool. Thinking about it made your eyes fill with tears again.
- That guy is an asshole. He doesn’t deserve those tears. he commented and tried to come up with ways that he could make it any better.
- Maybe not, but I cannot just suddenly stop loving him, you know? you mumbled. It was getting obvious that Michael was genuinely concerned for your well being as well as shocked about your ex’s behavior.
- I suppose you’re right. he commented with a silent, defeated tone. A silence followed. You in a way were waiting for your guest to leave but on the other hand you did not want to be left alone. However you were too proud to admit it even to yourself.
- Shall we watch a movie? Michael asked suddenly.
- Uhm, excuse me? you asked, not really sure if you had heard him correctly.
- Yeah! You seem like a nice person and therefore I am not going to leave you alone in this state. he said and smiled a little. Michael was a very handsome man and in any other situation and time you would have been drooling over him, but now you had no interest to pay attention to such things.
- And what state is that exactly? you asked. Your voice had an undertone of irritation because you did not like the way he could see that you were not alright.
- Heartbroken, crying…
- Ah, I’m a mess. No need to point that out, Mr. Fassbender. I am fully aware of that myse-
- I know-
- So you should leave-
- No… Michael said firmly. He had no intentions to leave now, not even you tried to push him out from your apartment.
- No? you asked and scoffed. “Perfect!” you sighed and rolled your eyes.
- That’s right! So choose a movie and prepare some popcorns. I am not going anywhere. he said with an assertive tone and it was clear that there was no room for disagreement. However you were secretly pleased because, although you did not know it at the time but, that day you lost a boyfriend but gained a friend.
Time passed and after 10 months you started to date again. Michael tried to hook you up with some of his friends a couple of times but most of his friends were more or less famous and you felt stupid hanging out with them. You just did not share anything with them, your lifestyle was just too different and you felt like an outsider whenever you were hanging out with Michael and his famous buddies. With Michael however you kind of clicked but it most likely was due to the fact that you were not trying to be anything more than just friends, besides Michael was always dating someone else so it did not really leave any room for you to even dream about dating him.
After 3 years from your first meeting you were celebrating the third anniversary of your friendship and also “being freed from a bad relationship”. Now that time had passed you were even able to laugh at the whole thing but this particular evening you were feeling a bit low. You had been going out with someone rather many times but then he had just send you a text message saying that he was very sorry but he had decided to get back with his ex. Michael had noticed that you were a bit down and he was about to ask you about it when you said
- You know… Maybe I am not supposed to ever find anyone.
- What do you mean? he asked and put his wine glass on the table so he could focus on you better. He did not like when you said or thought like that because in his opinion you were one of the best people he had ever met in his life and hearing you say how basically you have given up hope that you would ever find someone special, made him sad.
- Not everyone is meant for relationships. And that’s cool. I am fine with it. you replied and tried to smile. The smile was fake and in 3 years Michael had learned to make a difference between your fake smile and your real smile. He liked your real smile very much because it basically lighted up the entire room but your fake smile made him annoyed because it meant that you were not comfortable of showing your true feelings to him. That was when you were alone with him, when you were in public, he did not assume you to be open about your feelings in front of strangers… but he was no stranger. Sure he was sometimes away for long times but he still considered him as one of your closest friends as you were to him.
- Wait, what? No! he exclaimed.
- Come on. All my relationship attempts just end before anything even happens. you reasoned. Michael looked at you and he saw that you were tired of trying anything anymore, for some time anyway. He however did not comment and when he did not comment, you felt like you had to say something because it was clear that he was waiting for you to say something.
- But I am happy as I am. Besides life is easier this way. you stated and emptied your wine glass. Michael commented “hm” and then emptied his glass as well. That was the end of that discussion.
You and Michael started to watch a movie. You always sat next to him and he always put his arm around you. He was the only friend you ever allowed that close and it was because he himself had taken the initiative to get close to you and even run his fingers on your arm when you were sitting next to him. It had been difficult at first to remember that there was nothing more than warm friendship between you two and at first, when he had gotten close, you had reminded you about “nothing but friends” every day. Some women that he dated were a bit jealous for the warm friendship that you shared but for many months he had not been really dating anyone.
With time it had gotten easier until one day you could not think Michael in any romantic way and even the mere thought about him being something else than your friend felt weird. Soon after that night Michael invited you to a party. There were lots of people and somehow everyone seemed to assume that you were Michael’s girlfriend and he did not set anyone straight. You felt confused but did not want to cause a scene by correcting him when he did that, besides you did not want to embarrass your friend in front of his other friends and as long as you yourself knew where you were going, it was enough for you… for now at least.
- So Michael, have you ever demonstrated a perfect movie-kiss to your darling girlfriend? one of Michael’s friends asked and winked her eye at you. At that point you could not just ignore it and as a reaction you stated immediately that
- I’m not-
- No… not yet. Do you think that I should? Michael replied. He was standing next to you, casually resting his hand on your shoulder, like he sometimes did. Then he looked at you. His expression was mysterious and you did not know what to say. You were completely speechless. Then suddenly he stepped in front of you, put his hands on your cheeks and looked deep into your eyes.
- What are you doing? you asked and as you were about to step away from him, he shifted his other hand from your cheek and wrapped it around your waist so you were unable to escape.
- Something I should have done a long time ago. he mumbled, leaned closer and brushed your lips with his. His lips were soft and warm as they kept feeling yours that were equally soft and warm. You stood there with your eyes closed, completely unable to decide what to do. Michael however knew exactly what to do and was not afraid to do it.
He pulled you closer so you were tightly against his body and his presence was surrounding you completely while you were sinking deeper into the warmth that you had gotten used to. It was familiar and new at the same time but it had never been as intimate as it was now. Then finally he pressed his lips on yours and kissed them gently. You gasped involuntarily which made you open your mouth a little. All this was accidental but Michael was not afraid to use any opportunity to his advantage. His lips explored yours and after a moment you encouraged your mind to respond. Or maybe your response was just a reaction to what he was doing, something beyond your control.
The kiss went on and on until you both were breathless. Michael released your lips and you recoiled to the sound of people clapping and cheering.
- And that, my friends, is a perfect movie-kiss. you heard Michaels friend stating. You excused yourself to make some more dip for the chips. Michael was about to follow you, but he was caught up to a conversation with someone else.
You touched your lips that were still tingling from that kiss. “Fuck!” you sighed as you realized that moment had been enough to make you to fall in love with your friend. You took the dip to the chips and then acted like nothing had happened, the only thing you did differently now, was that you tried to avoid Michael now. You reasoned that the kiss had not meant anything to him and he was just accepting his friends challenge and that was all.
The party ended and you helped Michael to collect the empty bottles and other garbage as he put the foods back into the fridge and gathered glasses and plates into the kitchen sink. When everything was done you just said “thank you for the party, goodnight!” and left the apartment before Michael could even react. You had put on your jacket and taken your purse and basically wished him goodnight from the door on your way out. Your head was spinning because of that kiss. You did not want to jeopardize your friendship and you did not even know if Michael had kissed you for some deeper reason. Surely not because he had done it in front of everyone and he had been basically dared to do it. He had had tens and tens of chances to kiss you in private but he had not done it so this surely meant nothing.
After that you continued hanging out but you did not let him close anymore. You just could not because you just wanted to get back to the moment before the kiss, when you had been able to be close to him without thinking about him in a romantic way. Now all you could think about was that kiss and how the world had faded away, how your knees had almost given in and there had been butterflies in your stomach.
You were watching a movie at Michael's place one night, just a couple of weeks after that party. Either of you had not talked about the kiss. What was there to talk about anyway? Michael had tried a couple of times but you had always changed the subject so he then stopped trying. He also tried to get close to you like he had before, but you always sat down after him and made sure that there was a safe distance between you two.
The evening was getting late and after dozing off many times you fell asleep entirely. The movie was not even in the halfway but you had been having a very rough week and you had been lacking sleep due to stress. Luckily tomorrow you had a day off and you did not even have plans, no other plans anyway than to sleep the entire day, although now you were not home and you were not supposed to fall asleep.
Michael paused the movie and lifted you up. He carried you into his bedroom and lay you down on his bed, tucked you in and then got his apartment as well as himself ready for night. He had a large bed so he lay down on the other side of it but after a moment of rolling, he got closer to your sleeping form. You had turned on your stomach and hugged a pillow as you slept. Michael brushed a runaway lock of your hair behind your ear and revealed your face, or half of it.
- You know… you can be so blind sometimes. he whispered as he kept staring at your serene sleeping face.
- I wish I’ll someday soon have the courage to tell you… he whispered and caressed your cheek with the back of his fingers. You were deep asleep and could not hear anything he said.
- …that… he continued and paused to think if he dared to kiss your cheek or not. He decided that it would be too bold of him. However he got a bit closer so the next thing he whispered, he could whisper right into your ear
- I love you.
He was hoping that your subconscious would hear him and you would stop running away from him. Maybe tomorrow he would ask you on a date, on a real date. That was if you gave him a chance to confess his feelings that he had been having for almost a year already.